To be a "Dad" is really tough,
not to mention kind of rough.
Demanding this expecting that,
trying not to be the ole doormat.
No matter what the issue may be,
my son can always count on me.
To be there through the thick and thin,
to open my heart and let him in.
Open arms and a open mind,
really helps when being kind.
The day your child is finally born,
your heart becomes suddenly torn.
Between the masculine guy you were,
to having all this love for him or her.
A love so deep and ever so strong,
hoping they will never do wrong.
But, this we know is the impossible dream,
soon we discover they even scream!
Then we see that they are people too,
and hope they turn out just like you.
Again we see that this is fiction,
and pushing to much can cause some friction.
So, back to having that open mind,
will surely pay off in due time.
Now, no matter what they say or do,
take the time to say "Love you."
And when they can learn to say it back,
you know you got them on the right track.
The track of love, caring and concern,
the lessons of life, they live and learn.
And when he grows and have kids of their own,
they'll share the same love that their father has shown.
THIS IS WHAT I CALL A "FATHER'S LOVE"
Dear Heavenly Father, I have a confession to make.
For I have received yet another heart break.
She stole my heart, broke it in two,
Then said, “I’m no longer in love with you”
Father, why does she have to be this way?
Please tell her I don’t want to hear what she has to say.
Father, for I have committed a sin,
That day when I let her in.
I want to forget her & what we once had.
All because she lied to me and made me sad.
Father, I am done playing her game.
I’m done with her handing me all the blame.
So if you would father, help me out,
And please show her what this is about.
For I still love her father
But she doesn’t love me so don’t even bother.
She said it was all a lie,
Father she made me cry.
I am weak but have to be strong
Father, what she did was wrong.
I know that now, I knew that then
Please father; get rid of these horrible women.
She used to control me father
Stop what things used to be.
I guess what we had was fake father.
This is the confession I had to make
She never loved me father.
So please don’t even bother
I don’t need someone to hold me tight
I was wrong & they were right
All I need is something that’s not there father
All I needed was for her to care
Father I do not want to let her go.
But its time, and we all know.
Father, my confession may be sad, or a bore,
But my heart hurts so much more.
Pleases father take the pain.
Remember she once said I was a little insane.
Take away the scars caused by this knife.
Oh please father, just take her out of my life.
I miss her so much father.
I miss her kiss and his touch.
For I must leave father,
Cause no one will ever replace my baby father
This is my confession.
They all said she was ‘my obsession’.
Father the time has come for me to stop needing her,
Now I believe them father.
Father I need some help down here.
Because you knew loosing her was my fear.
Now you’ve heard my confession, the one I had to make,
So please forgive her for her love, that was so fake
Well she was
Sorta in love with the guy
She was fuckin
Fuckin over ?
Welll , You know
Sorta this sorta that
How it is
just fuckin around with fuckin
Sorta fucked up
It's how it is
Sorta real fucked up
Love is like that
Fucked up fuckin
Well I guess
Scared and scarred and other things
She sorta loved the guy
And he too
No one died
It don't mean a thing
Who they are
Sitting all alone in the darkness of my room
Images of you crawl into my mind
and I feel as if I lost a part of me
To a dream that I can not seem to find
as I remembered each day we've parted
Emotions of sadness appeared on my face
In my heart a door is left open
the part of me that I was hoping you would replace
Memories of you and I walking in the moonlight
Makes me think how good we could've been together
But as you read this notion of good-bye
I guess you that some things do not last forever
Is never an easy thing
But not everyone wins at the game of life
I won't loose hope
Though, maybe someday
I will find the love that I am dreaming of
dreaming ,wishing and hoping
she'll be just like you
Prejudice is a stupid thing
People should come together
Cry out and sing
Black and white they're only colors
People should learn to love one another
Fights and battles yet to be fought
Questions and answers yet to be taught
To be BIGOTRY is very absurd
Peace to them is just a five letter word
All types of races killed every day
I only have two words left to say
Don't look back
When you head for the door
If you do, Ill hurt you even more
Don't stop to explain
Don't stop to tell me why
If your going to leave
Just say good-bye
I love you, And Ill miss you
But Ill head on my own
I want you and I need you
But Ill make it on my own
