There are too many things the little girl wants
A doll, a piano, a new dress maybe.
But as she advances into her new state
She learns she could produce life, a runt of her own.
She shields herself from now on.
From the callous outside.
Missing her daddy and her moms chiding.
She's on her own unlike her play room.
This doll is mine. This house is mine. This key is mine. Thought he was mine.
Not a cent in her name, she carries her child to the steps
Of a place new and sweet. Something inside is loving and kind.
And will put shoes on the Childs feet.
There are too many things a little girl wants
Uneventful parties, Protective inlaws.
And thereafter she leaves the child in the care of strangers
And thinks that it won't be a difference
That the baby will end up 'just like me'
I know exactly what's going on in that head
It's guilty of frustration
Causing all your irritation
Do you believe all that's said?
You can't trust what's made you bled
You're the cat
And your curiosity is chasing you dead
There's a monster that lies under your bed
Consuming your heart
And tearing your power apart
It haunts you in your sleep
Ultimately getting you stuck in your dreams
Now it's been a long dark night
Its time for the sun to come up
This mean cycle has come to an end
Your perilous limit is spent
The grim reaper has came to claim your life
He's been waiting until your humanity was ripe
He'll take his scythe
And sever the hallucination
What a terrible delusion
It's his mission to devour the beast
That hides beneath your feet
You can try
But hell is not something you can cheat
The reapers job is to harvest your soul
Before we all fall into a black hole
Breaking the wrapped around chain
Crashing the track of our egoistic train
Your body is filled up with smoke
Polluting your chest
And clogging your throat
It's strangling you to choke
Conception is in the hands of the beholder
In this life do you see what lies
With your heart and mind
Standing side by side
Now that the scythe has swung
Show me what flashes before your eyes
I’ll tell you what this is all about
Show you the side of me that’s hard to see
Try to understand everything
Now it’s been awhile since I’ve been free
And where ignorance is bliss
I’d have to disagree
There’s no ignorance in freedom like this
And the years that pass by
Are just proof that we’ve grown
Who we become is what we have to show
Don't be afraid
What’s hopeless is your hate
Let it go and watch it fade
Once you stop being so jaded
then you can see the light of day
And when you’re in the middle of warfare
Go ahead and say your prayers
Just don’t hold any expectations
Most likely nobody will hear
You can live your life in vain
If you dare
Why don’t you ignore the lies
It’s not all just black and white
For me there is no turning back
So here’s to the past
Let me give you a clue
Honesty never dies
And it’s true
I never go down without a fight
This part of me there is no compromising
If I don't live up to my potential
Then it’s all just down hill
If you’re scared of the dark
Don’t let fear be your trade mark
Today’s the day
I’m headed for an unknown place
And you know what
I’ll be brave
Running is degrading
So I’ll make sure to look this in the face
Don’t look back
when there’s so much in front of you
Don’t hold back
when there’s win and lose
Why did you spend an eternity in the past when now moments spent are few
Why did you fill colors in my life just to now leave me all blue
Why did you make me so addicted to you that now I think of you in whatever I do
Why did you put me in this position where our love cannot come true
God help me forget this precious treasure
Oh how did I arrive to this torture
In this moment I can see clearly
I know you back-stabbed me, you are no longer my friend
You played with my sensitivity
And now you pretend that you never cared, this is the end
I will erase everything about you
Everything you touched and smelled
I am moving on to live without you
I know your love was all pretend
There was fresh flowers
on the grave
that Jane showed you
outside the small church
the sun was warm
were just over
the hedge surrounding
you could hear them
munching the grass
and trotting by
unconcerned by death
or the symbols
and Jane said
the tractor fell
on top of him
the other month
at the flowers laid there
bright in the sunlight
a small glass vase
holding a smaller bunch
child picked maybe
they'll have to
move out now
that he's dead
a tied cottage
and you could see
in her features
the tearful eyes
mouth slightly open
broken china pieces
where will they go
the mother and children?
the local council
will house them
she gazed at the grave
and picked up
a small flower
from the nearby grass
and laid it
by the other flowers
God bless him
in His peace
she said softly
over the hedge
a bird called
from the hedgerow
you looked at her
a blue ribbon
in her dark hair
her green top
and black skirt
one of the dangers
she said quietly
she moved away
and you followed
and she held out a hand
and you took it
into the small church
in one of the pews
inside and stared
at the stained glass windows
sunlight pouring in
like liquid gold
the flagstone floor
and pew end
at the front
and her hand
still held yours
life and living
and she and you
in his God's peace
and the cows
munching the grass
and birds calling
the eternal why.
They danced on the steps
Of the first methodist church,
Not caring who watched or
How their young feet hurt.
When the clouds rolled over
The sun and the wind ceased
To be breathing, they
Stopped their tom foolery and
Accepted that life sometimes is still.
They walked to the water.
There they saw the ships bound
Across the waves like rabbits
Or horses through golden tinted field.
They were scared for the sailor's,
The sailor's never knowing they
Were thinking of them at all.
After the water, leaving the sailor's
On their waves, they wandered to
The fishermen's docks, where
Crooked poles and wavering hulls
Stood erect and set pointed to the sun.
These were the men of patience
And respect, feeling death and life
Around them in dualistic harmony.
Because they held no lure or pole,
They watched the masters work as
Masters usually do. The sun trickled
Through thin white cloud and the
Wind pushed the twos hair over brow.
The masters were discontent
In their catch and their day. Their frowns
Showed their failure and they wished
That the cold winter weather
Would soon pass them and go away.
