I got.
I got someone.
Who loves me passionately?
I got.
I got somebody.
Who gives herself completely to me?
She's so unselfish.
She so out going.
That I promise myself to forever make her happy.
I got.
I got someone.
Who's my world?
Attitude and all I love her immensely.
She my magical charm of luck.
Who makes me alone feel comfortable in love?
She know it.
From the unselfish loving I give to her.
I met my love when I
..
In midst a fight
----
Thought there must be a better way
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She was born in hope
And she appeared
Gradually but but with a certainty
Unto my growing sense of faith
She took me from the streets of scorn
And I had reason to see my Self
Naked and ugly but with such
Ultimate perfectibility
--
She too needed me
And so I learned
Never to fear
Vulnerability
We touched eachother always
Sometimes even with the skin
I love everyone she loves
She taught me she loves everyone
She taught me it can't be done
( to love---but not love everyone)
we stood tall until the end
We stood together thru the end
He writes poems for me
I write poems for him
He sings songs for me
I sing songs for him
He plays guitar for me
I play guitar for him
He gets drenched in the rain for me
I get drenched in the rain for him
He claps for me
I clap for him
He breathes for me
I breathe for him
He lives for me
I live for him
He loves me
I love him
This is the way... we live for each other
We have good times and bad
But there's no reason to be sad
We have each other
Love stronger than a mothers
We love to keep
Not date and sleep
You are the one
To show me fun
To show me love
Love sent from above
My passion is you
And has always been you
You are my first
You are my last
So love me now
Forget the past
Give thanks to god
Don't think that it's odd
That your still alive
Through your actions and lies
Through the corruption
Through the unfaithfulness
He kept you alive
Not for your mother
Not for your school
Not for your pride
But for me
And god
I could have left
Many many times
But I stayed
Not for sex
Not because of a happy ending
But simply because I love you
And god loves you
This isn't a honeymoon phase
This is true love
This is our intertwined souls
This is us
She draws the stars
Late into the night
Standing in an open field
Soaking in their light
The beauty that they cast
Helps her pen to glide
When she's finished drawing
Is when she takes to flight
She draws the stars
Colors them by numbers
Throws away all diagrams
Prefers the use of different colors
Gives them all the oddest names
One after another
The furthest ones away
Names them after her ex-lovers
She draws the stars
Then gives her drawings away
To those she meets on the street
She feels needs a brighter day
She gives away the ones she loves
The rest she likes to save
Pastes them on her walls
In the galaxy she's made
She had eyes like caverns
The crystalline water flowing endlessly through
They were the gateway to her past, to her loves lost, and her regrets abound.
"I'm a strong female"
She said
"I can take care of my self"
She screamed, just wishing she could believe it, knowing deep inside she was only hurting herself.
The demons she hides, Clawing their way out, scratching at her
"LET ME OUT!" they scream, only so that she can hear
Never showing anyone her inner most depths.
Never showing vulnerability
For fear she would be cast aside, like a stone blemished and broken.
But I see you, I see your demons, and I see your fears, I see the darkness you hide so well
And I am here to tell you that youre beautiful, if no one else will.
There is so much more to you than you know,
More than you will ever know
Nothing you say will ever change that
Nothing you do, will ever alter that
Because I see you, For who you are.
Your life sprawled unto a sheet of parchment
This isnt your life!
This is what you want to believe is your life
What makes you, Who you are, is the darkness that resides inside of you
It is the fear
The Hate
The Pain
And the Emptiness you feel.
We ALL feel these things
We ALL experience, these emotions, but it is My place, to tell you that I think you're the most lovely entity I have ever witnessed.
"Too much?" you ask.
It is never too much, nothing is ever too much.
The things you fear, are too much, are the things that draw me closer, like a shark closing in on a drop of blood.
These things, that you fear make you ugly, or freakish, I think are what makes you a goddess, amongst average peasants.
I long, for this darkness
I long, for these demons.
Because you are not a monster, you are an angel, in mortal being
Because only in you, does the necessary knowledge, and empathy reside, to understand the broken man inside of me.
Dont you ever forget, that youre walking this earth because you belong here, to counter-balance the atrocity that resides in me.
Would that I could break my body from my chest
crack and spread the bones between my breasts
release the fluttering muscle tied within
a bird bashing skull against my cage of sin.
Would that I could unzip my flesh, step outside
to finally inhale, exhale without such tightened hide
that keeps my anxious breaths bound among
the shrinking corded confines of my lungs.
Would that I could peel back my ribs and skin
at the sternum to set free the beast within
unfetter the spirit that cares so much it aches
from all the petty failures for which it breaks.
Would that I could scream and rip my hair
as though slicing to ribbons each worry, every care.
Would that I could - would I? I know not.
I would just as soon have all loves be forgot.
Spiralling living and dying souls entertwining laughing and crying, Joy pain burning sunshine icy rain gazing into the remnants of the embers and ashes that is all that remains of our eternal flames,Bitterness misery I hear the ghosts of yesterdays whipering bittersweet words that cut completely through me,Her sleepy eyes reflecting the dark skies as my heart entertains every broken promise that she speaks to me,Its been so long letting go feels so impossible Im at the bottom of the top of all the happy places we used to go,Such a long face when loves brings you to such a place of howling wind and darkess I have now become heartless,Here there is no conscept of time the hands on the clock are always moving but they are only heard and never seen,Sleep does not come easy full of nightmares no more sweet dreams,these chains that bind me are growing from my very heart at the end not far from the start,New links added everytime I breathe I cant wait to make you feel like me blindness where even the brightest eyes are unable to see,This is where youve brought me welcome to our hell will I ever be free only time will tell.....
I see you sitting there
That look on your face
The look that says
"fix me. make me feel better"
If I could
I would
I would get up
walk over to you
Take your face in my hands and make it all better
But that would ruin everything
But would it
I let my mind go in circles thinking about it
To love you
or to not love you
Like a little kid picking the petals off a flower
As if that one small flower can tell
Can tell you that that person
that makes you go higher than any piece of grass
loves you or doesnt
but the tiniest fear
that the person that makes you heat up in that one spot
that no one else has even had an affect on
is what makes me sit back down
and i comfort you from a far
hoping that one day
you might give a hint that i heat that spot up for you
but i have little faith
Guzzling water to cure the dry mouth,
I hold my tongue to remind myself not to admit
I love you as a terrorist loves a gun,
But you're even more lethal.
And I can't seem to remember who told me the truth
Because the room was too dark to decipher the words
Like I love you.
Did you mean what you said
Last November
About next February
And still being together?
Blood is thicker then wine but every thanksgiving
I drink instead
Just in case you show up
Like you did beneath the last full moon.
I really can't say I understand you
And I know I never will
But I don't know why I always seem to fall
For the most complicated,
With minds as twisted
As mine is fragile
But for a minute there on the docks
The moon caught your sillhoette
And I swear to God I saw a tear
Trickle slowly from you cheek.
Your hands were cold
Pressed against my heart
But no amount of love can warm them
Or make blood flow where there is drought.
