My soul, my lifeblood.
My dream centre, my chasm of magic
And wonder adorned in
The fabrics of my thoughts and ideas.
Bask and gawk at my truth and scars,
Be warmed by my hate and love,
For my soul is purely mine
And no man woman or child
Could ever reason to take something
So precious to my own self
As my immortal being.
My soul, my lifeblood.
Black Soul Baby!
Yesterday,
I played in blue,
Today,
I'm back in black,
He is a phantom,
Dashing delightful,
Skids down razor blades,
Rather risque,
It's believed!
In black,
Suited and booted,
Tied up in chains,
Remains of the day,
Call of the wild,
Echoes of everything,
A shadow passes,
Trapped in locked vaults,
Imprisoned in vague suffocation of breathlessness,
Everyday dawns,
More excitement he creates from his chasm,
As each day conspires in new writes,
Love is my black soul baby!
By ladylivvi1
© 2013 ladylivvi1 (All rights reserved)
I awoke from a bad dream
You were not there.
I went out searching
I looked everywhere.
The wind was cold and howling
The owls began to cry
They saw that I was alone
And they wondered why.
I sought you in the fields
I looked amongst the trees
I searched through every shadow
You were gone from me.
I soon came to the river
I longed for its embrace.
to let its waters take me
and lead from this place.
I wandered from the water
I saw where you had cried
your tears had slowly hardened
where part of you had died
Your steps lead to a chasm
where ashen shadows dwell
in a dark and lonely manner
I wondered how you fell.
There is an entire world
that you do not belong in.
Their dreams seem distant,
their hearts of stone,
their smiles withered;
upon them shines a different sun.
You reach out,
but are unseen.
Did they do so, too?
Why, they did of course,
with upraised words most unbefitting,
they reached out as well
to you.
What good, however?
Between us, a chasm.
And those that,
much to your surprise,
did jump it -
did not jump to treat with you,
but as you,
to linger.
You linger still,
as do your hopes.
You do not in vain
hope for this different world
of peace and understanding
of gaps sutured shut
with meaningful intention.
But your words
are misaligned.
And you are, to all,
foreign,
of malice,
greed
and hatred.
You do not dream in vain,
but for now, you don't belong.
the map
that hangs
from my
bedroom
wall
has a thin blue line
of ink
that traces the
distance
that will soon be
between your lips
and mine
it
seems
so tiny
insignificant
a chasm that can be crossed
in a single bound
alas,
tread carefully,
the gap is far wider
than you think
it is easy for one
to fall
short
much like
summer
so quickly
come and gone
do not fret
our days may
be fast coming
but our feelings
they linger
seize
not only the day
but my fingers
so very tightly
and we shall cling
to chirping cricket
s
and cloudless skies
infinitely
Chasm of golden shadowed nothingness
From which he/she walks:
Self-formed tangle of opposition
Bearing Aztec cosmos
On muscles woven with fibers
Good, evil,
Male, female,
Chaotic, ordered.
Ometecuhtli/ Omecihuatl
Appears, disappears,
Ignited, extinguished
By light of jaguar sun,
First sun, her son:
Tezcatlipoca,
Sacrificed for half-light,
Burns giants from ashes
Of an incomplete age
Before falling back east.
Ometecuhtli/ Omecihuatl
Appears, disappears
Ignited, extinguished;
Creation blurred by cosmic tempers
Till the eve of Earthquake sun.
......................................................
On July 21st,
In the heat of the day,
They decided they needed to see,
Just who would, in fact,
Be the first one to run
To the top of that Poppletoff Tree.
"I'm an Ant," said the Ant,
As he kicked up some dust.
"Everyone knows you can't outrun an Ant.
We can lift twenty-times
Our own size, if we must.
This is a race I can win, and you can't."
But the Ladybug shook
His small Ladybug head,
And looked up at that Poppletoff Tree.
"I could care less if
You're an Ant, as you say.
For the Winner is going to be me."
"I reach the Peak as we speak
Of this Tree every day.
And I don't mind a challenge or two.
So I'll speak for all Ladybugs,
As I most solemnly say,
I am sure I am quicker than you."
.........................................
Along near the daffodil,
A Walking Stick laughed,
And shook his Walking Stick
Head with a sigh.
"It is a terribly tall and
Mysterious tree.
I think I would rather not try."
And in its oodle of lillies
Near the Rockaback Rock
Peeped a Nebb-Preening,
Well-meaning Flutterby Tock.
