To the hospital
I go
My liver has finally stopped
And my stomach is acid
Swaying to and fro.
The emergency room
Painted white
Wreaks of past death
And future life.
The doctor is a bloated
Christian man
hard to believe someone so smart could still
Believe in fairy-tales.

Dad I want you to know that I'll always still love you and even when your mad I'll still want to hug you.
You've come quite far in your 50 or so years, from drunkard to Christian overcoming my fears.

And in all of that time not ever did once, I ever say I hate you or that you're a dunce;
for though you were rude and nasty and mean and a pain in the ass like I've never quite seen, you've raised a great son who still loves his dad, though all of the good and through all of the bad.

I'm a little shy
And kinda loud
A natural leader
And very proud
Brown Eyed Girl
An attractive face
A little clutzy
And not much grace
Born Again Christian
Because my God saves
Nothing in this world
Can take His place
I have 3 amazing children
Who I absolutely adore
I'm starting to wonder
Maybe I want more??
Health and fitness
Is what I do
Teaching kids at church
I love to do too :)
That's me, y'all
In a nutshell
Want to know more?
Ask and I'll tell

Teach me , not to hate.
Simply because of their date.
If that, who they chose.
Then that's who they want?

Just don't teach me to hate.

Don't try on one hand.
To preach the words of the Spirit.
Then try on the other hand to be an interpreter.

Because we all fall from the glory.

Just don't teach me to hate.

There's not a person on this earth.
Who we could describe as perfect?
Not evening those that proclaim a Christian living.

If that, who they want?
Then that their right.
We all know that political legislation past or present.
Has never gotten anything right.


If I'm taught to love everyone.
Then don't expect me to hate just anyone.

It just not right.

If God's judging us.
It happens on a daily basis.
Meaning day and night.

Let's not let this chance pass by,
Before we begin to change our minds.
Even if it is forbidden,
I want you to love me tonight.

I say goodnight to both my father and my father,
I'm pretty sure they're making love with eachother.
When did they think,
Their moans aren't heard through the walls?

You took my hand and I was pretty sure we were friends,
We stared in boredom 'till we both leaned in for a kiss.
And then we fell,
Right down into my pink bed.

We don't need to change our minds,
Just doing this is fine.
Please don't hesitate.
Is this not what we wanted?
Even though you have a girlfriend and I am an outcast.
I know we are very young,
And it's our only excuse,
But we are still stupid,
And sexually confused.
We've received signal that it's time, the moon
Has hidden behind the clouds from our eyes.

The holy books spoke of an Adam and Eve,
And a forbidden love isn't meant to be.
If the star's have crossed, I will continue to fight.
At least just for this one night, Oh would you come save me?
We could keep on the run, or no one would know.
We would continue now, or go on with our old boring lives.
The choice is yours, I've already been damned,
But is it that bad, to be with the one you love?
The temptation has taken over me.

I starve myself so I look better than I think.
I shave my legs so I appeal younger than I am.
So desperately, I want to be a tool to your desires.

My abilities are limited and all in the mind.
I couldn't tell if I appealed to your likes.
I will change, if it is for you anytime.

Now I know I'm not your first,
And it doesn't hurt me.
But I wish the feelings were mutual for you.
I wish you knew right now,
How long I've waited to be apart of you.
Tell me, if you love me so.
How far you're willing to go.
If it's from coast to coast,
That I love you the most.
Those lines are cliché,
To boring and unoriginal.
Hold me close and never let go~!

And all the stupid worries are hurting my head,
How will we make it here, were we aren't allowed?
Our childhoods, we'll be laughed at and bullied.
And we won't have rights, in this Christian country.
So take my mind away from here, my Romeo.
As you promised you would do,
You kept my glass shoe.
You came for me, in my desperate time of need.
And for that I will repay you for your honor and and duty.
At long last, you are my fantasy.

In this moment of ecstasy, it seems like time has begun to slow down.
I have not a single doubt that we are now lovers, you are my dearest.
As you released your love and I took in all of your deepest worries.
The door had been swung open and we had to escape from this prison.
I grabbed my bag and we had made a run.

“I have to escape just like Juliet did.”
Don't be taken by surprise, I had planned to this whole time.
I'd run to you, and not know what to do.
But now that I love you, I think we can make it.
My daddy and my daddy don't care about me,
They never give me what I want and trap me in a box.
You came for me, with your shining gold key.
You opened me up, and I'm not afraid anymore.
The holy books said it was Adam and Eve,
But we can change the world, or at least our babies.
We can live together, and be happy as can be.
Please come with me, I can't live without you.
You took my hand and we ran for our lives.

