Standing by the mouth of the volcano
looking at the fjords so far below thinking
people have told me it's not hot in heaven
come up here and find out, then your know
The clouds kiss my cheek as they pass me
this truly is a paradise from natures heart
such Goliath's in a child's playground
we the children of the universal kick-start
This wonder rock of our birth
we should love it like you would
if only more knew her name
Not as Earth, But Mother
My wonder rock
you really rock me
I love you
as you have loved me
By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
It's been a few months
Maybe a few less than it feels
Since you ripped us; your head and our heart
The leaves have gone from green to vibrant purples, oranges
And other colours you couldn't see
Your funeral was nice, quiet, simple and not made a big deal
We didn't bury you naturally in the forest though
With a proud Oak above your head like you wanted
That made me mad, you won't live on like you should have
You were buried in an anonymous graveyard
Which held some importance to the people that knew you least
I visited your gravestone more than a few times
Everyone, the whole group and I have
It's a cold gravestone, more ornate that you would have wanted
That simply reads your name
Followed by January. 30 1996- August 17, 2012
The 2 words and 4 numbers that add up to 4058
Don't do justice, don't sum up your life quite right
At least in our eyes it doesn't...
I know you would have just wanted your name
Or nothing at all since they killed the forest you had in mind
"The tree will live on, I will rot and my body will be used
To create a forest, to create life"
Is what you always said
But you shouldn't be surprised by all I this like I am,
Like the group is
No one it appears, ever listened to your muted voice
Halloween came and people celebrated by wearing masks over their masks as you'd say
"The ghosts and ghouls and goblins
Are much better looking when people think
Their being clever and finally letting them down
Because it's Halloween and no ones paying attention because everyone's doing it"
It wasn't the same without you
Everyone came over but it was quiet and awkward
None of us covered our masks like everyone else
Rather, we all took them off for another night
Sitting around, talking, laughing and spraying blood on the walls
I decided I'd give myself a tattoo
To remind me of you and something you said a really long time ago;
Keep your feet grounded and so I did
An arrow pointing down on my ankle
Just as a reminder
I did it with a sewing needle in my room
While the group watched and provided expert commentary
They all wanted one but they didn't
I don't care if my parents find out
And I don't care if it gets infected
I did it for a reason and I'll stand by it
It'll kill my dreams of the military
You told me but I can't say I care anymore
My dreams died when you did
When the light from the darkness shine's in bright like a diamond, paralleling your face is the
reflecting the moon light off your, sparkling eye's, My heart starts to beat. Our eye's
locked in love, embracing holding each other, separating only with a tug, only his arm's do you ever feel,so much love affection dreams paragliding,in forever changing winds inside my mind, Blank pictures began to feel, with seductive images that cloud the mind like a stormy day.
pillow's began to pop! as the goose feathers fall down like snow flakes on a
white Xmas,our body's began trusting sweat start to poor,we breath simultaneously as one hot oiled up hands wont stop moving across your tight but fluffy frame that keeps calling my name echoing between the sheets/ free at last/ free at last/ thank God almighty we are free at last .
The world is Gray,
A slate wiped clean.
One day, I wandered
from pane to pane,
glancing out windows,
dreading Gray, the bête noire,
now it's come,
now it shall stay,
let me explain tomorrow's day.
A light erased the colors I knew;
came from dawn, swept on through,
break by break, it grew and grew,
morning fell, the horrors new,
my world of Gray appeared.
So now I wait for your return;
you took it all,
where've you been?
you took it all, all for your own,
and now I reap what's never sown.
The children sleep,
they do not know:
the things they seek
will never grow;
The children sleep,
they'll never see
what was a color means,
what it could be;
The children sleep,
they cannot know
how dawn has stolen what we know.
Drizzle, drizzle, rain outside,
you stole my heart and now you've died,
you stole the rain, yet now it pours,
I'm blocked by windows, hidden doors,
the day is darker, starker, gone,
the Gray has come, the game is on.
Flickering candles shall know no light,
the Gray-ness will take over night;
Ice will fall, winter's here,
Still, the Gray is crystal clear.
Cool, uncaring, blood seeps from the sky,
or maybe not,
Who knows, when all the world is Gray with fear?
The children sleep soundlessly,
forever marked in harmony.
The children sleep a dreadful sleep,
they will not wake,
Oh! the dreadful steps we take?
The children sleep a dying sleep,
the Gray has taken them.
The Gray has come, my dear,
are you now, too, drawing near?
Will you stay for one last dance?
Help me from this horrid trance.
