sometime after five
the windows over the bar lit up
with the colors of the sun. they were shattered
with axes while thick black smoke poured
out over broken glass.
we watched like premature boys at a strip club.
streams of water turned to ice on the pavement
while flames gave up lives but burned the rest.
sometime the next morning,
we woke up in a haze on an unfamiliar couch,
turned on the news and the woman
in a business suit with a television smile
said, a young
in the bottom
of a gorge
after a tiring
four hour search.
things like that don't happen to people you know.
while we dreamt
of flames in our sleep.
things like that do happen to people you know.
a single set of footprints marked a trail in the snow,
danced all the way to the edge with tip toes grazing over.
she was a flawless feather floating while everything else,
even the falling water, remained silent.
delicately drifting down, she sang herself to sleep,
not where people go to grieve but where people go to dream.
I wonder if as you read this
If you really do remember
Me, one of your close friends
Your date to the dance in November
I met you the Thursday before
My first day at this new school
You were about to be a senior
I thought you were so cool
We didn't really talk much
Until October came around
And it was a kind heart and soul
In you that I found
We talked every night from then on
About almost everything
On love, on loss, on moving on
About challenges life will bring
When I was in a bad time
And didn't feel the need to leave
My house, you told me we could go to the dance
And find a dress with a sleeve
We went shopping and you picked
A gorgeous, sleeveless black dress
Once I put it on, I felt more confident
Since usually I'm in distress
And then we went to the dance that night
People found it funny you were my date
Cause we were both girls but no one cared
There was nothing to hate
We danced all night and you helped me
Whenever it was going bad
But thanks to you, overall
It was a fun time to be had
You got me to do things
I never thought I could
To dance with boys and be myself
I never thought I would
We got lost going home
And ended up in a bad place
But we just asked Geoffrey, your British GPS
As we had a smile on our face
The weeks that have followed
That one crazy night
Have been full of helping others
That's something, alright
You've helped make sure that I don't
Make bad decisions after nine
Showing me that even though I'm single
Everything will be fine
You say I will find someone
And I feel better knowing that
There's someone out there to cherish me
I won't have just a cat
You've helped me to regain confidence
Killed by a person before
And whenever my legs get better
It'll open another door
You give me hope that life will be better
In the form of texts and a smile
To have met someone as wonderful as you
I'm really in denial
You have really changed my life
In the four months you've been here
Helping to make me smile
To fight away my fear
I don't know if you remember
But you're one of my best friends
And I promise I'll be here long after
All of this pain ends
Hi, I'm that clarinetist you met
The short one without a clue
You may not remember me now
But I can't forget you.
Silly things, silly things
I have heard, I have seen
Making words out of screams
Things to say in your dreams
Every day, every day
Something new comes my way
And I too sing and play
even though I am gray
But I know, yes, I know
That things change when you grow
Rearranged just to show
You without saying so
Let me out, let me out
Of this cage where I pout
Off this stage where I spout
Gibberish all about
And I wish, how I wish
As I drop and I squish
As I flop like a fish
That I had not done this
This is bad, this is bad
Maybe I'm not so glad
Hear the chimes, don't be mad
Do not cry, don't be sad
Ah, to die, ah, to die
Darkness comes, close your eyes
Everyone by and by
Meets their end, who knows why?
We are friends, we are friends!
Were before, are again
All the more we depend
When the long road does end
Sing a song, sing a song!
Sing it loud sing it strong
You're allowed, life is long
Nothing's hid, nothing's wrong
I'm a kid, I'm a kid!
I can run like I did
Cowboy gun, stretchy squid
stack things in pyramids
It's a sin, it's a sin!
In a wink life begins
If you stink, you can't win
Earn your wings, be with Him
Now the ring again begins
she left when i was four
no explanation or anything more
it cut me straight to the core
you may think i was too young
to understand but my heart tore
my baby sister she was two
she barely could walk without falling
down onto the floor
now I barely see her
she's growing up too fast
she doesn't remember much of that past
she remembers calling me "Sissy."
And that she loved saying "it's purple."
I remember so much more
The smell of my moms sweet perfume
how she always had these really good cookies
her hugs and her kisses
but that day when she left it hurt me so much
because a girl needs her mother
a mother cannot leave her children
but my mom she was different
she never said "Good bye."
