in a world where the world ends
at the end of the block,
carnivores watch and stare
when i skin my knee jumping
the fence into mr. mcgregor's garden.
where is it that we were together?
who were you that i lived with?
back past the old levee road,
a fen fox bounds over the ridge,
squeezes through the fence,
licks its snout and teeth
and sneaks under the briar patch.
does nature vie with itself?
land contend with sea?
in mr. mcgregor’s garden,
tomatoes sag heavy on the vine
and the atropa, creeps,
trespasses around the hedge.
a glance from your eyes
and my life would be yours.
under the old earth buried
deep as marrow,
a rabbit rises from its rest,
and runs from the dark.
is this darkness in you too?
have you passed through this night?
The howl and gnashing of teeth-
They slice.
The fox sinks deep
into hair and blood.
Rabbits scream when they die.
How'd it steal into the world?
What seed, what root did it grow from?
Mr. McGregor yells, the backdoor slams.
I jump the fence, run home
lock all the windows.
My mother asks “Are you alright?”
Hours like months,
days like years.
Back to the door
I stay quiet, wonder
what will the farmer do
with the body?
That death's got the final word,
it's laughing at her.
getting caught up in your web of lies.
its time that i should realize
there's nothing but bullshit in your eyes
and i can no longer sympathize.
you greet each day with only half a heart,
silently wishing it didn't start,
hoping each day's the one you depart,
tired of living your life in the dark.
i follow you to try to shed some light
but you close your eyes at the sight,
and call to you, your blanket of night.
you won't let me help with this fight.
give a man a fish, he'll eat for a day,
trying to teach you, but you run away.
you can't help someone who won't stay,
so why am i still here, anyway?
i am an asshole
and I feel weird
all the time
and I have mood swings faster than the striking of snakes
and my rage comes like hurricanes
and my euphoria like spring rain
quick and furious
i am bitter like
wormwood
and i laugh at things
i shouldn’t
and i wring my hands
and bite my lips
and glare
i have no social grace
and i dislike more things in this world than i can admit
but i make you lunch.
and let you cry on me
burn candles
fill your pockets with lavender for luck
and witch bottles full of blood and my hair
and pour salt
and put on party dresses
and pick flowers
and bring wine
and i pour fire in the mouths of those who hurt you
and i abandon you for days
when the dark in my head
gets too loud
but not really
because
i think about you all the time
it’s just
i don’t want you to see the lightening striking and the
lion roaring and screaming in my mind
when i tally up my skin
and empty my stomach i
don’t want you to see
and
i don’t want you to abandon me
so don’t
fucking leave me
don’t abandon me
and i know you need space too
because i can be suffocating
but
when i disappear into my own head
people don't miss me
like i
miss
them
when i put so much effort into being
a some-what human being for you
Ancient oaks of the forest, so swiftly you fell
no silence wherein cruel, unthinking men dwell
Your echoing woods cracked upon the ground
with birds and tears, the ripping down
and where shall they go, safe to shelter the storm?
Cold the world for certain cities we build
barren - we strip, conquer and kill
So dark this greed of men I deplore
and where shall we go, safe to shelter the storm?
You say I'm your friend
You don't treat me like one
So Cold
The warmth that we both shared
Where did it go?
I don't know
Do I, bother you even though you say I don't
Your voice, sweet and kind turned bitter and cold
Reassure, me always by telling me that we're good
I want to, believe you but I'd be lying to myself
You say I'm your friend
You don't treat me like one
So Cold
Your thoughts turned so dark
I don't know who you are
Anymore
Find out, the source of all your agitation and misery
Turns out, this forsaken and relentless enemy is me
Shut down, I can't believe and I don't know what to think
Breakdown, the burned bridge, of what was my hope is gone
You say I'm your friend
You don't treat me like one
So Cold
Cold days slowly go by
You're still in my mind
Always
Breathe life into this
Cold & Broken
So Cold
Smiles don't exist
Whisper goodbye
Alone
And I, walk away leaving you behind
Always, and forever you will be on my mind
Between a shaking voice and frozen palms, I am begging you to shine a light all over this. Illuminate every place from the top of my skull to the soles of my feet that you have fallen out of love with. Just don't breathe deeply & leave me with a half-hearted kiss in the dark again. Steal the shining hope right out of my eye sockets because I'd rather melt wrecklessly into your truth than stand firmly in your lies.
let me into the stream of humanity's mumblings
this emotion thick on my face
my words live
fill the pages
yet i remain an empty vessel
a winterbound torn down dark amusents
of self sabotage
strife and the wonderful treasures
the sweat pours
like an announcement of desperation
breathing in gasps
it would ease my sorrows
it would ease my soul
weary of the day
lets gather our wits about us
to make safe passage thru the
oncoming silence of darkness
your odd socks gather in the corner
along with half a dress
and a broken stroller
the child sleeps silently
headphones clears
battered noise
fire ignights
the long years unwind before me like a grand sketch
subtle and deep with mystery
unfinished portraits of long forgotten friends
surge forth like a strong breeze
and catch my sails
carry me forth into distant times
where something was shared
and a face comes clear...a place
lenny...the yard..
September nineteen seventy six...
a young striving for mastery...but it was because of....
but the sea is an unforgiving lady
and before i can see
what lay there
the memory fades
This isn't real ,
It can't be,
A vagrant spirit,
Creeping with echoes,
Shadowed,
Asphyxiation
Strangulated as hernia,
Causes pain,
Risking death,
Shallow ground,
Drip drop,
Walls are melting,
Smells dank,
Hanging in the atmosphere,
Encasing frightened ears,
Being aware,
For whilst asleep,
Can you weep,
Hate the dark,
He keeps me sleeping,
Dawn shatters night's illusion,
Tension released after sleep,
In joy you awake,
Night creature released,
Cobwebs washed away!
By ladylivvi1
© 2013 ladylivvi1 (All rights reserved)
Nocturnal
Posted by Olivia Kent on May 25, 2013 at 6:10am
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This isn't real ,
It can't be,
A vagrant spirit,
Creeping with echoes,
Shadowed,
Asphyxiation
Strangulated as hernia,
Causes pain,
Risking death,
Shallow ground,
Drip drop,
Walls are melting,
Smells dank,
Hanging in the atmosphere,
Encasing frightened ears,
Being aware,
For whilst asleep,
Can you weep,
Hate the dark,
He keeps me sleeping,
Dawn shatters night's illusion,
Tension released after sleep,
In joy you awake,
Night creature released,
Cobwebs washed away!
By ladylivvi1
© 2013 ladylivvi1 (All rights reserved)
She saw her life flash before her eyes
Even the dark chapter containing a swift demise
Furry sank in
As she grew uncomfortable in her own skin
Everything was supposed to turn out alright
Not flutter away like some unhinged kite
This man was supposed to be the epitome of desire
A person others could admire
There shouldn't have been any indecision
They were to merge in an act of pure fission
And So it appeared for fifty long days
Then in disintegrated in the reflected glimpse of a bong's haze.
