I want you to touch me
I want you to care
I know you've supported me for a while now
but somehow it just isnt fair
oh i dont seem like much
but when i trap you and fill your mouth with
verbs and synonyms youll see that my syntax has
been begging to touch
your lips and feel your lungs and there isnt
much punctuation in this poem which you can clearly
see but it doesnt really matter to me much because ill
know with your disgust at my inability to
use proper grammar that youll have acknowledged
the stars are made of rocks
the suns made of fire
there isnt enough water
nor drugs to make us higher
we're not going up or down
we're spinning not out of control
is sure to fold
kids play blame game,
parents take their time
whats it add up to?
still a dot on a line
so when you're making your movements
and judging others,
everything adds up to you
and we're all brothers
yeah So I here it rains diamonds in Uranus
I've seen a thosand showers of diamonds
from the sparkle in your eyes
yeah your right
my fingers say words my mouth just cant say
but isnt that the American Way
is the contrast between the woman i see
and the woman loved so great an abyss
isnt the very nature of her tenderness in her soft eyes
in the simple sweet curve of her sleepy smile on a summer morning
isnt it in her words passionately whispered in the sheets
and the softer still words she leaves on my ear as we fall asleep after
i tell you
that this image
because it is her
She was once a strong woman,
Over time she grew weak,
But that isnt quite the truth,
As her body grew weak,
Her heart grew strong,
She was an angel on Earth,
Now she will be an angel else where,
As sad as it is to see her go,
Atleast she is no longer in pain,
Someone who has been here,
My entire life and longer
I dont know how im going to cope,
As long as i do cope,
I think she will be happy,
She was loved by everyone,
I never heard her name spoken negatively,
She had no enemies,
Her heart was open,
She doesn't care about your past,
She loved everybody no matter,
Now she must leave this world,
But she remains in the hearts,
She left us her memories,
She changed us all,
She no longer has to be afraid,
She no longer needs to suffer the pain,
It's hard to believe she is flying with the angels,
But she was an angel,
Put here on Earth,
Now she will be deeply missed,
Rest In Peace.
December 20, 1950
May 9, 2013
I've been Depressed, lost and and alone for a while now but I do not fear,
for I know now I'm from a planet a long way from here.
I hear my own essence in the form of a voice,
calming me, telling me, I came here by choice.
I'm here for a reason I do not yet know.
but I feel its for my spirit to live learn and grow.
Alas it is not easy to believe these wonderful things.
when my mind acts so blind and treats them as sins.
but my mind isnt me, its just my human form, trying to stop be from believing, to make me conform.
by putting my own voices in my head, asking me and telling me what I think of being dead.
I will get better in time, my soul is still young with a long way to go,
for my star sign is Aries the very first of the flow.
Because I am in the rebirth cusp, I feel as though I'm very old, like I already know my destiny, as if its been foretold.
So I now sit here staring at the moon, wondering when I can go home.... hoping its someday soon.
Square tiles, my eyes burn you through.
Alone isnt so empty when the raven coos.
Eye contact broken like grenades with no pin.
Lust exploding wait, that story is already fin-
Eshed like it was echeted out of existance.
A forgotten memory that continues with persistence.
The law of the jungle says the strongest survive.
But strength means nothing when your barely alive.
He was definitely the wrong one in the situation.
After all that's why I'm here now, isnt it?
Now, I know he left when I was only 5,
but damn pops... You couldn't have called?
No, I understand you had a second family.
Though that witch left you shortly after
receiving her green card, its completely okay.
It makes no sense to take care of your own blood.
No, not when you have other people in your life.
For years, I denied your existence, even though
you were only 45 minutes up the turnpike.
I think its because I was embarrassed of you.
Or maybe because I thought you were ashamed of me...
Wasn't I worth it dad? Didn't you want a son?
If so, then why didn't you act like it?
And if not, why the fuck would you do that to mom?
She raised me and Katie blind, alone, and jobless.
Meanwhile you have a pension check just shy of a million.
I have dreams sometimes of us at lunch,
but when I wake up I realize they are just dreams,
and nothing close to what reality is, but distorted memories perhaps.
I can't understand why, but I miss you...
All the best cowboys have daddy issues.
I wanna kiss it
but its so hard
not sure how to bring it against my lips
and then my fingers up and slip
the place you make between my shoulders as they stand
the truth in your presence
the defautl in your eyes
unlike the lovely demise
in the powerful
but full of histories of deciet and self succumed lies
in a cloud on a pillar high
this is where I thought I might die
but death isnt the only escape
when beauty surrounds you from your mistakes
filters in through your insides
it leads you to a moutain top so high
the snow fall cleans you of your dirty hide
kiss you touch ouy
never call you mine
because I know better
not to contain higher things
clip thier wings
I gave my heart, I gve my soul
to the wronged of those
may I rest by your side
my ribcage exposed
to the love you know
from my touch
from my gental spirit
the light from behind my eyes
that reaches and finally does it touch
you heal me inside
you slip your sweet medicine between my lips
you swindle your breateh of life
I dont fight you with my hips
into my worried eyes
I fear not
not any more
so long as you are here
I can let go of this rope
lay your worried bones next to mine
and I'll do my very best to buy us this time
may the clock stop
as it does for the dead
because we are heaven lieing in your bed
kiss me once
kiss me twice
and I'll kiss you thrice
my worries drop as does this plunder
my thoughts roll from us like defeated thunder
I hold you whole
I hold you tight
I give you the same freedom, I give you the same rights
I heard you speak
of whats in your head
I'm smilling for the things you dont know that of which you said
fumbling in your sleep
you craddle my crown
as I dose myself in the sweet silent sound
I am fawn white
I am pure irridescent light
cloaked in darkness
hidden from sight
so that the goodness might prevail
even during teh trials of night
You, with orbs in your antlers
with moons on your tongue
you dont chase me
I realize I mustnt run
The power with in you
sends me still
even so, I am reeled
for the dangers I've met
for the dreams
I feel the safety in this allure
you sparkle in my eyes
from inside you
I see us side by side
for authority we call
together we are safe
and with tired eyes
I will keep you warm and safe
to any and all expendeture
we are fair
a deiety in of itself
we are desired for being rare