What is the purpose of life?
“Art” says the artist.
“Love,” says the maiden.
“To inspire” says the writer.
“War” says the soldier.
“Humor” says the clown.
What is the meaning of life?
“Horror,” said the monster.
“Sex” said the harlet.
“God” said the Christian.
“Beer,” said the drunkard.
“Adventure,” said the explorer.
“The kill,” said the murderer.
“Entertainment,” said the ringmaster.
“To enlighten the mind,” said the philosopher.

“Poetry” says the poet.

They say farmer’s son will learn to take care of seedlings;
smith’s son will learn how to forge and beat the iron;
baker’s son will learn how best to bake
to conquer best the market…

They say some birdies grow up knitting nests;
ass’s foals grow up carrying loads;
cubs grow up learning how to roar most

to scare most the jungle…
The blood brothers2 were brought up
like sibling cubs of the lion
as if Mesopotamia was forest.


On birth day3 they learnt to blow lives out of bodies as candles;
a witness will tell how a citizen was received
by Mukhabarat4 waiters
one of such days,
and describe conviviality at Saddam’s
where the evil has born the arch evil5,
and where they learnt the art of making people yell!

At bees biting babies6 Uday was taught to find rejoice;
at parents wearing Adam’s garment7
in front of children
his father’s great power was worth of praise! 8
and he burnt to rule like father or more!



Would the Maker of the Heaven and Earth hold the fit
at the fate of Nahle Sabet9, the cake thrown to swine?
Would Mucius’s10 soul hold the fit
at the fate of Saad Abd al-Razzek Nihaya11
whose medals and stars were made spots
fit to throw to bin after the half of his life
hurled down from the sky?
Would the pearl Ilham Ali al-Azani12 be thrown like dirt to bin,
father’s fear of Allah tried,
and shot like a sneaking thief,
and the abu sarhan 13 stay without a prize,
and cause more devastations in the garden of Allah?

1. The lion and his cubs: Saddam Hussein al-Tikriti and his two sons Uday Saddam Hussein al-Tikriti and Qusay Saddam Hussein al-Tikriti. - 2. The blood brothers: The criminal brothers. Though crimes committed by Uday, the first born of Saddam Hussein, have been the most reported by media, his young brother was not less cruel. In April 26, 1998 he ordered Colonel Hassan al-Amri to murder on a grand scale at Abu Ghraib, Iraq’s largest prison, and more than 1,500 prisoners were all massacred the next day. – 3. On birthday: Reports say that Saddam’s sons received pistols as presents on their birthday! – 4. Mukhabarat: Saddam’s secret police. – 5. Where the evil has born the arch evil: such is the description of Saddam’s house. He taught criminality to his sons, and his first born became crueller than father. Uday told Latif Yahia, his body double, whenever he seemed weak or squeamish as a child his father would beat him with an iron bar and then force him to watch videos of prisoners being tortured. – 6. Bees biting babies: This is one of the tortures applied: naked children in a room with a bee hive, being stung hundreds of times, and their parents were forced to watch behind glasses! -7. Parents wearing Adam’s garment: men forced to rape their wives in front of their horrified young children! - 8. His father’s great power was worth of praise: First you note the irony. Uday told Latif Yahia, “Just wait until I become president. I’ll be crueller than my father ever was…” - 9. Nahle Sabet: A pretty architectural student. The girl resisted and rejected Uday publically; he threw her naked to his pack of wild dogs which ripped her to pieces while he watched, drinking champagne and laughing! Here is the testimony by Latif Yahia: «It was the look he was sporting on a crisp, dry winter day in 1987 when he drove around the campus of the University of Baghdad looking for action (for women to rape). He caught sight of Nahle Sabet, a pretty architecture student from a respected middle-class Christian family he’d noticed when he occasionally attended classes. He cruised past her slowly now, honking, trying to get her attention. She refused to even look in his direction. Two days later Sabet was a few blocks from her family’s home in a Baghdad suburb when a Mercedes sedan screeched to a halt on the sidewalk in front of her. Two men in dark suits got out and identified themselves as secret police. They told her she was wanted at headquarters for questioning and led her into the car. Headquarters turned out to be a farm Uday owned several miles from Baghdad. The frightened girl was hustled into a drawing room, where Uday sat at an antique desk. “You’re very lucky,” he said. “I’ve chosen you as my new girlfriend.” “You’re insane,” Sabet stammered. “I want to go home!” “Strip her,” Uday ordered his guards. The burly men pounced on her and ripped at her clothes until she was cowering naked on the floor. Uday towered over her, unrolling his favourite wire cable. “First I will beat you. Then, if you’re good, I’ll allow you to please myself and my men.” It took Uday and his men almost three months to break Sabet’s spirit. Then Uday was tired of her. Her face was ruined; her body was a mass of bruises. He had the guards take her out to the kennels where he kept his attack dogs. He’d told the keepers several days before to stop feeding them. Nahle Sabet was then smeared with honey and tossed into the kennels, where all evidence of the crime disappeared.» – 10. Mucius, (Gaius Mucius Scaevola): God of bravery and heroism in Ancient Roma. – 11. Saad Abd al-Razzek Nihaya: An Iraqi army officer decorated for bravery in the Iran-Iraq War but that didn’t help him or his new wife. Uday saw the couple walking together, took the girl to a hotel suite. She pleaded with him not to defile her - she had only been married yesterday. Uday beat her until she was bloody then raped her. Then they heard a long, piercing scream, then silence. The girl had jumped from the seventh floor. Her husband cursed Uday, and he was soon sentenced to death for ‘insulting the president.’ – 12. Ilham Ali al-Azani: Uday always slept with the winner of the Miss Iraq contest. But when attractive student Ilham Ali Al-azami won she turned him down. Uday abducted Miss Iraq to his palace. He raped her over and over again and then as ‘punishment for her defiance’ allowed all his bodyguards to rape her for an entire week. Then Uday circulated a rumour that the girl was a slut and let her go. The girl’s father, a devote Muslim, was so ashamed that he killed his own daughter. When the aging father appeared at Uday’s palace Uday had the old man shot.- 13. Abu sarhan: Uday seemed proud of his reputation and called himself abu sarhan, Arabic for "wolf".