I can't tie you down
you've got to be free
I can't make you love only one man
That one man is me
So Don't look back
Ill tell you again
Just kiss me good-bye
If this the end
So... I'm the open minded girl who speaks her mind and is hated because she has no filter. So here's what happened: Me, being me, walks up to this random guy i find vary cute and tell him. Now, two weeks later he starts talking to me. We both just sit with one friend by the library; Me with my best friend on the east side of the wall and him and his, i'm assuming, best friend on the west and the two just sit and watch me and my friend talk and laugh and fool around. And I really like him, on the occasions we have talked i have grown to like him but we are a grade apart, he is a sophomore and i'm A freshman (but i was held back) and i have aerobics the same hour he has gym and we pass each other in the hallways and he has this really cute flirtations he only uses when he smiles at me. I am rambling on like an idiot but i don't care, i want to get this off my chest. all im saying is i don't know if he likes me or is trying to be polite, I'm so confused!!! when i found out his name, it was sean
Disappearing, her figure slips away between valleys of dust
I sit alone in depression that once held an ocean
Split, so we could pass unseen
It all comes crashing down
Floating on the bodies of sea faring souls
Blue, never ending horizon
If my throat wasn't so parched
I'd describe it for you
Clawing at deaths door
The vultures found me hours ago
Circling over head
Reminding me where I'll go
Disappeared, in right in front of me
Brought the waves back, to take me
Can't scream, cause I'm thirsty
Just as well that I don't see
The figure on the horizon
Standing above the waves
Crashing down upon me
That devilish smile, a simile
It's been a few months
Maybe a few less than it feels
Since you ripped us; your head and our heart
The leaves have gone from green to vibrant purples, oranges
And other colours you couldn't see
Your funeral was nice, quiet, simple and not made a big deal
We didn't bury you naturally in the forest though
With a proud Oak above your head like you wanted
That made me mad, you won't live on like you should have
You were buried in an anonymous graveyard
Which held some importance to the people that knew you least
I visited your gravestone more than a few times
Everyone, the whole group and I have
It's a cold gravestone, more ornate that you would have wanted
That simply reads your name
Followed by January. 30 1996- August 17, 2012
The 2 words and 4 numbers that add up to 4055
Don't do justice, don't sum up your life quite right
At least in our eyes it doesn't...
I know you would have just wanted your name
Or nothing at all since they killed the forest you had in mind
"The tree will live on, I will rot and my body will be used
To create a forest, to create life"
Is what you always said
But you shouldn't be surprised by all I this like I am,
Like the group is
No one it appears, ever listened to your muted voice
Halloween came and people celebrated by wearing masks over their masks as you'd say
"The ghosts and ghouls and goblins
Are much better looking when people think
Their being clever and finally letting them down
Because it's Halloween and no ones paying attention because everyone's doing it"
It wasn't the same without you
Everyone came over but it was quiet and awkward
None of us covered our masks like everyone else
Rather, we all took them off for another night
Sitting around, talking, laughing and spraying blood on the walls
I decided I'd give myself a tattoo
To remind me of you and something you said a really long time ago;
Keep your feet grounded and so I did
An arrow pointing down on my ankle
Just as a reminder
I did it with a sewing needle in my room
While the group watched and provided expert commentary
They all wanted one but they didn't
I don't care if my parents find out
And I don't care if it gets infected
I did it for a reason and I'll stand by it
It'll kill my dreams of the military
You told me but I can't say I care anymore
My dreams died when you did
I feel like shit
peal off my jeans, into sweatpants
These days couldn't get gloomier
smoke filled haze
is how I remember my days
lay in bed, heavy head
legs like jello
I'm just being mellow
I wish fleeing from this situation
but lets snap back to reality
oops there goes gravity
I've got a sweet
tooth for music
cavity craving anything with a good beat
and lyrics that meant something
spent hours flowing from genre to genre
exploring the sounds of new and old
pounds through my headphones
feeling the beat through my veins
as though my heart beats
to every drum solo
I hum when I'm happy
from sappy love songs
to classic rock
Im no good with small talk
lets get high and talk about life
to death, and everything in
b e t w e e n
put on some jams,
smoke a couple grams,