His smile -
Retain their un-blinking gaze
The glazed glass
of my own eyes -
But instead of my lips
being pulled the corners of my cheeks
I feel an empty voice
refusing to leave my throat.
My heart is hollow
Monotone and un-beating.
The words I wish would combine
with the song I refuse to sing
Absorbed by white;
whilom and isolated
from the fantasy -
I alone created.
Let me into your head
Let your thoughts wash over me
Let me live on, for eternity
Share with me
Take me beyond the iris
Past the pupil's super massive black hole
Let me soar behind your beautiful eyes
The doorways to your soul
Let me touch your imagination
Let me feel the creative burst
Let me wrestle your fears
Let me sail through your tears
Let me live here, in your mind, immersed
Stand with me now in my wonder
In this place you alone understand
Though far off I do hear the thunder
Let me stay, let this be our wonderland
love like just know time feel way pain world heart think eyes day oh night away things words say need left thoughts mind life sun want good inside body lost new true damn light make head beautiful stop free hands right small hard loves today little fuck morning thought sweet moment times bed tell dreams long white truth thing song really skin slowly start deep woods silence lies look better lay sleep realize fall sky memories far gone green breath held room dark doesn't hold dream run thank end past dead open begin knew tears yeah hear cause air blood earth self beauty real days finally care big cool north 10w turn walk lips kiss dawn remember sound making hair fingers felt door water woman black outside large she's let's tiny window face bit speak play slow god teeth smell wish heard rain tired silver great bring wants low there's won't soul got tongue live arms red house close girl years letting note music universe man soon clean trees wood thinks post stolen you've gray clouds home ones hot soft wet hate desire warm trying mom comes longer sea thinking darkness hand shore leaves broken glow fool second knows rock read cold stare feels took father sing bag release crazy stone mouth wake forever dust watch came wanted stand help use place needs brings suppose believe laugh shit seen having ways leave weight perfect stars drive miss higher high ocean feeling memory makes present view page bear wash loss snow hell aware constant magic
Take a walk,
In my crazy shoes,
See the reds,
Greens and blues,
All the colors,
in all their hues,
And only you can see it.
Across the town,
Laughing as I go,
Where I walk in my crazy shoes
Is not for you to know!
I said hi,
To me and I,
and they smiled as I went,
And they were laughing,
laughing to their hearts content.
I must concede,
That I will allow,
You to proceed
Take a walk,
behind my eyes,
you just might find,
A small surprise,
for I am not,
Comprised of lies,
But If I were, you'd see them.
Black as night. Feathers as soft as silk,
Piercing right through the heart,
It didn't even see it coming.
So innocent and graceful,
The raven was.
The boy came to take his prize,
But as he saw the helpless bird,
He had sorrow in that heart of stone.
He let the tears slip from his eyes,
As he made a blazing fire.
He didn't want to take the bird back,
So he wrapped it in black silk.
Into the fire,
The bird was.
It turned to ash before the boy came home on his apple horse.
But as he went into his tent,
The big graceful bird sat on a perch.
The boy let one tear slip before the bird came,
resting on his shoulder.
The boy let the bird nestle into his neck.
"You. You came to me? Why"
The bird whispered two words into the boy's ear.
And the bird protected him for childhood,
Than died with the boy.
The Wind God sees the boy's sorrow and takes the offering, giving the bid back in return. The bird takes care of the boy through childhood and often saved the boys life. One time from a stampead of buffalo. Another through hunger and desperation. All because the boy saw the world as equal. Animals and human working together to live, and that is what the Wind God saw in the boh that day.
Then there's the the nurses in blue
who always knew that we knew
that the news wasn't good.
Then there's the patient, whom jaundice
is rolling the dice for them,
sat still, long and thin
in a bed pinned to the ward
like a to do list on a cork board,
but the only job for it to do
is wait to fill out the paper work.
Then there's the family in black
who always sat back when
the funeral guidance guy visited with his hardback leather-bound funeral pack.
Then there's the sight of my father's eyes so red,
my sister's cheeks swelling up like that and
witnessing my mother bind a broken book back together again.
Let me take a moment
To study you
I want to discover every intricate detail
I want to memorize
The way your eyes light up the room
The way I can see your wisdom
Your your love
Pool in the vast oceans
Of the most beautiful blue I have ever seen.
I want to savor
The way your lips move
When you speak
As the sound moving through those lips
Washes over me
Filling me with warmth
Infinitely sweeter than anything I have ever encountered.
I want to lose myself
In the beauty of your hairFlowing down
As Elegant and breathtaking
As a waterfall
It's scent filling my nostrils
Overwhelming me with the feeling of home
I want to permanently embed into my memory
The curvature of your neck
So soft and warm
Captivating me with the feel
Of your skin.
I want to synchronize myself with your heartbeat
Stronger than the largest river
Spreading your blood
Throughout your body.