And she watched the commotion
Without sweeping the air,
All the oddly-odd characters
She found arguing there.
The Ooble watched everyone
Watch the big tree,
Peering ever so high to see
What they could see.
But the tree seemed so big
And so wide and so tall,
He tried and he tried,
But he could not see it all!
"Why, I planted this tree,"
Lied the Peruvian Wick,
With an accent that rattled
Both heavy and thick.
"Just a bit of a splice
From a Poppletoff Stick.
And you can raise a fine tree
If you know the right trick."
.......................................
But the Dragonfly balked
As he landed nearby.
"We could fly to the top.
It doesn't look high"
"I'm an Inch Worm,"
Snapped the Inch Worm
With the gentlest sigh.
"I can Inchworm along.
But I don't really fly."
The Flutterby Tock, who was
None to impressed,
Cocked up one good eye
And so gently addressed
Every speckle-eyed creature
That could see her eye cock,
As she climbed to the top
Of the Rackaback Rock.
"You are all quite forgetting
One undeniable fact.
A small bit of truth
You so earnestly lack.
Though you put in the effort.
Though you try and you try,
This Poppletoff Tree is
As old as the sky."
"And it may not appreciate
You lot climbing about.
The commotion alone
It can well do without.
Let it rest in the peace
And the quiet today,
What right do we have
To get in its way?"
.......................................
"I am quicker, you see!"
Snapped an errant Whobee,
Who cackled and cucked
By the hibiscus tree.
"I will show all of you
I am faster, you see!
I believe I may even be
Faster than me!"
"You arrogant Sloth,"
Snipped a Wickellet Moth,
As it chewed on the tiniest
Thread of a cloth.
"You are but a novice.
So go race, run or fly.
You could never best me
However you try."
A nearby Centipede,
Sipping his morning tea
Adjusted his spectacles
And squinted to see
This Poppletoff Tree of which
He'd heard every boast,
And as he gently dunked
A bit of his toast,
He said, "Climb if you wish.
Race if you must.
Round every knitter,
And kick up some dust.
But beware and be wary,
Should you hazard that tree.
For I've heard things
About it that ought not to be."
........................................
And a deep silence fell
From each tree leaf to twig
As the Centipede topped
A small Sycamore Fig.
He said: " If you race to this
Poppletoff Tree's very crown,
You might get there just fine.
But you will never come down."
"This tree is a stairway
Into the deep blue.
A doorway as ancient
As it is new.
A strange port of call
For the phantoms of night
That, oh, though they try,
They cannot reach the light."
"It is a dark, breathless chasm
That drifts oh so high -
You'll not notice the hours
As time whispers by.
You'll drink in the loneliness
Draped in the mist,
And forever be lost
In its endless abyss."
They listened, of course,
To every wise word -
But stubborn they were,
Unafraid, undeterred.
They breathed in the twilight
That drifted their way,
And focused upon the great
Deed of the day.
.......................................
The Mantis stood up
In-between the fair lot,
And said, "If you are so
Utterly certain.
Right now, on the spot,
Get ready! Get set!
From feeler to toe,
Stiff upper lip now.
Get ready and go!"
And off went the Cricket,
First one hop, then two,
As over the grasses
The young Ladybug flew.
The Ant whizzled up and
Between the dead bark,
And the Popsicle Bug
Disappeared in the dark.
That Peruvian Wick
Snickered in half a snap,
Put on his goggles
And cucumber cap,
He cracked every knuckle
That he knew wasn't there,
And breathed deeply in
Of the warm July air,
And as though he were
Timing each tap to a queue,
He izzled a snip
And his tiny feet flew,
The Whobee was already
Two seconds too late,
And had no intention
To linger or wait.
He knickered right in
To the soft summer sand
Chewed on his lip -
Then he ran
And he ran!
....................................
The Inch Worm inched up
At a brave Inch Worm pace,
His back arching with a vigor
And salute of grace.
The Grasshopper hopped
From grass blade to twig,
And left in the dust
Every single Aphid.
And the Wickellet Moth
Scampered round and about,
A fired tenacity
Draped over his snout-
Twas but a moment or less
And he was high in the air,
Clever and quick
As a prickly pear.
They rounded the trunk
Of the tree with a start,
As if this strange race
Were some odd work of art.
They darted and leapt,
They buzzled, they flew
Into the dark, and the deep,
And the blue.
They raced,
And they raced through
Each crevice, and crick.
They rushed through
The brittle bark
Three inches thick.
They snapped in their venom
Inside every cheat,
Unwilling to ever
Acknowledge defeat.
