desperately we judge
behind a web full of our own spiders
there is no end to this rainbow of lies
no pot of gold, merely a black kettle boiling to the top
do you feel the venom coursing through your veins?
I don't know who I am, what I am, where I've been
These memories are coming as if through sludge
Dedication to the planned obsolescence of our lives
Burn bright to burn out quick
Before they see what we've done here
There's a face haunting me with no name I can trace
Bright red lips just begging me to remember the taste
Death's sitting on her shoulder head shaking in disgrace
I guess it's alright to forget we're part of the human race
And just focus on the fact we're so full of hate
Racing to the end of the hall where I remember the fall
No stairs to meet my descent I tumble like a bouncing ball
Dust off my knees I'm sure I was wrong you seemed so pleased
As my broken bones sink into the mud at my feet
I'll see if I can find a place where we can meet
In tired moment we'll hold ourselves close
Clinging to memories that might not even be real
I don't remember anymore if I forgot
The silence in this embrace is haunting
Why can't I remember your face.
I don’t want to hate you
Despise you, place you
Down there in the back of my mind
A dark and brooding place where no one but me will find
You, I don’t want to hate you
I don’t want to blame you
As the reason I have taken sadness as my lover
I don’t want to lay awake at night
Wishing evil to befall you
I don’t want stay awake at night
Having to constantly fight this feeling
I don’t want to hate your being
I don’t want to be confused
Wondering what drove you to abuse
The love I had for you
I don’t want to go again
To that dark foreboding plane
Where a horned being asked me what he can do
For me, I don’t want to even take a moment to consider
To let hatred be my Hearts leader
And yet as I sit here
I feel it boiling, slowly soiling my soul
Painting it black, turning into a black hole
Sucking, taking devouring me whole
It eats me, taking away my bliss from me
And so I am left alone
To again trek across this sea of emotion
Knowing that somewhere within the water’s
A monster lurks just waiting for me to slip
A single moment a like a whip
Coiled and ready it will nip me
And take me, I don’t want to hate you
In the end you we all must do what we have to
But I can never again love you.
Here we are again.
At the insides of my conscious identity.
This wholly human entity.
The ever growing obscenity,
that helixes off into infinity.
The voice of a thousand
concentrated into two or three pounds
of intoxicating intelligence.
the utter lack of brilliance overtakes us.
I know I tend to ramble but
I wish I took the gamble.
Return me to the stage
when I first studied the dance.
I never found the gold
at the end of a rainbow
but I'd gladly try another chance.
Well, to be so bold,
even if I did
I’d still think it a shame so
I suppose that its better off I slept it off.
You know, bro?
Jaylin was scared and detrimental -
with runaway scars,
his heavy breathing,
and the wolves chasing such a forgotten soul.
"I'm more afraid of death then before,
more afraid of the teeth ripping through my skull,
I have to end this dream.",
He said screaming, knowing it was but of no dream.
Is the end just above the harassing, or still just a mere speck waiting to be seen.
he screamed again, as the snow touched his face
- wishing his fellow friends could hear.
the mindless memories all over his body warned him.
It warned him he was still wanted by them.
Still yearned by the ones of which owned the forest.
"Jaylin, run! Run now!"
this wasn't his mind, but the mysteries' wind that ran next to him.
He heard it, but didn't know what it said until he saw them -
barking, running and almost screaming.
Jaylin stopped to listen to this screaming,
as if the screaming was the sound of a thousand ghosts that the Wolves killed.
Hearing all this he knew he wasn't the first.
"How could the wind know?,
Why are there some many voices in my head!?,
I don't want to be trapped like the other lost and forgotten souls!,
I don't want to be screaming in endless time of death !",
what was wished for was soon put away in the hollow sound of the universe.
they found him.
and the taste of death
where all things felt when Jaylin was bitten.
Bitten by The Wolves.
there's something about the way we are
that makes me want to explore further more
just to see where the future will take us
whether our love is truly precious
as well as sealed tight, important
if it's been worth the stress
the sleepless nights
the endless days
of day dreaming
and everlasting lust
whether my lips
really want to touch
every part of your body
and whether or not
you're perfect for me
if our love fits right
i am sure its's been worth the fight
just to be in that bliss mode every night
to think of, want, need that feeling of lust
and everlasting, soothing, intense love
never felt so alive in my entire life
i think this might just be it
i've found my soulmate
the one love
i want to keep
in my thoughts
in my dreams
until the end
Light at the tunnel's end
Engulfed in a sea of darkness
An oasis for a weary traveller
How can you know that person
So well she knows you
While your bond will worsen
And there is no thing you can do
How can you look her in the eyes
And tell her you don't feel
It was a villain in disguise
All he wanted was to steal
How can you tell her he took your heart
And a big magnifying glass
In the end he gave you part
Of the big and terrible mass
He said come look at this
There must be something wrong
Maybe there is something that you miss?
