I didn't know I could grow to need someone
As much as I need you.
You're more to me than the sun
Because it is you that awakens me
But you are also the moon that puts me to sleep
And the stars that kiss me goodnight
Do not shine half as bright as your eyes
And my bed only seems to grasp half the warmth of your embrace
It seems no matter how hard I try
to find something better than you
The easier it is to find what lacks
And I wonder if you feel the same way
Do I fill your mind with crazy beautiful thoughts
Or make your heart beat two thousand times faster
Or make your hands shake for fear your touch?
Because you fill my mind with precarious words strung recklessly around my neck
And I feel gloriously nervous around you-
But the best kind of nervous
And my hands shake so tediously around you
For I am afraid of breaking
the one beautiful thing in my life
Aye Reke, do you see that girl over there?
With the beautiful eyes and long curly hair.
(Yea) she looking good so try not to stare.
("She prolly gotta man, Sean,")
Well I don't f__king care.
("I'm just saying do your thing, but beware.")
You know I will I just found the answer to my prayers
and so what we already know that life aint fair.
If I don't do this now I might not see her anywhere
You got yours, now let me get mine,
("Sean, she's coming over here")
now's the perfect time
Girl I only have 1Life 2Live I see the signs,
Read in between the lines,
I want to see inside and
Know whats on your mind
Cause beauties only skin deep
I love the way that you speak
you feeling me
I'm the last of dying breed
and we only have 1Life2Live
Let's L eye V E.
To listen to you talk
To drive, to take a walk.
Just us girls beneath the sun.
Where we laugh and sing a ton.
No one else like you,
Who loves life and all that's new.
Who turns the song up loud
And belts it strong and proud.
You turn the windows down,
We cruise around the town.
Then to the countryside,
Where streets are long and wide.
I could go with you til dawn
If the drive could just go on.
I love that fiery heart
That I'll miss when we're apart.
But sister, you should know,
To me, you shine, you glow.
So don't you ever change,
Or I'll love you just the same.
I know, at least in part, what I'm saying,
Listen, this is important, and I don't like to repeat myself,
"Jackie, no means no."
I trusted then, so trust me now, hear me out,
Since experiences have settled into maturity, I remind you,
"Mom, trust yourself."
There is a quiet spirit near me at all
That tell's me not to his love that he
Give's for human kind ;
Don't have fear Jehovah is near ready
To forgive ;
You will not see him with an open eyes ,
Then I cry !
I need you , I need your help, I am lost
And I am scared ; Please say you care,
I had come to depend upon you in all I do;
Then I look and I find a Watchtower for all
That tell's '' Keep yourselves in God's
Love '' Then I new , they ware talking to me to
I was lost and know I have been found to do
What Jehovah ask of me to do ,
And that would be to teach his words to you .
I want to erase
every person who touched you
how I wish you were a notebook
I could just turn to
the next page.
know how to write for me
because you wrote for them first,
because you fucked them before me.
I have the breath
of other women now:
you kiss me, and it is shared.
everyone should die
when they want to touch someone
not just a little, but full
cellular reincarnation, new hands.
and I am mad that they still
with pieces of you
and I am mad that you still exist
with pieces of them
and I am mad that
we use the same language to say I
love you that you did with
he seeks shelter from the rain
in the coffee shop
she offers him a cup of joe
she offers a moment to reflect
the hipsters and hangers about
fill her world with sight and sound
fill her senses with smiles and joy
but inside she know she needs something more
that this place is just an emblem
and cannot sustain a soul like her
she could have anything
she just need ask
but she cant find the words to describe
cant find an image to convey
her souls need
but its clear to him
its a ship sailing to distant spain
its a road leading out into a western desert
its a train rolling thru a dark stormy night to a northern town
its a footpath thru mist
its a man seeking shelter from the rain
he leaves with her smile
which she gave with a hopefull heart
wrestle with the shadows in his heart
but its her face that lingers
in the late hour
in this last time he will stand
the standards of the champions
the fighters for truth
and the ones too dark to do else but die
they gather in harsh light
and prepare to do battle and stand their ground
a prince of the beasts proud and fair
a champion to the ones who have no strength to call their own
the frame of time captures only the movement
but the fickle thought of who he is
prince of beasts proud and fair
champion of the clean linen uniform
regal bearer of the standard of a rising sun
reflected only in the young eyes
those cheering champions like him on from the side
but its only her smile that lingers for him
as his life flows spent onto the sand
she never did catch that train
never did escape that shop
never did grow beyond the borders
of the hipsters and hangers on
but least they loved her too
in their way
and that is some comfort
edit: the cup of coffee may have been a illusion. it has been redacted from reality
I have secrets,
just like everyone else.
