Every time it rains
I close my eyes and release a prayer. . .
The colossal gray sky
And the living breeze
Gather my poignant thoughts
While I stand overwhelmed by it all.
Hoping once again -
Like one reckless to believe
That wishes come true -
The wind will stop your breath
And you will look out
If only for a moment
At the sky weeping in earnest
And hear a sudden whisper in the rain
Blowing like a dirge, crying
I love you
Hold on while I explode,
my mind is pacing,
my heart is racing.
Don't let me go,
I can't be left alone.
Your love is a light
that shines down on the darkness,
that protrudes my mind.
Your love is a guide
through the thick black forest,
of my crippled mind.
I can feel you,
when you look into my soul.
Hold on while I implode,
the feelings inside,
no where to hide.
Don't let me go,
I can't be left alone.
Your love is a beacon,
shining high upon the hill,
high above my heart.
Your love is the reason,
that I have the will,
to try and restart.
I can feel you,
you make me whole.
I can feel you,
when you look into my soul.
These simplistic,
complex feelings,
leave me floating,
touch the ceiling.
But in the end,
something will,
always be there,
to tear me down.
Hold on while I explode,
my mind is pacing,
my heart is racing.
Don't let me go,
I can't be left alone.
I cannot pinpoint the exact moment that it happened.
That monumental moment when I completely and totally
allowed myself to fall
for you.
I fell hard, uncoordinated and bruised
I crash landed into your arms
and sank into the clouds of your love.
It was too much to absorb at once
so I let some of it just float around me
hoping I could save this love
and let it thrive upon itself
so that maybe
just this once
it would last.
He traced his fingers down my spine
my bare skin crawling with desire
I knew it was just sex
and I knew he did not love me
and I did not love him
but I still yearn for those moments
laying in my bed
with his skin on mine
in a state of utter dispassion
I flick through memories
Like a crumpled dream revisited
The sword dips and twists
Twists and turns
Where there is a forgotten face
There is an angels cry for comfort
I will hide my face in shame
Addiction to love
The poison flowing freely
As the sun blinds
And my heart pumps venom to vertually every
Cell within this bio world I live in
I secretly cry in corners
But all you will see
Is my indifference
My detachment
My symbolic denial of truth
We believe!
WE BELIEVE THAT
"WE BELIEVE"
---
We don't
--------
We are walking
Deadly
drones
-
We look human
Often
-
_
We fake it
------
We can act human
We can get naked and fuck
But
It is only an appearance
Without feeling
-------
We believe in our fucking
WE BELIEVE THAT
"WE BELIVE"
--
We believe in love
We do not love
-------
Drones of death
..
We
Fuck
--
And go on
I don't love you anymore
and I think you know
and I would have loved you forever
if you could have let her go
Why do I find myself so
Weak in your arms?
Why do I fall my knees
To the pit of your charms?
Why do I betray my thoughts
For your wicked lies?
Why do I lend my ears
To your mournful cries?
Why do I lean my
Shoulders when you weep?
Why do I stay awake
Just to watch you sleep?
Why do I feel alone
If you're not around?
Why do my feet dance
When you make a sound?
Why do I catch my breathe
While you walk my way?
Why do I see heavens
When I watch you pray?
Why do I hate myself hating love?
When you're a transcedent from up above?
my lips are quivering
so desperate
to feel you
against me
your voice is
filling my head
and your heart
filling my chest
your silky fingertips
flowing over my soul
your mind working
in harmony with mine
I do not cling to life
That hat is worn out now
I've seen this world
Felt its pain
And now the earth,
It claims me back again
It's time to lose all time
To leave it all
Leave you all behind
I will be greeted at the gate
A mother, father, brother, sister, wife
All await me there
I leave you all with wishes kind
Stories of war, peace and adventures maritime
And memories
But most of all
With love
