i am drowning
and all is fine.
you are my friend
water divine
i ask nothing of this vast sea
this vast sea asks nothing of me
relative
harmony
i wish the air
could be here too
to see the world
from waters view
but air wafts
far up there
a flow I thought
was everywhere
sinking further
i must look down
to see what is
near the ground
to my surprise
none at all
just more sea
i slowly fall
into the sky
deep below
a late night
water show
light swims about
ebb and glow
down where I
can never go
MY MIND YELLS!
for me to breathe
and of this
i cannot conceive
for to breathe is to die...
...and breathing is
a part of me
as the wave
is of the sea
Your heaven has failed me
On the days when I felt loading up the dish washer was a
Personal assault on my psyche
Your god has-
Run me over with his fists too many times
And made me believe it was paternal pat’s on the back
All the-
Pain I was feeling,
You carry the gravel in your teeth
To make sure its full of grit,
When you speak,
I say;
“you’re full of shit”
You say im just weak for the things
That have made me unholy.
I am weak for the things that have unbroken me.
These words are shrapnel
You let them sink into our skin there is no more dirt to chew
I will spend my last moments
Holding onto the fucking noose
I’m going down swinging
And if that means I’ll hang
So be it
There are worst ways to die
I know
Because I’ve died before
Nothing special happens. Ya’ll can stop dreaming.
Kindness isn’t supposed to taste so bitter
Being saved
Isn’t supposed to hurt so much
You-
Never knew how much the night sky despised the daylight
Until you moved to a country where it gets longer every year
You never knew how kind
The sun was to your skin-
Ive got tan lines where my noose used to swing
It took me three years to untie myself
And I still have scars
Whether they will be there or not in a few more years
I guess ill stick around and see just
How much ive
lost
“I want to die”
I am unable to respond.
My fifteen years of life
Mean nothing
Compared to her ninety.
She sits across from me
Tears forming
Threatening to fall,
To spread the truth down
Her sunken cheeks.
Her face is stricken with pain
Yet so sure.
My grandmother wanted to die.
“I’m just staying alive for them”
Them being my stepdad and aunt,
Her children.
Again I am speechless
I cannot comprehend her words
When does one’s life stop being a gift
And becomes a chore?
How can the strength to go on leave?
How?
I don’t know how to reassure her.
How can anyone persuade
Another person that their life
Is worth living?
Let alone a teenager
Whose biggest problem is a pimple?
Death is surrounding us
Covering our bodies
Forcing us to acknowledge it.
I want to run away from it but death will follow
It always does.
I do the only thing I hope will help.
I hug her
Our cheeks pressed together
Our tears joining,
Slipping away
Like the life left inside of her.
I was born of fire,
of a simple flame.
I save many worlds,
yet I take no blame.
It all dwindles away,
into my dark past.
What applause I do get,
it will never last.
I was born of ice,
frozen, cold, and blue.
I am a burden of frost,
a very bitter one, too.
A man of lost love.
A man of lost friends.
My companions die
as my life never ends.
I was born of rage,
war, cruelty, and hate.
That never really changes
once I regenerate.
In this war I face,
I'm a truly lost soldier.
But, you see, I won.
The Time War is over.
Once you have seen me
I will never be a blur.
For my true name is lost,
so just call me The Doctor
Life with the Ponds
There was a girl
that I knew for years
When young, she was strong
And had little fears.
When older, she engaged
to a man with such glory.
But she waited so long
to tell me of Rory.
Then we started, with time,
to bring him along.
And in less than a minute,
her Rory was gone.
He vanished from time
and Amy forgot.
While, as my curse,
I sadly did not.
But then with a bang,
the boy did return,
when he was desperately needed,
when life wouldn't burn.
A brave soldier he was
with little to no fears.
He sat there with Amy
for 2,000 years.
Then we saved the world.
Reset, it would be,
but, in return,
it would lose me.
On my way back
through the turning of time,
I took notice
of this cursed life of mine.
Soon through the flashback,
which showed little glory,
I stopped in my path
to tell Amy a story.
It brought me back
into the world.
In time for a wedding
of a boy and a girl.
I had a calling
from the groom's bride.
"Oh Doctor, my doctor,
you cannot hide
You're not imagined,
you are so real.
Come back through the crack
so that it can heal."
And soon I did
as the wind blew
I arrived in a tux,
and brought something blue.
After awhile,
we set off again
Me, happy as ever,
with my two best friends.
And, after that,
It didn't take long
til we went to war,
til they had River Song.
Her life was confusing,
and converged into mine
I didn't realize
she was a lady of time.
When young, she was stolen.
Being trained, was she.
All of that work
just to kill me.
She almost succeeded
but it wasn't too late.
She gave me her lives.
She'd never regenerate.
Later, we'd marry,
when I was to die.
That's what earth needed
to move forward in time.
But yet I survived
in a robot of me
"Oh, clever Doctor,
how could this be?"
I know it confuses,
but one must not know.
It could fill up your brain
so much it might blow.
Now, on with the story,
it's soon to end.
I do not like it,
but it's hard to pretend.
We found Dinosaurs, cowboys,
we held the power of three,
but then came the angels.
They took them from me.
My sweet little pond,
and one of her boys.
I was so broken.
I lost all my poise.
Before all of this,
we ran, and we ran
But now there's no running
"Goodbye, Raggedy Man.
Like,
Who cares?
You don't have to die
Just
Destroy yourself.
Live fast
Die young
Leave 12 rap albums
And a single.
You dirty rat is
tu rattus turpis in Latin, and
tum podem extulit horridulum
means you are talking shit.
And if you want to let it all hang out,
you shout totum dependeat!
Stercus accidit means shit happens,
and I wonder why those gladiators
didn’t give the Emperor the finger sign
instead of saying morituri te salutant.
For those about to die, and full of dread,
there would be nothing absurd
about flipping the bird,
and saying aves conversio instead.
Mike T Minehan
There is no birth, without death. I will not die. I am forever.
Undying.
I am the Grey Fog of the Heart.
Flowing endless. Endless River.
Endless stars in the Endless Sky.
All is Endless, Boundless Might.
I am akin to the Gods of Night.
I am forever.
I know this story
Two broken toys
Lives miming parody
Cruel tragedy
A girl behind glass
We can't touch our
Hearts live in the past
We could press up
Against the pain of glass
It doesn't matter what we want
When your broken you just can't
I know how it is
Fate whispers tragedy
It can't be I want to die
Living dead presently
I see the world through glass
A world of people to see
They're mouthing words I can't hear
I scream but they can't touch me
I'm disconnected and distant
Shadow soul ghost echo
Ephermal intangible animal
Easily confused by what's real
Surviving starts this prison feeling
Crying staring at the ceiling
With every fiber of being
Longing to feel anything
I could sleep with you
Never touch soul just body
Fickle fates heart is a tyrant
One of life's little ironies
So you'll always be
The girl behind glass
Pretty snowglobe to stare at
Cold winter dream untouched
Secret hidden heart hurting enough
Find enough snowglobes
You'll learn to let go
We only have what we hold
Was it you we'll never know
But I'll remember you fondly
In your time of winter and trees most
Memories of hope I'll keep close
The last time someone touched my heart
These days I don't have many of those