I don’t know what they are,
but I know they’re there.
I can feel them in my chest,
weighing down my lungs.
They swell up in my throat,
creating a lump I can’t swallow.
Maybe it’s better off that way;
for them to be so confidential
to the point where even I
don’t know what they are.
back and forth
before they are
of a native
I know my mother
by the back
of her hand
I don’t believe
The bar was empty .
The bartender like always made another run through making sure all was clean and in order.
When like some weird mental ninja she found someone sleeping in a booth.
The man seemed so peaceful lost in perfect drunken slumber.
So she did what any kind hearted soul who stumbled apon some sleeping drunk in a booth
Kicked the shit outta it and said.
Look asshole how many times have I told you stop passing out here dont you have a fucking
But this wasnt any regular drunken sleeping beuthy of a arsehole .
It was everyones favorite drunken arsehole.
And the misspelling madman of hello Gonzo.
Oh my lord someone catch that donkey for he finds out Taylor Swift's in town.
Yes the kids went for a braindead bubblegum shit fest and ended
up with nature show or more like a donkey show but what jackass
hadnt been with Taylor Swift?
What the hell are you talking about.!
The barmaid said to me looking angry yet still there was that strange look of hey if this were a porn something was about to happen.
Hey there Susan, Becky,Rebbeca whatever the hell your name is another round please.
Are you fucking nuts!
The woman seemed tense but I had to ask myself was this a trick question?
I thought long and hard yet stayed semi soft in thought that is get your mind outta the gutter ya perves.
Look miss lets not kid each other theres a reason im here besides the fact that im a drunk
that and im avoiding the cops.
No one would ever think to look for me in a bar.
Yeah you sit behind that bar looking at me asking will that be all but lets cut the crap.
The woman was silent as I could tell there was a connection on one of thoose
deep level's like in one of thoose dumb ass romance books women read
like the Notebook yeah thanks Nicholas Sparks now women want you to hang with em till they go senile and I like to usally leave after I pay.
Not that I read that book.
What do ya think I am a weirdo duh thats why they make movies.
It was for research only.
Well that and this chick I was trying to bang wanted to see it.
Look I had to go cause she was to young to go by herself.
Im kidding well kinda.
But enough with the foreplay hamsters.
Miss I say we turn down the lights maybe put on some music have a couple cold one's.
You can serve cause you know after having a few drinks your not supposed
to operate heavy machinery.
Its a fucking bottle opener you idiot! she said.
Shh I said to this madien of the booze.
Yeah thats what grandad thought now look were he is?
He died ?
Yes he did and there isnt a moment I dont linger to hear him say
Hey shit for brains!
Get off your dead ass and get me a beer!
Wow he really sounds like a prick.
Yeah come to think of it he kinda was.
We sat there in silence togather deep in reflection yet not really cause it was
kinda dark and everyone nothing refelcts in the dark but some things
glow like condoms but thats enough about my glowstick.
Hey the barmaid asked.
Did he really die from using a bottle opener?
Well it was more of the semi truck's fault but if he hadnt of reached for that bastard
he's probaly be here as we speak and I wouldnt be the only one.
Telling you you have a marvelous set of boobies.
Or annoying the shit outta you.
Look weirdo I put up with annoying drunks everyday.
And when I say lastcall your cutting into my time.
So although you got nothing better to do then drink your liver silly.
I wanna get the fuck outta here.
So your saying you wanna go home maybe take a nice warm bath.
Walk around half naked call up your girlfriends wrestle and maybe make out.
While a strange demented man films the whole the thing or joins in cause
im all about inprove acting and filmaking.
It seemed this strange gatekeeper to the booze wasnt a lover of the arts.
Cause befor you could whistle dixie while being spanked by a dwarf dressed as
Dolly Parton I was chased from the bar.
Cast into the cold depths of darkness and alone it's okay.
it would'nt have worked out sure we coulda dabbled in the arts gotta a few thousand
hits off of a adult site really what romance doesnt start that way?
But me I was a loner a cowboy who couldnt ride a horse but hey someone has to break the fucking mold and besides that's what cars are for.
So I was off but i'd see the barmaids face again sure she had knocked me down
like a group of braindead teenie boppers would a security gaurd who stood
between them and Justin Bieber.
But are paths would cross again.
Duh im a drunk and besides it wasnt all a loss.
cause as she was pushing me out the door I felt her boob.
See kids you always gotta look on the brightside.
Untill next time stay crazy.