Because this used to be so strong
So you look at your own heart
Shamelessly thorn and adapted
And there slowly you make a start
To get to know what it affected
No matter the secrets hearts keep
There is one thing we all know
No wound can be too deep
For sincere love to undo
My energy is what you're taking
You are stealing it from me
Slowly and painfully my heart is breaking
It is somthing you must see
So now my love the time has come
For me to let you go
I can't explain where it comes from
But it's the right thing, I really know
I will care as long as I live
About how your life goes on
I just hope that you will forgive me
For not being the one
A house, a mirror, a broken knife,
sudden wishes to have no strife,
the deepest urge to end a life,
anyone's in this house.
A mirror, a knife, a troubled mind,
no looking back to see what's behind,
no more chances to seek what you find,
only a shattered mirror.
A knife, a mind, a winter storm,
a sharpened blade kept where it's warm,
buried in the chest of the norm,
scars from a broken knife.
A mind, a storm, a haunted face,
all these thoughts are out of place,
disfigured by what you will erase,
misery in the mind.
A storm that brings back time and space,
it leads me to your haunting face,
all these thoughts are out of place,
nothing more can I erase.
[Hint - it's fun to read this one out loud :) ]
Upon a crusty and spinning crag
Herbert's trusty craft did set,
Out beyond the path of Mars
In an asteroid belt they met.
Picked from out of thousands there
He selected a rocky home,
The perfect kind of rocky mass
To end his spacely roam.
First Ceres was too large and bold
And Pallas was too pale,
Old Vesta flew with sluggish wings
And Hygiea seemed too frail..
Ah, Sylvia seemed a likely rock
And her orbit seemed fine too,
But t'was Juno caught his eye at last
So what else could he do?
He sat his craft upon that rock
And loosed his robot throng,
Soon they mined and smelted ore
And built a structure strong.
That dome rose up with welded struts
To stand on a bright-lit plain,
The jewel-like panes filled out the place
O'er that kingdom he would reign.
Industrious 'bots and a stately home
So there did Herbert rule,
O'er a stark and rocky, lonely view
In the asteroid belt so cruel.
T'was far away to the nearest soul
No one to share Herb's tea,
To simply chat or share a bite
How lovely would that be?
Deep beneath old Juno's crust
'Bots mined for all their worth
Pulling out rare stuff and gems
And sending them to Earth.
But all the gold and diamond stones
Could hardly even start,
To fill the void that Herbert felt
Where he knew he kept a heart.
Yet, several rocky asteroids out
Across that rocky belt,
Another set upon her task
With ores and slag to melt.
Past Callisto and Iris zones
Where Cybele and Psyche spin
Fair Susanna tended Hektor's mines
Of silver, zinc and tin.
Now orbits often twist and dance
And trade with one another,
Where one boulder once was kin
There soon will be some other.
T'was thus that Herbert's Juno rock
Slowly made it's way,
To catch-up Susie's Hektor world
And shadow it one day.
Sue looked out her glass abode
To see what blocked the sun,
Then seeing Juno with its mines
A visit seemed like fun.
Toward a spot near Herbert's ship
Suzanna's came a-falling,
Imagine Herbert's bright surprise
Seeing visitors a-calling.
A shapely suit with bubble head
And jet-pack soon came floating,
To Herbert's door that afternoon
The sight had him emoting.
"Well hello there friend, and who are you
That to my rock comes knocking?"
"Just another miner fool
Whose sun your Juno's blocking"
"In just a little while, I'm sure
Our asteroids will part,
So why not stay a little while
And a friendship we can start?"
Double shipments soon they made
To send away to Earth
While their robots toiled each day
The sweethearts shared their mirth.
Great love did our Herb and Susie share
Built on those pleasant talks
And soon a tractor beam they fixed
Between their drifting rocks.
And still today in spacers' lore
They talk about that tether,
That linked two hearts among the rocks
Two asteroids bound together.