I wonder if you see me
In your sad memories,
Do you still catch your breath,
Do you still think of me?
When you're down and lonely
And tangled in your tears
So forlorn and empty,
And craving all your fears,
You beg and pray at night
And ache to be in light!
One more lonely, 'not yet'...
Fall in love with your regret.
I wonder if you hear me
In the sad whispered rain,
As it freezes in your soul,
Do you ever say my name?
Have you ever tried to find me
In that sad soulful song?
It sometimes takes a lifetime,
To admit you were wrong.
So this month after my birthday i realized how much my friends matter to me and that i matter to them. They were always a true friend, i am thankful to have such great and wonderful people in my life. Always laughing through the fun and happy times together, making the best memories i have. I'm so grateful to be able to call these people my friends. Thank you life for blessing me with these people. I will forever be thankful i got a chance to meet and know them.
I looked for you for years,
Before I realised I’d already found you,
The traveller,
Who travelled away from home,
And wondered why it was nowhere to be found.
I can’t seem to make you understand,
You won’t see what I see,
You can’t see what I see,
If you did you’d never look away,
Much as I can’t,
For what light, or sight or scene is your better?
Tell me,
How can I see where I’m going,
If I can’t look away?
I no longer know if you’re an enemy to be overcome,
Or a partner to overcome this with,
You, who are mine at last,
Chasing, chasing, running for you,
Taking blow after blow,
And ridicule,
Finally I have done enough,
And I’ve made you smile.
And no one will ever try harder than me.
You will never be seen as I see you,
And that is why I can’t look away,
When I stop looking it’s gone,
I will be the only one ever to see it,
And I refuse to make you less than you are,
By robbing you of the adoration,
Of a stupid boy,
Who gave you his t-shirt.
Why then do you refuse to return my gaze?
As if I would leave you naked for the world to see,
As if I would let anything hurt you,
I would throw myself on my sword,
Before hurting you
You who will leave me in agony,
Made everything as hard as it could possibly be,
And the better it gets the harder the struggle to keep it,
You would give me the hardest possible task,
For a man with my affliction,
I must let you go,
Before you’ll stay with me.
I must look away.
And so the world would take you from me,
And ill be fucked if I’m going to let it.
Who am I to call someone like you, mine?
Maybe I am not now,
But I will be good enough,
Remember always that,
“She’ll love me,
If I get to the top.”
I have never wanted anything more in my life,
No, sight, no sound, no possession,
No one,
Has ever stole my gaze,
The way you did.
I won’t let that be taken from me.
I will fight,
I will struggle and I will fight,
Against myself,
Ill fight the pain and the memories,
I will fight the world that would take you from me,
So that you can leave,
If that’s what you need,
I will fight and I will win,
Gods and kings have waged war,
For half of this,
And so I go to war,
Over the chance,
However small,
That again I will see,
The girl that stole my gaze,
That as I came back to you all those times,
That this once,
You will come back to me.
In the suburbs,
I am driving through the dark heat
of summer night
in a luxury car I don't deserve
to a house that is at least three times too large
In the suburbs,
I am a college graduate,
headed to medical school
and I won't pay for that either
so the remainder of my school fund
is being spent on pettiness
Which is what much of it went to already.
In the suburbs,
my phone flashes
with your neediness.
You shouldn't have left
but I was never there,
not for you or your friends
whoring around
at these high school reunions.
In the suburbs,
all I have are the scraps
of memories,
of trembling hands on breasts
and sticky fumblings
in cars
cloaked with sweat,
of drinking in dark basements
that stunk of my young, bad conscience,
of halcyon days
In the suburbs,
the wind licks from my tongue
the scent of alcohol
but throws dust in my eyes.
In the suburbs,
I switch off the headlights,
and race along the blackened asphalt
as the moon lights the way overhead.
i hate getting to the end of a book
because when it's over
i feel alone
their story is over
i'll never connect with the character the same way again
even if I reread the story
i hate getting to the end of a friendship
because when it's over
i feel alone
our story is over
we will never connect the same way again
even if i relive the memories
The multi-story carpark
was an urban tower
for adolescent escapism.
Despite how that sounds,
The feelings of those times
couldn't be more pronounced.
Hoods up,
Huddled in groups,
Cheap noise blaring
out fuzzy tunes.
We'd mosh to it nonetheless,
Our reverence unsaid.
Winter month's wet weather
brought more to our shelter,
We'd skate, paint and
be anti-social together.
Often we'd engage
in illegal activity,
Around us, this place
would be a hub for divinity.
Drinking, smoking,
stealing and sex.
Party for free,
Plan the next.
Our weekends were spent
surrounded by concrete,
we'd hide from problems
where only we could find us.
One night on the top
at nine o' clock,
a chorus of ringing
church-bells knocked;
I held the girl close as we looked upon the city,
Skystruck teens getting dizzy.
No escape from cherished memories,
Don't run from it,
Confront melancholy.
Nostalgic ache
is a beatific bane.
Good times are never in vain.
30 hours with 45 minutes sleep.
Busy day today,
Much work to do and roll through on a hill that's steep.
Thoughts run deep,
Intoxicated by events.
Some things are meant to happen, no use in trying to prevent.
I just want to vent, soul exposure.
Thinking about people with whom there may be no closure.
Head in the sky as people and houses fly by.
Acceptance is a choice one must utilize, don't just try.
Pandora's box, you know what will happen when you pry.
Send me some good vibes, my body's feeling low.
Deeply rooted into a sea of cravings and mystery,
So I know there's room to grow.
Shaken world superstorm, I thrive on the unknown.
We'll see how it goes, how one will survive.
Count your blessings now, and be happy that at least you tried.
I've had to hide, the person I was to please.
Through this I've accumulated a vast mass of mental fees.
Feel the breeze, it's real and energizing.
Beware of thoughts that breed illness,
No matter how hypnotizing.
Realizing new things on a daily basis.
I've pushed myself to extremes, now the nature of everything is making me face it.
A train's coming,
Slowly I step off the tracks.
It cuts through the land, reminding you it's best not to go back.
Memories are moments, we know they won't last.
Just don't dictate your future, based on what happened in the past.
And up with the flames they go,
memories now turned to ash.
The physical items have been destroyed,
although the memories are branded forever in our minds.
Through the fire we have been healed…
Just as the roaring flames devastate a forrest, so too do plants rise from the ashes.
We have been ravished, destroyed, and thoroughly eviscerated,
Battle tested, and damn near defeated, yet we still stand.
Through the fire we have been tested,
and through the fire we have been refined.
Among the ashes we find ourselves,
and from the ashes we shall rise taller than we ever have…
Hopeless words are
Inked on worn skin,
As tatters of memories
Flap in the wind
The wine-kissed roses
Are now dry and dead,
While the stark white sheets wait
On the empty bed
Hand in hand, we ran along the beach,
And free we were, with no threats of war.
You smiled. I smiled. We smiled together.
That day we pinky swore that we'd be best friends forever.
We laughed, and we giggled, until the sun went to sleep,
Then we made our way home, like lost little sheep.
But at 19 you had left and joined the army..
Haven't heard of you till December 12th...
Today They said you were gone forever
were beheaded for some stupid reasons..
I Kept remembering our childhood together...
There was not a single reason for fear..
That day when we had a wonderful day with you and so full of joy,
I dont want you dead.. Really I want You alive in my memory..
and the memories of that day, I'll always remember and enjoy.
