Sometimes I feel
That people are like messages
In a bottle

We choose to bottle it up
As we go though the rough tides

It gets protected
But
The hard glass
Creates a barrier
Against the reader
And
Us

It's difficult to pry open
The message in
The bottle

But all messages
Secretly long to be read

Some get lost in the saltiness
Of the sea

And some are lucky
Enough
To find someone
Interested in hearing
Their message

So they try
Their very best
To break that glass
And read
It
Understand
Their worries.
Hear their message

The message in the bottle
Is not alone
It wants to be read
But
It can't say a thing
Trapped In its little glass shell

Its mysteries just waiting
To be uncovered.

happiness is all i want
it's not a front
or something i can roll in a blunt
not something i can drink
or swish
or sweet
not something to eat
or a quick feel
not a tug on the reel
a new steering wheel

but it's what i want
and i'm gonna find it
trying to figure out where to look
i've read a number of books
to see what in the world
happiness looks
like

i saw it in a kid
he was riding his bike
and another little boy with his father
flying a kite
i saw it in the face
of the kenyan who won the boston marathon race
i saw it in the eyes
of a young couple
and it was two guys
i see it in the sun
in the beaming rays
when it goes on my face
my face gets grazed
i smell it in the kitchen
mother's cooking dinner
the roast is in the oven
and the dog is by her side
i saw it in her face
in her eyes
when we came home from work
she'd jump off the couch
in a very quick spurt
and start barking
and jumping
and licking
and playing
happiness
i miss it
i wish it was staying

i'm gonna find it
no matter how hard i try
i'm going to make it
through the world i'll glide
in happiness
i always strive
for happiness
but how do i get it?
do i stop try?

or go harder?
travel waters unchartered
by any boat, bus, or marta
i seek happiness
it'll make me smarter

happiness
i'd rather it not
have a price
can't be bought
but happiness
past present
is all i sought
all i seek
and in the future i dream
of happiness

so my main dude got shot head flat outta caseys
understand we take head shots
homies die
homie live
but we never studder when we talk to females
our lips never quiver when we cry
but when we die
were free
frokm the evils of this world
seen worse
broke and a penny negative the bank
took overdraft fees
and now we gotta hustle
me and my homies hustle chicken sandwhiches
and half sack bitches
so understand we die
but we die broke
like everyone else
we die poor and broke
but we still get head till the hoe chokes
spit is alright but the
teeth
the hoe gets the knife
goodnight
when the dick goes in
she falls in love

I'm so awake
I'm buzzing
New faces
New information
To conquer
All pit stops on my long journey
Getting sucked up into these times
Getting caught up in gravity
But I keep pushing
I talk about reliance when I write
all the time
Because it never ceases
to bewilder me
We don't acknowledge
our resilience
Because we aren't granted a choice
Of possessing it or not
You see
We
have
to keep going
Or kill ourselves and
As bad as it gets
We don't do that

Maybe
Our resilience
stems off love
No matter how small
Like how you don't take all those pills simply because you imagine how it would destroy your mom dad and sisters
That love for them makes you
stick it out through your fiery hell
Sometimes life feels like hell
Or death even
though most of us don't actually know how that feels
Other times it feels like a cloudy dream
And we trek through it all
We have no choice
Well right now I'm buzzing
From the speed
I can feel it
I feel older
I feel older
Tell me when it will stop feeling so weird

I'm so awake
I'm buzzing
New faces
New information
To conquer
All pit stops on my long journey
Getting sucked up into these times
Getting caught up in gravity
But I keep pushing
I talk about reliance when I write
all the time
Because it never ceases
to bewilder me
We don't acknowledge
our resilience
Because we aren't granted a choice
Of possessing it or not
You see
We
have
to keep going
Or kill ourselves and
As bad as it gets
We don't do that

Maybe
Our resilience
stems off love
No matter how small
Like how you don't take all those pills simply because you imagine how it would destroy your mom dad and sisters
That love for them makes you
stick it out through your fiery hell
Sometimes life feels like hell
Or death even
though most of us don't actually know how that feels
Other times it feels like a cloudy dream
And we trek through it all
We have no choice
Well right now I'm buzzing
From the speed
I can feel it
I feel older
I feel older
Tell me when it will stop feeling so weird

I've taken in so much television
lately, I can't stop thinking in quotes.

He's just not that into you.

My writing is stilted, TV tag frozen,
until I can come up with the title I've forgotten.

If a guy wants to call you, he will call you.

I've always thought words are so important,
a lasting foundation for a better life.

No matter what.

That's the part that gets me.
The words defy excuse.
Justification is not just unacceptable.
It is unthinkable.

No matter what, if a guy wants to ask you out, he will make it happen.
But when I was throwing my body onto yours...

He doesn't seem very interested in making it happen.
That's the part that gets me.
After all his signs and signals,
The way he said my name,
That's what's missing.
The lasting foundation for a better relationship.
No matter what.
Because words are only words, after all.