The two thinking of two different things,
Then conversed on where they should
Go to next. One said the tower, where she
Had never been before, and the other said
The park, where he had been many times.
Their differences were their love and
Their love was what kept them entwined.
Just then, in the heat of silent argument, a
Master pulled up hard on his bamboo like rod.
"A catch," the man screamed in his native tongue,
"I've got a catch here! Won't you see! Won't you see!"
The two scurried over to where the master
Stood, their eyes peeled to the end of his line. And
As the man reeled and reeled and reeled, he
Soon did reveal a battered tin can and a weathered old boot.
The master plopped the two on the crooked
Wooden dock, cursing to the God in his mind.
The two picked up the boot and the can and said,
"Thank you" and ran up the salty concrete strand.
As they reached their bus stop, they realized
What they'd done and started to laugh at all
Of their fun. The two giggled and cackled,
Screamed and roared, until the two could no longer
Take anymore. After a minute or two, the sky
Straightened out, turning full blue, so the birds
In the sky who soared and cooed, showed they
Really had no rules they were forced to uphold.
The two agreed for home. When their
Bus appeared, they both felt the same, seeing that
Living together was a much better game.
Tomorrow would be another start, just like
Today was another part of a puzzle never
To be finished, only taken to heart.
Now I'm lying on the ground
I tell myself
Remember there's more to life
Just keep looking towards the sky
Only then you'll be one with the sunrise
There's only one way out
And that's what I'm going for
Isn't that what time is all about?
Now the seasons over
And the weathers changing
I had a whole lot of time to think while I was falling
Things never stay the same
There's only today
Forget believing and faith
Life's an art
It's whatever you create
I don't know much about love
All I've had is hate
But I'm still learning
And I'm not afraid
I have feelings I don't even know how deep they run
My hearts been numb
Ands it's always back to the same conclusion
For all the wrong and right reasons
Who are you suppose to be when your only fourteen?
Back when things were fuzzy
And we knew nothing
But you keep on breathing
Even if your not living
Good thing time has a way of changing things
I know you can tell I've been thinking
But I don't think you know that I'm sinking
And I couldn't give you a reason
Maybe it's just the season
I'm looking at you with red eyes
Trying to get away from the routine of life
Since it's so fleeting
And all they want is money
What happened to the meaning?
Born into a world
You have to pay for
We spend it trying to make a living
Then retire when your sixty
If you make it
And the blizzard
I'll never forget
How cold it could get
That icy snow froze me to the bone
I thought I would never see the sun again
Cause and effect manifest
Your conclusion has to be your very best
Doors slide open, you walk out in slow motion.
Just another day,
Trying to find a way
To make the pain subside
But you're broken inside
Trying to find a place to hide, but no need.
You're invisible. In your mind, you live life unseen.
Why does it hurt?
Why does it feel as if your shirt's too tight at the collar?
Struggling to breath.
Struggling to leave.
This space inside your heart.
Trying to forget. Undecided. Confused. Lost. Regret?
People fly by, trying to get by
Pushing their way through
Pushing right past you
Right by you
Right through you.
Fighting back to hold those tears
Trying not to show those fears.
Why? How? Does it have to be this way?
Why is there nothing left to say?
These thoughts float around in your mind and
Your life becomes simply... Grey.
Make a left around the corner,
Brush your hair aside,
Now you can't hide
Maybe it's time to start over...
Maybe it's time to let go...
Not everyone is angry
Not everyone is horrible
Not everyone is mean.
While you tried to go unseen, I saw you.
I saw you.
I felt what you were, heard what you thought, tasted what you craved
You're beauty so rare, so unique, so breath-taking, so mind-boggling, so heart-wrenching.
Did you think the world is blind?
Do you think for one second that you can stay out of my mind?! What mind..?
I lost that when I saw you.
And with my mind, my heart went too.
And crazy dreams I started chasing...
How did you expect to go unnoticed, when you're just so damn amazing?
Like black on white.
Like dark on light.
With strength and might you snatched my heart
Without realization of the cost.
Could it be that you're just a part of my imagination
Or is this just my hopes flying too high?
It can't be, not I. This isn't like me.
Why can't I see anyone but you?
You carry on through life
People pushing past you, flying by
And you think you're unnoticed.
Well how can this be?
Because the thing YOU didn't notice
Is that the one going unnoticed
Just so happens to be me.
"What's on my mind? The same thing that's been on my mind since our first blessed encounter... the day we met. There is nothing I want more, and nothing I wouldn't give... but not out of greed or lust or obsession. but out of pure and honest love. I want her... no... need her. She's the air that I breathe, yet now I feel so breathless. Poisoned by torturing pleasure, sweetened by blissful pain. She is my life." -Y.M.
Why do I cry? Is it because you'll never know? Is it because I can't tell you everything that's deeply carved in my mind and in my heart? Or is it because I know that even if I did it wouldn't make a difference?
For her are the tears that slowly roll down my face, gently resting on the corners of my quivering lips. For her are the countless hours spent reminiscing. Hers are my every thought, every effort and every intention of my days. For her is my breath. For her is my heartbeat. For her is my very soul. She is my everything, for she is all that I am and all that I lack. For her I cry every night. I have met my demise.
"Trying to forget her is like trying to forget vital functions... Forget how to walk, talk, breathe. It's simply not possible. So I stay here and wait. Forever if I must. Forever is a long time, but whats the point of living if it can't be with her? My heart will never be at rest until it is with its other half, even if it does take forever. Forever waiting for my life to begin. Forever waiting to complete my soul. Forever waiting to love you forever." -Y. M.