She never taught me to fly
she didn't see Jillian become to beaut she is today
she won't be able to see my sixteenth birthday
or be there for graduation
or my wedding
but whatever at least I have my dad
and my little sister
and family and friends
at least i have you guys/girls
because i know if you were going to leave you would at least say
And for a gift, I got the world for you
So you and I could exist together
I wrapped it all pretty in beingness
And gave it to you as a birthday gift
I, myself, have made this gift of the world
For you and now I solemnly present
Perception of all things in their wholeness
In honor of your birth on this same day
Long ago, it seems to me now, and yet
Seems only recently to have occurred
My memory is fuzzy after all
But I know it cannot have been elsewise
It was not me who did this thing for you
But was the one I was before myself
And you were there with me throughout it all
You kindly made this gift for me as well
that if i spend my time
for my phone screen
to light up
then i am so disconnected
from the moment
and that scares me
i want to move about the moment
with the grace and ease of a bird in the sky;
there is nothing
and no one
the wind blows at it all day
gets stomped on
crushed and probably hurt
because who would've known
whether grass have feelings
because they don't care
its insignificantly unimportant
oxygen is what we get and
that's all we need to know
I feel like that sometimes
just being a pushover
since that's what being nice
would give you but it didn't matter
because people ,they
tend to forget what some of the things
that we do for them
and just like grass
((have you seen them rising after
being stepped on))
I would pick myself up
no matter how much
they step on me
and it doesn't change me either
in fact I would still help others
Because that's what grass do
They put others before self
i don't know
if you taste like
syrup or chalk;
the inside of your
mouth is a grab bag
i'd never stick
my tongue down
i don't know
if i want to be at
there's no benefits
but your cooking's
(it's five am and
we're lying on the floor
in my estranged
father's apartment and
hamlet like i'm horatio
i just want to know
what you taste like
and why i'm always
loved or hated)
Sometimes I open my blinds at night
So I can look into the stars
Until I am satisfied I fall asleep
Then dream of you
And when we used to look at the stars
So long ago now
I wonder if you ever think about me
Not a day goes by where I don't think about you
And every star in that never ending sky
Reminds me of us
How many good times we had
And the flow of memories twinkle at me
Mocking my loneliness
Spilling the tears down my cheeks
Blurring my vision
The stars are fuzzy and I hate him
He can never know
How slowly I'll let go
I'm stronger than that...
My minds filled with word banks
the ink spills, the words paint
a collage of love and hate,
Do you believe that destiny is the same as fate?
I write because something inside of me wants to escape.
Confiding in writing my thoughts often keep me awake.
Wake and bake.
Underneath you right now the earth shakes.
Time will tell if I will float or if I'll sank.
I use to meditate with Swisher's filled with Mary Jane.
Temporarily paralyzing the thoughts I think.
Leaving my dreams suspended we in a police state.
They're slowly building a fence around and locking the gate.
A fish in these waters I seen so many take the bait.
We all replaceable babies born to take our place.
Stay confident like Babe when I step up to the plate.
I'm freeing my people from mental slavery everyday.
I know Harriet and Sojourner would be proud of Me
I'm risking my freedom for people that I aint' even met
My mother would like me to join forces and become a vet
But I'm expressing thoughts that have the FEDS coming at your neck.
Like Martin, Malcolm, and Johnny was all put in check,
At times I wonder who is next?
For the three men above all I have is respect. They showed
Courage Peace and Love feelings I can emulate, reflect
cause in the face of Fear you have to learn and adapt.
Expect the unexpected and maintain aware developed minds
avoiding traps and filthy raps slowing down the hands of time
My brain starts to tingle I can feel it calculating rhymes
like news producers silence the truth and
constantly turning up the lies.
Dying is inevitable, Lives flash before our eyes.
Her skins as dark as the universe and her eyes as blue as the sky.
I've been through the lowest of lows that's why I'm constantly getting high
to ease the pain and break the chains I spread my wings to fly
to an eminent death when there's nothing left I love ones start to cry
and the only thing we can do about it is ask the Lord Whyyy?
"Yea, my country tis of thee, Sweet land of kill em all and let em die.
God Bless America"- Lil Wayne