watching the rain fall
like there's no tomorrow
soothes my mind
burdened with sorrow
I wonder if memories
will hold less pain
when dust and ashes
is all that remains
she was soaking in the crimson red bath
and it wasn’t water
it wasn’t champagne either
rewinding to the day
he went running in the wood with his son
laughing, joking they were
the sky turns rouge
just like the color of her cheek
blushing from the heat of the oven
waiting for them at home
It all happened so fast
If his mind is like the black box on the aeroplane
then they found
a flash of an animal
startled by his car headlights
frozen to the spot
then what once lucid became the color of her hair
snow white’s jet-black.
fast forward to the day
two old couples sitting side by side
no words were uttered
it’s the most beautiful time of the year
outside was a celebration of color
lights flickering yellow
Christmas trees viridescence
the child’s cherry colored pom pom
but all that got a shade brighter
thanks to heaps and heaps of snow
not ivory but transparent
like those droplets
running from the corner of the dad’s eyes.
there's no couching this effort...
celluloid film jitteriness of memory...
akin to a centipede thrumming
about a dank cellar.
i can not vacuum this stead...
with mind over matter...you
are It...the holy of holies afforded me.
noteworthy, and uncelebrated...we are--
as far's love's itemized.
incommunicado, and legendary--
our poetic licenses bestowed upon
one another...years would go where they
go...and concerned parties would head-butt
the genesis/apocalypse of our Go...minus been.
my love's no recourse to lovelessness...
(for you...that is) for...i'm drawn to a
picture, picturing overexposure.
Your mind's eye is turned inward
Looking at a distorted image of yourself
Droplets of imagination
Falling into your pool of thought
Static brain ripples
Crashing against the sides
Of your mental boundaries
Those self created boundaries of
Exposing your ignorance
Standing outside the walls of your mind
I see the real you
Through nothing more than a peep hole
Looking deeply into your exposed soul
All the while you stare judgmentally
At your minds eye image of yourself
I can see your light
The part of you that is diamond like in clarity
And until you awake
With full realization
I am alone
Thankful that the story doesn't end here.
In this game of love and loss, we're all players.
Some taken out early and sitting on the bench until the coach is ready to put us back in.
I've spent considerable amounts of bench time myself
because I haven't met you yet.
I've been sitting down and learning all the strategies of love which I failed at once before,
I'm thankful I get another chance.
Maybe next time I'll say things like you keep the blood pumping in my icy heart,
you keep the thoughts in my mind from running astray,
you hold me in a crash-course between fear and adventure.
I'd like to take your hand,
but then again, I haven't met you yet.
Don't give up, please, I swear,
for I'm near you and you're near me, and we need each other to stay.
Perhaps all those lonely nights when I was contemplating ending it all,
I was really calling out your name,
a sense of desperation that was not done in vain.
You can count on me to be the one that holds you in high regard,
and maybe I'll finally pen the right words that will make you appear.
This is probably the millionth and a half or so poem I've written about you,
I'll let you be my millionaire in the sense that you can read all of them
and pick out the best ones like apples from a basket,
after all, you're the apple of my eye.
We'd be good for each other, yes, I can see
you'd be a player in my game and I'd say you were on the right team.
It's a Sunday,
but the sun wasn't out,
maybe you could be the only ray of sunshine I'd ever need.
Maybe you could be the warmth in my veins,
the stitching in my skin that holds me all together
and I could be yours, my dear, if you'll only allow me to be.
I'll write about you until I meet you, and then I'll write even more.
The vast pavements
The wide roads
The narrow side walks
all lead to you.
The weather tells me to stay indoors,
somewhere safe and quiet and sound
but my heart beats like a drum
and so I follow
As I walk towards you, I see
one lamp post dimly litted.
I see the clouds moving slowly,
to the other side of the world.
I see a couple, gazing at each other
deeply in love.
And yet I don't see you.
Thoughts race through my mind
but I still move on.
You laid your eyes on me and beamed. Oh gosh I can feel my stomach flutter!
You walked away. I turned away. Maybe he doesn’t want to see me.
Someone is calling someone and suddenly I hear someone calling my name.
That voice, the voice I wanted to hear everyday,
The same voice I dream to have conversations with.
I missed that voice. The voice I used to hear singing me songs.
The voice I used to hear saying my name, sweetly.
That voice that sent shivers through my spine.
The same voice that I hear even when I’m dreaming.
Your voice who told me those two big words, “Trust me.”
I glance back and saw you, nearer. As if you wanted to talk to me.
That hair, your messy hair that goes beyond perfect with your looks.
Those dimples, your five goddamn dimples that will only be visible when you smile.
And yet I’m seeing that smile, as if it was made for me, only for me to see.
Those eyes, those brown smoky eyes that lit up my soul whenever I look at it.
But I instantly pushed those thoughts away. Maybe he’ll going to ask me why I’m here.
“Why are you here?” Watching you. I’m watching you from afar. That’s the truth!
“I just want to talk to her.” To you! It’s you that I want to talk to, always.
⎯ “I need to ask her something.” What’s wrong with my mouth? It says clashing words from what I really wanted to say. It’s like it’s have it’s own life that I can’t control. Or maybe,
I’m just afraid to reveal my feelings in view of the fact that you might not feel the same.
“Oh, I thought you’re wat⎯” you murmur, “never mind. It’s nothing.” You walked away.
And as your body walk off with mine, you brought my heart but never left yours with mine.
Most of the times it confuse me, why are we afraid?
Here we go again… Afraid to say the words worth saying, and not risking anything.
And maybe, I’ll kill that someone who introduce us the phrase, “Prevention is better than cure.”
As it is harder to prevent someone you love, when you know that it’s them who can cure you.
I just don’t know where to start
Its like I love you
But I hate you
I want to be with you
But I know I cant
Yet you’re terrible
You made me so happy
But still wounded me so bad
Why did you do it?
Why’d you end it?
Were you not happy?
Was what I was going through too much for you?
When you were all I had
When you were the only thing keeping me sane
It makes me mad
It makes me sad
It makes me want to scream
How I couldn’t keep
Let me lay in your arms
Let me hear your laugh
Let me feel the way I used to
Just let me be yours
I just wanna go up to you and scream
Let you know how badly
You mutilated my soul
Let you know how
Bruised my heart is
Let you know how
The words you said
Manipulated my mind
I just know looking at you
Ill fall right back into your eyes
Your scintillating eyes encapsulate the rhythm of my life.
As I deconstruct myself in those smoky panther-like irises,
I get lost in a field of daisies, you nurture with your tear-diluted blood--your heart as a watering can.
I lay myself upon that untamed ground, and breathe in the saccharine scent of the flowers.
I roll my quivering skeleton over, and grasp one with my phalanges.
The petals encompass a swirling galaxy of your moon-crazed thoughts.
The miniscule black hole begins to drag me in to your mind,
I let go of the grassy ground that anchored me to this anguished reality.
And float through the expanse of your transcendent skull.
Around me zip about millions of your barb-wired thoughts,
Leaning myself in for a better view, I still can’t grasp their effulgence.
All of a sudden I whip my neck around, and two eyeballs see a glimmering soul smile you let lose upon a heart.
this popouri of letters,
such fun word play,
it keeps my mind focused.
it can be spot on.
Our score was tied!
I was hoping for
an "f" or an "l" or "x"
but got the "y"
Shake 'em up again...