The following questions were set in a GED examination
These are genuine answers (from 16 year olds)............and they WILL breed.

Q. Name the four seasons
A. Salt, pepper, mustard and vinegar

Q. Explain one of the processes by which water can be made safe to drink
A. Flirtation makes water safe to drink because it removes large pollutants like grit, sand, dead sheep and canoeists

Q. How is dew formed
A. The sun shines down on the leaves and makes them perspire

Q. What causes the tides in the oceans
A. The tides are a fight between the earth and the moon. All water tends to flow towards the moon, because there is no water on the moon, and nature abhors a vacuum. I forget where the sun joins the fight

Q. What guarantees may a mortgage company insist on
A. If you are buying a house they will insist that you are well endowed

Q. In a democratic society, how important are elections
A. Very important. Sex can only happen when a male gets an election

Q. What are steroids
A. Things for keeping carpets still on the stairs (Shoot yourself now , there is little hope)

Q.. What happens to your body as you age
A. When you get old, so do your bowels and you get intercontinental

Q. What happens to a boy when he reaches puberty
A. He says goodbye to his boyhood and looks forward to his adultery (So true)

Q. Name a major disease associated with cigarettes
A. Premature death

Q. What is artificial insemination
A. When the farmer does it to the bull instead of the cow

Q. How can you delay milk turning sour
A. Keep it in the cow (Simple, but brilliant)

Q. How are the main 20 parts of the body categorised (e.g. The abdomen)
A. The body is consisted into 3 parts - the brainium, the borax and the abdominal cavity. The brainium contains the brain, the borax contains the heart and lungs and the abdominal cavity contains the five bowels: A, E, I,O,U.. (wtf!)

Q. What is the fibula?
A. A small lie

Q. What does 'varicose' mean?
A. Nearby

Q. What is the most common form of birth control
A. Most people prevent contraception by wearing a condominium (That would work)

Q... Give the meaning of the term 'Caesarean section'
A. The caesarean section is a district in Rome

Q. What is a seizure?
A. A Roman Emperor. (Julius Seizure, I came, I saw, I had a fit)

Q. What is a terminal illness
A. When you are sick at the airport. (Irrefutable)

Q. Give an example of a fungus. What is a characteristic feature?
A. Mushrooms. They always grow in damp places and they look like umbrellas

Q. Use the word 'judicious' in a sentence to show you understand its meaning
A. Hands that judicious can be soft as your face. (OMG)

Q. What does the word 'benign' mean?
A. Benign is what you will be after you be eight (brilliant)

Q. What is a turbine?
A. Something an Arab or Shreik wears on his head

HEAVEN HELP US ALL...LOL!!!!

Where are we that-
 we are so dressed up?
In our best blue scrubs
And white hot, neon light...

Do we dare question 
Knowing full well 
There's no hope in the answer?

The look in his seasoned eyes
Telling us that we shouldn't ask.
That it never gets any easier...
To whisper letters of expiration.

It's eerie,
Watching your skin crawl-
And your hair,
Fall from your head. 

Each strand,
A year from your life-
Without explanation...

It's twilight now, 
And the highlights of 
This short time we've shared
Have come and gone. 

And I've done all that I could do,
Within our means, 
To help you-
Free yourself from your conscience.

Yet,
I  still I feel as if-
"I should have done more..."

You don't have to be strong for us.
You don't have to prove anything to us. 
Not anymore, nor ever again.

We all know that we wouldn't be 
Half as successful as are now-
Without our matriarch there to guide us.

So this is your time now.
We know the battle for your body-
Is coming to an end.
You don't have to smile and pretend-
For us anymore. 

Instead, hold on while you can
And I won't let go of your hand!

Your eyes flicker,
Opening and closing. 
Your chest undulating 
Which each desperate pull for breathe.

If you can hear me- 
Hold on to my hymns  
And I'll guide you through the wreckage
To a majestic place reserved 
For angels laid to rest!

As always, you're so beautiful... 
In sterile white and hospital blue. 

You're so brave, and so beautiful!
Even as you cling desperately to your life. 

For your last words,
You speak in tones of reassurance, 
"I'm ready" 

But, I don't know if we are...

-JxA

I finally did it today
Even though every bone of my body was screaming at me
Don't do it! Don't do it!
I did it anyway
It was just as bad as I imagined it would be
All the bad shit I thought would happen happened
I got all sweaty
I nearly pissed my pants
I couldn't speak
I choaked on my own spit
I fell apart
It was horrible
But it was incredibly easy
So easy to fall to pieces
So easy to cease to exist
So easy to break
I enjoyed it
Too much maybe
I'll probably do it all again tomorrow
I've been so lonely
It's all I can think about doing when I am alone
When it gets quiet
Nobody is watching me but myself
I fall apart
Loving it
Feeling a little less lonely for a bit
Almost pissing my pants
Sweating
Looking aroung and seeing nobody
Nobody but me
Talking to myself
Telling myself
Don't do it
Don't do it