Will you help me shake my fear
that only appears when Gray is near?
the children sleep,
the rain, it falls;
Shh! The Gray, it listens.
Time's up, I'm afraid,
the Gray is here,
so very near,
it scorches with it's burning sneer,
Tick tock, tick tock,
time's up, my dear.
And as you- can very well see,
the Gray has taken over me,
and there upon an evening clear,
at thirteen o'clock, the time that's feared,
the Blackness began drawing near.
I stumbled against you at the bazaar in Alexandria one day,
a stroke of accidental closeness as we brushed hands,
and my heart shivered like the old man on the corner of Divisadero street.
And then you vanished from my mind as a dead leaf from branch,
till I saw you again in a tavern by the docks,
quill in hand and the world on your back.
We share that same dusty look, that obvious stride
that wanderers from everywhere can so easily surmise
to belong to one in kind.
The day after you were at the well by the caravanserai,
and I recognized your goatskin shoes as those
of a mariner from the North, the land of the Majus, my kin.
Remember people the words you say!
They form scars that may not heal one day.
If words are said over over.
You may believe them and fall instead instead of hurdle.
Life should be grand but I take my life and hide my head In the sand.
Wanted to be loved by you truly all these years.
I've overcome so much but you don't even care.
These scars I have are tainting my heart
To the point I cry and hide in the dark
I'm a loser so you say but just remember it's your constant mean words that made me this way
Turn it up, play it loud. Drop the bass, make 'em shout. Take me to my happy place, erase all the bullshit, and make it all glow like the lazer lights and smoke machines. Cuz tonight, all I want is to dance, forget, dream and repeat the cycle till im blazed on the high of life. Riding the waves of euphoria like a surfer of high tides. C'est ma vie, live it up and never leave. Letting the music overtake me giving me goosebumps beyond the skin. Feeling my heart beat speed up, and remembering what it is to fall in love again.
In order the heart, keep running without knowledge
Of the living torch, of the soiling fires that wipe
Hopes memory, the boiled blood must breathe
In a sea of borders, of waves and rushing tides.
In order the heart, beats time, though it knocks,
Near breaks, as the wind that swoons is divining
Treasure, the jewel in the box of flesh must hold,
Must shore the rivers of the branching bleed.
In order the heart, is closed, and dry of touches
Towering keep, let the eye know mercy, let the seas
That travel with the bones never feel the marching
Desert, the hollow caves of the discarded lovers.
I want your heart beating in rhythm next to mine
As we lay in the grass
and trace the midnight moons outline
"Stay with me" I whisper
Silently you lay, looking for a sign
"I want you to be happy"
If only I could feel your love, oh how I would shine
© 9-18-05 J Stevens 3/4
8 8 q q 8 8 8 8 8 - 8 8 8 q
1 2 3 3 3 - 2 | 1 1 2 - 1 1 8 1
Is your heart now breaking, from the sorrows in your life?
q q 8 8 8 8 8 8 8 q 8 8 h
1 1 2 3 3 3 3 3 2-1 2
Are you de-feet-ed in your walk with Him?
1-2 3 3 3 3 1 2 1 1 8 1
The Father above can heal your broken heart.
1 1 2 3 3 1 2 1 8-1
And set your feet on the path once again.
Are you tired of living not knowing where you’re bound?
Do you feel desperation all around?
The Father above can give you peace again
And set your feet on the road to Heaven bound.
Do you know of God’s grace and His mercy which is free?
Do you need a new touch of His love?
Just open the door of your heart and let Him in.
Receive the Joy and Love from above.
-- chorus -----------------------------
3 5 5 5 5 3 4 | 3
Open up your heart and say – aah.
3 4 5 - 5 5-3 4 3
Let the Doctor above look in.
3 5 5 5 5 4 3 4 3 – 2 1
Open up your heart and let the sorrow out,
1 2 3 3 1 2 1-8-1
And be filled with His love within.
3 - 5 5 5 5 3 4 3 q q q
Open up your heart and say – aah, … aah, aah, aah!
3 5 3 5 5 3 q q q
Give Him your life this day.
3 -4 3 2 1 1 1 2 3 2 1
Open up your heart and let the Son shine in
1 2 3 3 1 2-1 8 - 1
And be filled with His spirit today.
Open up your heart…. Open up your heart.
He will fill you with His spirit……
He will fill you with His spirit again.
The second line 8 1 2 3 4 is the note to play. Example in key of C
8=B 1=C 2=D 3=E 4=F 5=G
I know... confusing. Probably why this has not seen the light of day.