The sun goes down.
Tears bubble up.
A new found frown.
Your words aren't enough.




She holds the knife.
Safely at her wrists.
It is her life.
Now use your wits.




The cup of water waits.
The pills make noise and shake.
Do something or it will be too late.
From this nightmare she must wake.




The blood, it drips and stains.
The girl is not the same.
The outcome, it is plain.
She has to die to hide the shame.




Run through the rain to help her.
Forget the past and lies.
The world is all a blur.
She cannot die.




You burst inside too late.
Her body lay on the floor.
On this date.
You wish you could have done more.




Your nightmare begins.
You just want her back.
There's no one that wins.
Now she is who you lack.




Restless nights come towards you.
Her cold eyes stare hard.
Was there something you could do?
No one would dare play that card.




Months pass with regretful days.
You lean to cutting.
Nothing can ease these pains.
Your mind is running.




You can't take it anymore.
On the bathroom floor you sit.
You cannot fix your broken core.
Every word said makes it lit.




You take the knife to your skin.
You want to end the same as she.
The lights start to dim.
But something else is the key.




You grab the water and the pills.
You chug them down.
Your final will.
You won't share the crown.




The lights fade out.
Your hearing goes.
Now you have no doubt.
You leave your foes.




To meet with her again is all you ever craved.
Now you might see her.
Now you are in your grave.
But it is all a blur.




You know not where you are.
Darkness all around you.
Locked behind these bars.
What will you do?

A pilgrimage to Thy feet someday I hope to make
where I no longer will be, except as dust, for my sake
to please You and seek Your pleasure to date
when knowing You are really my best mate.
If You appear to be hard on me I will know
there's something more You wish me to forego.

You have a habit of working in unfathomable ways
mind boggling to those who attempt such displays
as knowing Your will when Your whim's holding sway
revealing their ignorance and causing some dismay.

You have and use the capacity of a universal mind
staggering to the imagination leaving it far behind,
being the subtlest of the subtle and pervading all planes
throughout the three worlds You're the One who entertains.
Whether in apparent joy or sorrow remaining always the same
established in reality and far beyond the opposites' game.

You're the perfect mirror reflecting what and where we are;
as being unrealistic and caught in illusion, not going very far.
When we recognise our situation and let You take us by the hand,
with all faith and humility, we can reach that place where You stand.

Outwardly You appear to have a most unassuming stature
yet inwardly possessing spiritual wealth of an infinite nature.
You radiate divine love to all who come before You;
in Thy presence it's like drowning and melting into
a supremely blissful existence beyond any worldly experience.
An intense yet somewhat cooling fire of love, in all conscience
like an inner awakening and emerging into a fathomless being,
all around as inseparable parts of an infinite ocean and seeing
that there is nothing else to behold in formless eternity
which is really our true nature and immaculate reality.

You have indicated that You're the One many seek but so few find
and that You are the Ancient One; being The Only One of a kind.
This time around though You have come not to teach but to awaken
and by remaining silent, through Your silence, the world will be shaken.
Perhaps like an oncoming storm where lightning is seen before thunder
Your glory will manifest regardless of what is going on down under.
Eventually ushering in the New Humanity of which You have spoken
and uttering One Word, everywhere resounding, Your silence is broken.
Revealing Your greatest manifestation as You long ago stated
thence Your Final Declaration will thus never be outdated.
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You exist eternally having no beginning or end
and in reality You're the most sought after friend.
In those who are pure at heart and mind You are so easily found,
and if anyone learns to speak Your language You always come around.
In times of need, especially when the world is in much turmoil,
You make Your appearance on earth undergoing incredible toil.
To one and all You give each a gentle push forward
doing Your ages old duty bringing all closer toward
that state of existence which is indescribable for any to express
making available Your glorious nature by compassion nevertheless.

You are the Avatar - God incarnate in human form,
the oldest and wisest being exceeding all rivals born.
In each new age that You are brought down
by those Five who have been chosen to crown
You as The Highest of the High and hand over the reins
of the entire creation for You to steer away from the pains
and hidden fears of seemingly premature self-destruction,
by Thine infinite divine attributes You overcome all obstruction.

You haven't come here to establish a new society, organization or religion bring
but to revitalise and bring together all that have come before like beads on a string.
Undergoing infinite suffering while in the body for humanity's sake You are
only asking for love in return from those who know You as MEHER BABA.

A great deal of Thy work was done with those Wayfarer souls,
Thine intimate lovers, scattered all around, playing their unique roles,
but appearing somewhat dazed and destitute like other madmen around,
You recognised they were intoxicated from Divine Love true and profound.
Nourishing and satisfying their inner yearnings You helped them all get along
and when realising Whom they were with, knew it was to You they did belong.
Also You washed, clothed and fed many of the other unfortunate ones
sharing with each an intimate moment of love for which You had come.
It was because of Thy greatness and glory that You achieved all this and more
showing all mankind, by love and compassion, the road that leads to Your door.

AVATAR MEHER BABA KI JAI
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When was the last time I saw you?
We've been long overdue
Losing our time to talk with each other
You've been locked up by your mother
I wonder what girl I’ll be talking to
It sometimes felt old and new

I guess I deserve the bad side
Our love, we shared had died
What can I do but listen to the pain?
I’ve never felt so much shame
Maybe if I write you one happy story
You’d feel a little bundle of glory
Recognizing the good I can do
You never came to appreciate the new
I felt so alone and cold
Maybe happiness will help the old
Hoping one day you’d read it
Just feeling one ounce of bright lit
Sharing that old soft smile of yours again

I hope you enjoy the tales
I write these under tired pales
Endless nights of rewrites
Kind of like spiraling kites
Tangled up and floating away
Every day, day after day
I write a hundred words down
There is no better way for a fool and his crown
The truth is I write because of you
You never make feel so blue
I’ll sit here at these keyboards
Trying to hold onto all of these musical chords
This is my best way of showing I love you
But all of this will come to drown
This is just my wishful spirit typing these memories down

When i said hello
He said goodbye
When i thought i could trust
that trust was a lie

Why do I do this to myself?
Why do I search for these things?
When I know what it does to me
when i know that it's cheat

I'n going to trust in someone greater
someone better
someone who won't let me down
Jesus, christ my true crown

Isn't it ironic
We all wanna grow up and become iconic
Yet the closer we get the faster we run like sonic
Dreams just getting smaller babe don't cry on it
Move on you'll never be what you've always wanted
That's the voice in your mind tryn' put you down
Just hit the ground
Raise your head up and look around
Some have made it
So go chance it
Soon you'll wear the crown
And who ever laughed at you and brought you down
They will all look like clowns drown in the dreams
Come back alive
in your own made up life
Watch me grow
In your nights I will glow
Take my hand and you'll know
That's my hope talking
Am fighting my own self no joking
yet you find me smiling like am the king