.....................................
Until the dark grew,
And the shades of the day
Quietly slithered
About them to play.
And the Ladybug paused
As he saw the dusk rise,
In a silence that drifted
On down from the skies.
He could no longer hear
The Ant boast of his speed.
He could no longer hear
The Grasshopper stampede.
Every sound that
The Inch Worm made
Was swallowed away
Into the deep dark,
And the cold,
And the gray.
He shivered against
The cool dark
Of the tree,
Squinted his eyes
But he couldn't
Quite see
The shades and
The shadows
That seemed to
Know him by name.
And his courage
By now
Dwindled like
An old flame.
No song of an Aphid,
No shrug from a Slug.
Not even the whoosh
Of a Popsicle Bug.
Just that quiet of Ever
Draped softly in dew,
Where he stood in the deep,
And the dark,
And the blue.
........................................
Way, way down below,
Where the grass was still green,
A Flutterby Tock chewed
On a porcupine bean,
As an old Walking Stick,
Wearied from the heat of the day
Claimed a spot in the shade,
And had nothing to say.
It was July 26th,
And the air was so still
There was nothing but quiet
On top of their hill.
When the Mantis let out
A most startling sigh.
"I believe that they've raced up
A little too high."
The morning sun shined
With a summertime glow
That woke up each cockle
And flower below.
Where the Flutterby Tock
Shook her head in dismay,
"A fair bit of ego can sure
Foul up a day."
"They wanted a race,
To know who was the best.
What a hair-brained adventure.
A silly old test."
And as the Centipede gazed up
At the Poppletoff Tree.
He said, "I am so very glad
That I listened to me."
Copyright © 2012 Richard D. Remler
You thought
She was fathoming the depth,
The distance of the fall,
The final impact,
And the pain during the end.
You thought
She was having a rethink,
Weighing in her mind
If the end
Just a fall away
Was worth going thru.
You thought
It suddenly tasted sweet,
What’s past her,
And it didn’t deserve
What she was contemplating.
They weren’t, any of them,
She hung her head in shame
That overpowered any fear
of what was coming,
as it couldn’t be any worse,
than what she passed thru
in a life never hers,
that in all her years
she couldn’t make her own.
To erase it
Once and for all
She could easily make the chasm
Pull her in.
Let me go in the Dark
I want to be in there
In the space of corpulent, infectious glands
Swallowing innocence with labyrinthine hands
Let me be one with the Night
My home is over there
In a place of ubiquitous fears
And a plethora of basking tears
Let me soak in the abyss
The void is so near
A comely figure,
an evocative sadist and protégé
Dripping candle wax on me
in San Lorenzo, Paraguay
Let me walk among ghosts
In the Portal Del So hotel
Tossing back Xanax;
Vicodin with a liquor chaser
Gin and vermouth, Vodka,
anything to forget her.
Let me wait in living purgatory
With other pods of skin
When the wind shakes the barley,
back home
Where a wife and son
never left me alone.
Let me go in the dark
Past the tortured guilt and sorrow
Where a family is made of flesh
and not ash
Where a house remains
and the fires don’t last
Let me cry and weep in silence
In a room with rotting drapes
A static-channel TV,
a two blade ceiling fan
People engulfed in one another,
A demon for a man
Let me shower in cold, thickening blood
Standing atop broken medicine cabinet glass
So many packs a day of cheap cigarettes
and loose women
None ease the pain
like the morphine in the kitchen.
Let me go into the chasm
The vein snake is thirsty.
I take a little more each time it feeds
But maybe not waking up
is what the snake needs
Let me sleep in the dark
While infomercials for prayer play
Juxtaposed to a zealous vagabond
and father
The last serpentine dosage
for a broken martyr
Let me go in the dark
Let me see them again
I’ll wait and watch the room shrink
And hope my eyes
never dilatorily blink.
Yeah that happened to mean. Such a uniquely realistic dream. I was around 35 years of age, and I was coping with the loss of my wife and son in a fire, back in a house in Belfast, Ireland. When My version of me decides to take a dangerous dosage of morphine and falls asleep (presumably dies from overdose) that's where my dream ends and I wake up.
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You've carved me like a river, love.
Don't you see?
You touched me and I caved like a landslide,
But you kept on.
Slowly you cut a path through my heart,
Down, down,
A chasm, a rift, down to the core,
Hard and sharp like rock
Worn down by white water.
You've carved me deep, love...
And still you pound through my veins like rapids.
