They encourage me to understand what I lack,
They force me to strengthen my core,
They influence me wanting to become better,
They tell me there is something I can strive for.
They are my frustrating frustrations,
They are my weaknesses and my flaws.
They compel me to open my eyes,
Ergo I can see vividly more.
Aloof from reality
People permeate through you
Hold it in
You cannot seem to conjure a pure thought
Your troubles engulfing you
The people become elusive
Are you there?
But you give no signal
Reassure those who try to reach in
Don't them in
Let's play pretend
That life is ok
That you know me
That I am real
Are you there?
Silence is all they hear.
Out into the dark forest
I will go.
I will wait for him,
but I will wait;
at the mouth of an ebony river,
listening to what the Mother has to say.
And out into the thick dark forest
he will go,
hunting for me.
like my warm breath
on his neck
keeps his heart beating.
From miles away
he will hear me
whisper his name,
my love rippling through the soil.
Leaves will fall
with the trembling of my hands,
just before they rest on his shoulders.
And in the unearthly spotlight
we will be guided
into each others minds,
for there sleeps Salvation.
And we will thrash and thunder
and bang and crash
and Salvation will find us,
for it's deadly grace.
We will march on,
our hands clasped
with a fierceness nearly flammable,
"Jesus, Charlie. Did you really need to poop on the ground?"
Said I, to a silent apartment complex, which I later found out
was an atheist church before.
"The rent on this apartment is ungodly,"
I loved being dramatically ironic.
I was madly in love.
"I'm mad happy right now, y'all! BUT, I get a tad bit angry when I'm hungry."
I spoke too late.
"Yeah, I'd LOVE it if you would keep kicking the back of my seat."
I said this to myself
as if i were there
on a bus
I could tell you I'm not the sweetest grape in the bunch right now.
Nor will I ever be
More valuable than universal affirmation
Of utmost admiration.
There’s nothing worth risking its cessation,
Even in the face of unjust condemnation.
What lies within the deepest regions of my chest
Is my salvation from duress.