In the tiny hours of morning
When the moon is going down
And the stars have finished shining
I never hear a sound
Except your breath across my pillow
And the beating of your heart
And I lie awake and wonder
Why we spend
So much time
Apart

Their be a man
who walks that street,
And every corner turns,
Into
A different place
For each new face,
A new demon-
Yet to spurn..
Breathing,
while he paves his soul,
In blackened, hopeful
Dreams,
He thinks the road still up ahead
Will be no better,
Than he's seen..
Beating feet
To make it thru,
One more twist,
And then,
Knowing
That if
tomorrow
Comes
He'll just see
One more
Dead end..

this is the last hour
this is hearts beating with such magnitude they could shatter glass
this is clocks racing flinging time and present into the future and past
this is euphoria and firework explosions
this is a kiss at the perfect moment
life or death
most preferably life

this is the final race

The thunderstorm had ended
There was no longer lighting flashing across the sky
I had nothing golden to say tonight
So I laid my head down and asked myself why

Why can't I get you out of my mind?

So now the rain washes off last weeks misery
And I'm scrambling to find beauty in my words
I scream the deafening truth across seas
But still my love for you is unheard

I suppose there's nothing to do but sleep away the days we'll spend apart.
I'll close my eyes now & hope soon to hear the beating of your heart.





Tuesday 1:13 a.m.

Others have offenders from the outside,

always beating them in.

But my demons are inside.

and they can't be stopped.

My Head Hurts, Like Really Bad
It's like someones shoving an ice pick through my right eye
you know that pain you get right behind your eye that feels like it's never going to go away
I'd cut off a finger if i knew i'd never feel this pain again
Thump Thump Thump the pains beating with my heart.
go away headace.

Bring me your tired souls,
Of flesh burned
Marked limbs with numbers,
Age is nothing to me.

Still thy beating heart
Your song trembles,
Words of melody
Writes thy voice.

To thee a single petal
Of motionless thought,
Coalesce into thine mind,
You are the one.

Surging distress,
Lament one’s dying love.
For thy heart beckons
It’s hymn to me.

Indulge thyself
Into the sea.
Searching for love’s
True self.

My feet sludge through the mud,
my cheeks, red from the beating sun.
I don't know why I am in this desert,
thought it has rained here just days ago.

I was watching you through the rain
gazing, your eyes melt through mine.
Felt a cold touch in my heart...
It was the detachment from our souls,
they are finally joining to meet.
So long I have lost you,
now here we both stand.
It was here in the water,
in the desert sun,
I found you once again.

I beg the boiling sky,
I beg the now dry land,
to bring me back to him,
so our hands could clasp as well.
I don't know the days,
I barely know the time,
hours we have parted,
without ever saying goodbye.

But my eyes grow weak,
bleary and exhausted.
I long to close them, thinking of you...
we will meet again in the next life.
My love, I am so sure of it.

We will be here once again.

I feel stronger than i did last week
even though my body feels broken.

My heart is beating slower than usual
but i can keep running faster than
rain can fall from the clouds.

My eyes can't see as sharp as they used too
but everytime i see your face
it's clearer than the skies on a spring day.

Ny legs seem to drag each step i take
but when you start to walk towards me
I lift each leg as though it doesn't hurt.

My arms can't lift groceries anymore
but when you wrap your arms around me
they fall unto you without any struggle.

My past is scars inside and out
but when you're around
it doesn't exist.

The scars i see
every morning i wake up
and every night i sleep
with them caressing me.

Never forgotten shall they be.

Replaced with your face
every morning i awake
and every night i sleep with you
caressing me.

Never forgotten shall you be.

Your glistening eyes surprised by
fear's demise... You're ready to engage
your body, I must lay you and enter but
not yet... First I make you wet, kissing
you from lip to belly. Your nipples get
hard and your heart starts beating heavy.

You are getting hot, I am stroking you
around your ilium crest, the juices start
gushing and alive is the zest, I pin my
finger on your venus. Move it in and
out, in and out. You breathe tenderly,
musical rhythms... And finally I enter and our bodies are one dither.