I remember your hands
Strong and delicate at the same time
Wiping away my tears
Stroking my hair
Holding me up
Fighting away my fears.
I want to memorize your body
Every curve enticing and beautiful
The way it feels perfect while it's against mine
No part of your body needs any change
Its perfect that's all there is to it.
I want to keep these all in my mind forever.
I never want to forget
The way you make me feel.
I want to love you forever
That's what I intend to do.
i don’t care if you’ll never see this. but if you do, here’s what i was thinking about last night.
i love you.
i can’t take it anymore. i’m so head over heels, i’ve fallen harder for you than anyone, i just cannot fucking act like i haven’t anymore. you’re the definition of perfection, the epitome of greatness, the quintessence of beautiful, all of the above, everything, and anything. i get jealous whenever i see other girls, or even guys talking to you. i just want to be with you all the time, or at least talking to you. it’s so hard to express over a simple text post but i’m going to try to. i wish i could just be able to go up to you everyday and kiss you without even thinking about it. you’re amazing. i’ve told you this before but you, first of all, don’t believe me, and second, don’t think it of me, so i can’t tell you to your face. if i could, i would. if i could just have all of you all the time i’d never ask for anything else.
it seems as though “starring role” by marina and the diamonds is a very fitting song. you tell me sweet things (sometimes) when i’m fully clothed but when i get undressed you say them more often. you don’t have anyone right now, and even though that goes against what the song is portraying, i’m still not the “starring role in your heart”.
i swear if you were to stay here things would be different but considering that can’t happen, we’ll most likely never know. my heart breaks just thinking about it, i can’t even bother to, or the salty tears from my eyes will break my keyboard, there’s just so many of them.
i just don’t want to lose anyone else. and if whatever is between us is strong enough to withstand that much of a distance, who knows what could happen.
the funny thing is that once i realized how hard i fell for you, all the past relationships and heartbreaks and current “crushes” or thoughts of flirting, or just even looking at anyone else in a lustful manner just seemed to fade away, and it all happened so suddenly.
if you never see this, oh well. you’ll eventually find all of this out.
and if you do, at least now you know.
if nothing ever came of us, just remember this. you’re my best fucking friend, whether or not i fell for you. if you never feel the same way i completely understand, i probably wouldn’t feel that way about me either. whatever you do in life, i hope it makes you happy. i hope good things come your way, and i hope everything works out for you in the end. you deserve nothing less than perfection, so don’t ever settle for anything.
keep in mind that i’m going to be here every second of everyday, most likely thinking about you and hoping you’ll be doing the same about me. i’m never going to forget you, and i pray almost every night that you’ll never forget me. you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me. you’re the reason that i’m typing this right now, actually, because if it wasn’t for you i’d be in a casket buried six feet under.
always remember that i love you and i always will, whether you’re here or not.
now is a good time to put my knowledge of pierce the veil lyrics to use.
so, in a literal sense…
without you, there is no me.
I remember you said you loved me.
I heard it. Four times. Yes, I counted.
I should have known when you jumped at the idea of more than one virginity under your belt that you’re there just to teach me…
My first time. It hurt. But you were slow, loving almost. Kissed me.
She held my hand and stroked my hair when I groaned, then stroked my chest when I moaned.
She and I kissed as you entered her.
I even delighted in her gasp of surprise.
Everything felt perfect. Then you asked for entrance again. Foreign entrance in a place not yet defiled.
You could see my fear and the blood you already took from my body.
I said no, didn’t I? I vaguely remember saying “not now” and “maybe another time”.
Of course, maybe I didn’t. Those moments before you forced access are a little hazy.
Tainted by pills and pot. Then forever dirtied by pain, tears, rips, and hands.
Yours and hers, both holding me down, locking me in. Again, I felt her stroking my hair.
“It’s okay, honey. It’ll be over soon.”
Horrible words from her mouth as she covers mine. My screams are hopefully tucked deep inside her brain.
It was you though. Your eyes meeting mine, just once. You saw me cry, sob.
Then, it was just a matter of who would cave first. It was me. I stopped fighting so you could finish.
Every single thrust invoked yelps of pure agony. I could feel myself rip around the size of you.
Eventually, she didn’t need to hold me down. You robbed me of all innocence and purity.
When you were done, your mouth met mine. You had to wipe away the blood from my lip.
It was perfect.
there was a little mole and digging was his pleasure
he took a little trip to try and find some treasure
he jumped on a plane far across the sea
to a desert island where treasure just might be
he walked along the sand then suddenly he saw
a great big cross marked out. on the island shore
mole began dig to see what he could find
if there was any treasure that someone left behind
the mole dug very fast at this he was the best
then there in the hole sat a treasure chest
he lifted up the lid and there before his eyes
there was lots of treasure all of different size
mole he was so happy his treasure hunt was done
hunting for his booty had give so much fun