Why are you letting social media control you?
Why do you let it consume you?
Why are you so disrespectful to one another?
Why can't you love one another?
You let the outside voices suffocate your ideas until they can't think for themselves
Party, I hate school, party, I hate school.
The color purple creeping up your drank
The green smell burning in the other hand
You're stupid, c'mon you're better thAn that
Shaking your ass for the world to see, in the long run is that gonna get you a job or put you out in the streets
I hate this generation, see back in my day..
I hate this generation, I was born in the wrong one
Is all I hear
People love to say what we're doing wrong but never what we're doing right
I love my generation
We're not epidemic , we're not itchin for some rocks like in the late 80's
We're smarter everyday and if they weren't focused on what we did wrong maybe they could see the right
Some nights I'm too tired to think
And I sleep too hard to dream
Those nights are good nights for me
I can rest peacefully
Some nights I'm not tired enough
And the thoughts are loud in my head
Chastising me for the things I didn't do
For the words I left unsaid
Some nights I lie wide awake
Treading in my own regret
Sleep tiptoes around me
Not ready to consume me yet
Some nights I torture myself
Asking why why why
I could've been yours, you could've been mine
Had I not been so asinine
Some nights are for wonder
On why I am the way I am
So over emotional all the time
Unable to make anyone understand
Most nights are like these, for prayer
That maybe this sleep will be the long one
Maybe this will be the slumber that puts me at ease and
I can rest peacefully
There is no one I want to talk to more right now than you.
There is no one I want to see die more right now than you.
No one I want to see have their dreams crushed, hope shredded, body bruised,
standing before the alter with the glory of Athena, hold in the soft cradle
of my arms as you draw your last breath,
You are the name on my lips as I drift into peaceful slumber.
You are the screaming nightmare thrashing in soaked blankets, as I rip apart
my chest, desperately seeking the heart you stole.
"You stole my heart" - as if I could condense your achingly beautiful soul into
that crusted cliche, this drivel of words, jumbled, trying to make sense of
You who I will never get over.
You who I will never drive completely from my mind.
You who I will never heal from.
You who I will never forget.
You consume my future, as you consumed my past.
But I can no longer hate
You. Nor hate another, nor love another, nor ever feel any semblance of anything
You shattered my passion when you shattered my heart.
I've never been able to find either since.
the oddness of your lips stained across my chest
unable to move
by the blood that flows there
my frantically beating heart
gives me away to how humane i have become next to you
i have lost my wild
thorn filled hair now hangs lifeless at my side
and the electricity that i once felt at your touch
has been dimished
i am in love with the idea of you
that i may not roam forever alone and free
is equally as terrifying as being with you
part of my hate for the way you are able to penetrate my iron wall
is also the reason why i am unable to forget you
yet i stand here
where you left me last
and i remember how hard your heart beat too
i could not fathom that i would be the one stuck
while you are able to move so freely
for i am the breaker of hearts
here i stand
the jagged edges of my heart protruding from my chest
hungry to devour another
so that i might heal from their pain
and one day
when i am free again
i will look back on this moment
through the forest
allowing the wilderness to consume me
by your beating heart
You write depressing poetry you lay in your bed for hours wasting time rocking yourself back a forth with tears streaming down your face and you cry until you can't you stare at the ceiling and you go crazy you want to scream and punch things you want to hold a gun your head and pull the trigger you want to die you want to hurt her but you want to hold and love her at the same time you want to shout you want to throw things you ignore it and you don't ignore it you sink into your darkness and let it consume you you burn because that's all you have left to do you burn with each memory and laugh as it sears your skin and fire rips through your veins and your heart thuds in your chest and you can't breathe. I don't know I don't know because that's all I know how to do I can't tell you how to stop loving someone or how to heal from your sadness because I'm still searching for that answer myself.
Life is so, mmm~
Don't hold back,
Really Live through it - while it's here
Hold loved ones near, and smear memories on canvas.
Accept change because not everything goes how we plan it.
Love, completely with honesty.
So long as I'm around I'll only give you all of me.
So let's release in the breeze, plant seeds and watch family trees grow.
Life's a dance so manage to take chances, cuz otherwise, ya never know~
They lurk in all of us, like a black smog clogging up our moral judgement they creep and curl and consume our thoughts and innocent souls until we are corrupted with a false conception of reality and being.
They tingle on ours tongues, spitting and hissing at anything honest and true, like a snake they warp us into a forked viper's venom - poisonous and irrevocable. They bite into our victims mind, spreading only negativity and misery; oozing with droplets encomposing all the evil of the world in a single minute sphere.
They flash through our eyes, through our minds, across our hearts like dark shadows cloaking sincerity and simplicty leaving us to a life of complicated murkiness, having to plan our every move and conive and swindle our way through the maze of what is real and what isn't.
They spin us in a web, Deceit; like a hungry spider awaits it's prey, always catching us in the end...always wrapping us nice and tight until there is no possible escape except to accept the truth- that you are about to get eaten by a "spider".
One day we all get caught in our own web of lies, whether they be expressed towards others, or just as likely self-inflicted.
And one day we all have to face the truth.
Left to my own devices,
Sink or swim
In the distance I can hear the ringing out of Cathedral bells
A slow smile births across my face,
A knowing comfort in the coming grace
As the waves rise higher in their great swells
To consume me
what am i doing here?
do i even really exist?
nobody wants me
i'm just wasting my time
all i want is to disappear
i'm sick of being alive
the reason to keep alive has gone
it has gone for a very long time
all i do is just waiting
waiting until i'm running out the time
the darkness will completely consume me
we'd park his death trap and
my hand would
grasp the door handle.
just one pull with a few fingers
would release the door's lock
and the hinge would come alive
with a faint squeak.
he'd always linger and stall
and find ridiculous excuses
to stop us from getting out of the car
he'd ask countless
useless questions about next to nothing
and my impatience would build.
within minutes I'd tell him to shut up
and just get out
'cause he's being annoying and taking too long.
that's when he'd pause.
big brown eyes consume the blue of mine
and I can't breathe never mind speak.
awkwardly but gently,
sweetly but honestly,
he'd ask if he could kiss me.
those are the moments i remember.
those are the moments i won't forget.
those are the moments that made me feel
those are the moments that kept me alive
when I didn't want to do this life shit anymore.
i love you and i will always love you.
no day goes by where i don't think of the
chocolate brown of your eyes and
the long, thick lashes that decorated them;
no day goes by where i don't think of the
two dark freckles on your jawline
that could only be seen when
you clean-cut, freshly shaved;
no day goes by where i don't think of
your chain and
how it fell around your smooth olive skin
and how my fingers would curve
and twist and
fondle the steel
when I would jump from
the passenger seat to the driver's,
on top of you;
no day goes by where I don't wish
I could relive those days
over and over
and fucking over
i'm no longer sad you broke my heart,
i am forever in love with
the memories of you having
held my heart
with strong hands
for even just
maybe in another life,
we'll meet again.
even for just one more