How Can So Much Pain,
Dwell In One Lonely Heart?
As I Looked Into Your Eyes,
I Pretended It Didn't Hurt,
So Familiar They Traced The Scars,
Along My Rigid, Empty Heart
If I should, by chance, be called home today,
Please do not mourn my memory.
Find peace within the gentle way
The breeze makes waves upon the sea.
Breathe in the beauty of the sky,
And share the joy within your heart.
Please do not mourn and do not cry,
If suddenly I should depart.
If, by chance, I am called home,
Please do not, in sadness, mull
Where hearts in melancholy roam.
But rather, let your days be full
Of those treasures one cannot replace
Such as family, friends, home, and heart,
Of life and love, and natures grace,
If suddenly I should depart.
Copyright © 2010 Richard D. Remler
“One day your life will flash before your eyes.
Make sure it's worth watching.”
Player Player, I Played Your Game,
Once Again I Lay Limp And Lame,
With A Stepped On Heart,
Which Was Caught And Tamed,
Dry And Brittle--It Waits For Rain
Player Player, You Found Me Fooled,
Helpless I Slipped Under Your Rule,
My Firey Soul,
Was Darastically Cooled,
Why Oh Why Heart Do You Fall For The Tools?
Player Player, Do You Think I Am Easy,
Like A Warm Summer Day's Cool And Breezy,
Boy, I Really Ain't So Sleazy,
If Only You Tried To Find The Real Me
Eyes of brown, heart of green
dressed in camo to be unseen.
I feel your breath down my neck,
I see your weapon aimed to kill,
Your true nature is showing,
that not even a skilled hunter like you can camoflage.
No. I cannot say that it's okay...i wanted to be the one to say that, but i let you in...let those scary unrehearsed parts of me dissolve into the dark of your three a.m. bedroom...allowing you to be close to me...believed in an us...trusted and had faith you wanted this, me...
No. i cannot say that i am okay...i came in looking for you to reject me... gave you every chance to stop, to back up...constantly checking your temperature to see what i stood upon, unsure if tomorrow's ground was too uncertain for plans...your lips stamped reassurance on my forehead and hands tugged at my waist reeling me into your bed...
No. I cannot say that i understand...with you i felt joy and peace settling into the air between our eyes...your early morning exhortations grieving for the pain you already knew you would deliver...raw passionate vulnerability...but you fucked me so tenderly and moaned my name...smiled and met my gaze telling me your stories...i fell in love with who i am when i am with you and you cannot tell me why i won't feel that again...
No. you cannot tell me why you made a fool of me...connecting so completely disarming my heart with false pretenses...betrayed my self preservation and doubts to feel you closer to me...you watched me glow and giggle, sigh and shiver, kissed me long as if i belonged...as if to say "here's what you can't have, lovely isn't it?"
No. I cannot be angry with you...i am aching with the salty sting of your tears as i held you to my breast...i do not want you to hurt or be painful for you...this is not who i am...i want to be the girl who lashes out with six hands and no hope to contain herself exploding into sobs when you say in cliche that you just want to be my friend...but you told me when i just couldn't fall apart...that is not who i am either...
No. i cannot say that i will be the strong one...you will maybe talk to me a while out of guilt or self-esteem garnering reproach...and then disappear into the ether of somebodies i used to know...from whence you came...i want to say i'm fine, i understand, we'll stay friends...this is not a strength i possess...
No. you cannot tell me that i do not have a hole in my heart...dejected, replaceable, unlovable me...i doubt i'll ever know why, how you could do this to me...thought that i was coming home via chicago...traveled eight hundred and twenty three miles to find that touching you i started to bloom...thought that you were the china shop and i was the bull...
You are all those words left behind...the haunting almosts that were caught by my heart on their way to my mouth...
I am everytime you held your breath... exercising patience and terror simultaneously...
Sorrows of the past,
litte scatters think out fast.
I really am a rapper,
my lips blow out what matter,
happy make you sadder,
feal you up to climb this latter,
as a quick word just wanna be heard
know whats left so we take you down the right turn,
if you wanna talk shit I feal ya on a real burn,
If you gonna be true,
you sure gonna be seen through.
don't believe free?
what ever go deceive me,.
young at heart with that tid of stupity,
bein flung takin risks, Makin tunes tradin disks.
hear my bass nd my boom melted face is in the room,
Mmmm...!! Shiiiit ;)
With the little rain
wash your sins away
before this weekend,
before you miss the chance.
But still, next week
it won't even stop:
what the cash bought,
'llget us flocking
past the parking lot
down the trail to our
Octopus' Garden 'neath the waves.
Maybe my nails won't grow back
and I'll be talkative instead.
Stop my choking on pocket lint,
bury the bone, unbusy my head.
Everything I do in this Modern World
supports some institution, thus condition.
Looking for passion or just something,
hafta look for what little I believe in—
not this but next weekend.
"There's a stranger in your life,"
a fortune reading tells, then
feeling my legs are useless,
can't kick my way to the surface,
can' kick one habit for a moment,
a car could carry me around then.
It's a five day weekend, no end, yes.
Best birthday bash, hands down, no contest.
Newly arrived old faces join, going to the show;
some more to come soon, some to soon go.
Tonight we revel in our brother's song,
we'll keep the day young and night long.
Tomorrow, we hope to sleep forever in a day,
catch our breaths and try to eat back our strength.
If you bare your heart,
unless you are in love
it will begin to feel silly.
If you want to fall in love
you must bare your heart,
but that predestines nothing.
I do not know, though,
what keeps love in a home,
safe from err; face to heat.
She has eyes that sparkle like rain on the sidewalk,
She makes my day when she smiles,
She is more gorgeous than the stars in the sky,
She has the voice of an angel,
She can make the world stand still with her beauty,
She is more beautiful than a waterfall,
She is the one who has stolen my heart,
She is the only one,
She is my world
I haven't wrote about you in a long time
But you see
You still have my heart
Broken into bits
Residing the palms of your hands
Lays the biggest part of me
I still feel your chain
gripping my neck and pulling me back
It screams love me
It screams obey me
It screams until me ears are bloody
I still cry thinking about you
About how you're never thinking about me too
I still shiver
Remincing about your caress
The heat of your breath before you bite my neck
You see i still love you
My biggest regret