Midnight Skies
The sun enveloped in a black shroud
The dead of night hardly makes a sound:
Hopeless with silent cry's of the midnight sky,
The reproach of lost souls ;
Dark and misty, the clouds just an outline,
Of the glare eyes of the night .
Vague twinkling stars, in the dusty moonshine;
An eager bright star showing its position
Or else be lost in the misty cauldron.
Passionless grief of despair with no one who cares ,
Lost in the wind , One knows to never cross
The road's at night on foot .
The hooting of the night owls crying out
To the lighted moon ,
Distant frogs croak in shining black pools
A lonely dog howls;
A thud, a bump, a scrape on glass to get away
From what is hunting with anguish grief for you and me;
Is that  foot steps I hear on the stone path?
Those creaking roof timbers,
Sure gives one the shivers , cold wind's ,silent stars
Of the midnight sky's ,
A time for quiet reflection ,deep thought and introspection;
The conscience magnified something hurtful said,
Rash actions and regret.
A sad love song that taken the heart deeper in with more
Pain with glaring eye's like you want to die ,
Sleep comes after midnight with so much on your mind ,
Respite for the weary intellect
Until the great yellow hope rises in the sky ,
Spreading its cheerful warm ray
Heralding a promising new day.
Hopeless , and grief moved on with the midnight sky's
Lover's song's of a nasty goodbye's
Passionless incredulous despair , half taught anguish Midnight air,
Another day and another night moved on why your heart
Still hangs on to what was and not to what is .

Lilly Emery

The stars shine bright
In the abssy of night
The wolves they howl at the moon
Im thinking if my sorrow will end soon
The wolves run wild
Like an unruly child
And run with a pack
Never looking back
Oh how I wish
That I could do that

I feel your presence,
each night that I get lonesome.
I feel your presence,
each morning that I force myself to get through the day.
And I miss you so much.
And I feel crazy, insane, depressed.
That I can't see or feel or hear of you, no more.
Each time I meet strangers,
all I could see, are full of dangers.
I'm so caught up with you.
I'm so in love with you.
But you died in the morning of may.
Just a year ago...
and my thoughts of you, can never go away.
Here I am, just thinking about you, and if you were here today,
I just want you to know,
how much I truly loved you.
But I can't live this sickness of missing you,
I want to move on.
Because you're completely gone.
I want to fall in love again.
I want to fall asleep, peacefully again.
Without having to even count up to ten.
But you will forever be a part of my heart.
But tomorrow is a new day,
and that will be the day we need to be apart.
Goodbye....................
                        for now.
-e.c

Thinspiration kills girls like me;
ACTUAL girls who struggles to GAIN weight.
Proteins, fatty food, healthy food, whatever food,
Fuck all.
Because it's not good.
It doesn't work.
All it does is ruin my mood.
Frustrated.
With how society does not accept me.
Who thinks I need help.
Who doesn't know, that it's just in my genes.
I've been thin since I was a little girl.
I've been thin since forever.
And some may say that it's better than being considered overweight.
It makes no difference at all if people make false accusation,
If people make dumb assumptions, due to how the media is degrading their mentality.
Use common sense. Does it even exist?
Because girls like me, still exist.
I love food.
I love to eat.
But I just struggle to gain atleast a pound or two.
It may be a dream to some girls, but it is a nightmare for me.
Hoping, in the future that my metabolism would slow down,
such as I have wished, even way back in middle school.
It's overrated to say that we're all beautiful,
I know we are. But do we actually mean it?
Because each day,
random strangers stick their noses in my life,
trying to change how I live, how I "eat", how I need to eat.
So stop with the assumptions,
we're all corrupt.
And each night,
I pray that tomorrow, things would change.
We need to change. We're just a bunch of snoopy assholes.
Stop focusing on others. Stop desiring others. Focus and desire YOURSELF.
-e.c

I started accepting
That is what you haven't
This is all what you have
I haven't experienced Mother's love
Hence...i don't understand
The Word Mother

I remember that crucial stage
Of my life
When i was suffering from
The worst time
Yes...I remember those days
She was behaving like an enemy
Rather than a mother
At that time...I need her
I was completley alone
I have cried each and every night
I need then only my mother
But it was not in my destiny
It is not in my destiny
Hence...i don't understand
The Word Mother

I have Mother...but not her love
Whenever ...i get a shove
My Mother don't hold me
I am supportless i.e i have not Mother's love
Hence...i don't understand
The Word Mother

Dear sweetheart
I woke up this morning slumped in a chair
Needed you more than ever but you weren’t there
Where did you go?
I could smell you on my sweater
I woke up expecting us to be together
You left no letter, so I’m writing you this one
I feel all alone, can’t reach you on the phone
Was it something I done? Something I said?
I’m crawling to the kitchen now, need pills for my head
I’m confused as to why you’re treating me badly
This is far from the first time, so this letter sadly
Is the last I’ll send you, in the past I’ve defended you
You defended me too, or at least pretended to
You’ve broke more than you mended
Lost count of friends of mine you’ve offended,
You ruined family gatherings, so why should it be
I find myself missing you, am I crazy?
You’re no good for me,
Good god my head is pounding
Maybe it’s just coz I feel so groggy I need grounding
A good cup of coffee should do the trick
Already late for work, I’ll call in sick
Or did I ring last night? Come to think of it
Have I been to work at all this week? What day is it?
It’s coming back to me, I spoke to someone,
My manager actually told me I’ve broken my contract
Don’t come back she said, this is worse than I thought
Did you know about this? Is that why you’ve walked?
After all it was your fault I lost the damn job
Too much time together
That’s what my friends keep telling me
My neighbour came round last night, he was yelling at me
If I ruined his flowers again he’d call the police
Huh! What a joke, drunk and disorderly
I never feel drunk anymore, it’s just ordinary

As I take a seat back in the chair I woke up in this morning
Head in my hands breathing deep, thoughts forming
All the tell-tale clear cut signs I’ve been ignoring
The pains in my belly, the headaches are a warning
Now I realise
I’m looking at things through new eyes
My wife left months ago, for another guy
It was weeks ago my manager fired me
I haven’t looked for work, who would hire me?
My best friends don’t come by no more, never call me
There was a time when they would’ve gone to war for me
I took no heed, they told me my life is shambolic
Without realising, I’ve become an alcoholic
I’ll never change, I take a can and pull the tab
Hear the tsssk and bring it up to my lips
Drink fast and sink into oblivion, my destructive bliss.