I could never tell you what was on my mind
So I wrote every thing down on paper
Each passing day with you only made things worse
Because all the things I was too shy to say
Became too lengthy to write in one sitting
So I typed them instead
Then one day you kissed me
And all the things I tried so hard to hide
Spilled from my mouth
And I dare say
Into your heart
I can never find the right words to describe how I feel,
the words never seem to make sense,
everything I say sounds like a contradiction,
but they say opposites attract
But when I'm around you,
all my feelings just go away,
and all the negatives become positive,
and it doesn't make sense at all
Seeing people smile,
makes me wonder why
Why do do they smile when I do not?
Why are they happy when I am not?
Is something wrong with me?
There must be for I feel no glee
I am not happy nor am I sad
I feel nothing and it makes me mad
Sometimes I feel I have reached the feeling
Only to realize it's still unfulfilling
For years i have yearned
To find the answer I have now learned
An empty feeling, there would always lie
Inside my chest 'til the day I die
I would be happy and I would be sad,
Just not always and that isn't bad
Yearning for something unknown,
is a feeling that makes me groan
But it reminds me why I like to feel,
I feel so that living would seem real
How can this be?
What's happening inside of me?
I can feel pained, broken;
but with happiness I can be stricken.
Where there's potential for great pleasure,
stands potential for great pain...
I love it when excitement blesses me.
When my heart beats quickly
and I feel adrenaline flowing through me.
I just want to feel completely free.
I love it when someone makes me feel;
that tender touch was never immaterial.
I hate it when pain cuts me.
When my skin bleeds readily
and I feel the blood flowing out of me.
I just want to banish the pain, free.
I hate it when someone makes me feel;
yet that cut was never immaterial.
Feelings; good or bad.
Just as important, no matter how sad.
We're alive and blessed with feeling,
yet also cursed, our hearts and bodies fleeting.
But make the most of the feeling,
embracing pain and pleasures meaning.
It's feeling; pure proof of our human living.
Make sure you embrace the power building.
It may explode and hurt but that's the point.
True passion wrought with adrenaline is feelings tall point...
How did I go from the heartbroken to the heartbreaker?
Every time I see a girl, I think I can take her.
Once you've been hurt so many times before, you refuse to be hurt anymore.
Are my player ways a reflection of my last?
Fell in love with someone, then you find out they're an ass.
Am I becoming my exes?
Already thinking about the next while I'm with my present?
I can't pinpoint my change.
It's kinda strange.
I did a complete 180,
because I never felt this way.
But does this make me a bad person?
Am I afraid of healing?
Maybe it's the fear of commitment that I'm feeling.
I can be so distant.
Not grow attached.
I don't see nothing wrong with that.
I just don't get feelings.
Is it so wrong that I've become numb?
It's like I don't have any remorse for what I've done.
Am I becoming my ex?
Am I a bad person?
Am I done healing?
Am I still hurting?