Excerpt of Gallows Bird in Heaven, http://www.amazon.fr/Gallows-Bird-in-Heaven-ebook/dp/B005JKMW66

Source of the note: www.meritummedia.com, visited 2013/05/19

I condemn the ignorant.
I persecute and judge
The hapless swagsters
With their pants dragging across the pavement.
Their style,
their style I can judge.
Their ignorance, I have no right.
I took a look at the world.
Wrenching my heart.
Making my head fuzzy
With eyes aching from what they have seen.
My ears throb with the pitched wringing
Of constant technology
And controlled ignorance.
Most of all it is my legs.
My legs move awkwardly
As they struggle to support my weight.
They struggle to keep me standing against the gravity
Of a world that does not seem worth walking through.
Jumbled sentences,
no political views,
no future in mind,
hatred of any and all religion.
Yet they are so open.
So open and accepting to those
Which religion,
Politics
And the future have so swiftly rejected.
I look at the lies
And personal gain
Of politics.
It is disgusting.
I look at the future
And see nothing but horror
And the downfall of society.
I look at religion
And am ashamed to be called a Christian.
The world has become ignorant.
It is the blind leading the blind
As those with money and power
Do all in their ability to control everyone else.
I see the beauty of religious faith
Turned into a monstrous topic
People like to avoid
So they don’t have to think
Of the revolting people
Who are full of sin,
Parading around, destroying others
In the name of the Lord.
I look around and it hurts.
I look around and I collapse to the ground.
My legs have spent so long supporting me,
As if walking would bring me somewhere
Where we are literate and confident.
But as I look around and see the horror
And the misshapen beings swaying to and fro
As they themselves begin to realize that they, too
Want to sit down and wallow in their garbage.
Nothing but Fish in an unkempt tank,
Swimming in our own, endless s**t.
I begin to envy those I condemn.
Those who I purse my lips, raise an eyebrow and scoff at.
Those who I dismiss so easily in their ignorance,
For not seeing the world as it is.
Until I realize that I am not so smart.
Until I realize that their ignorance is the greatest genius of all.
Ignorance, as they say, is bliss.
Bliss I could only lie at the feet and kiss
In envy and want as I lose hope
In that I am just as ignorant as the rest.
I try to forget what I have seen,
What I have heard,
And how hard my legs have worked.
But I lay down and kiss.
I accept the bliss that comes with not knowing.
I forget the lies,
Manipulation
And cruelty of the world,
And even if it’s just for a little bit,
I bathe in the glory of ignorance.

We kill ourselves to escape this hell
But they say if we commit suicide
We don’t go to heaven

So where do we go
If we escape the bad, to be rejected by the good