I’ve been caressed and loved, Many a time before. But this.
This is my ecstasy.
This memory now.
I could not have crafted any more beautiful moment.
There were so many different paths I could have traveled
in order to arrive at this most wonderful paradise,
but I look behind me and smile at the road I have taken.
For this exact path,
is what brought me to the wonderful perfection
that has come into reality.
There were so many different events that may have come into being from my own mind and heart,
but what has come to me is more beautiful than a full moment.
Its briefness is what makes it so dazzling.
That fleeting moment of extraordinary and wonderful.
It was the glimpse of flawlessness that my heart needed to fall.
It was subtle and soft, such as a wilting blossom just touched by the morning dew,
still tender and fragile,
but still a beauty in its own form.
There was perfection.
There was paradise.
It was that moment,
and that moment is ours.
On a constant repeat in my mind,
never wanting this feeling of wonder to ever fade.
Although the moment was brief,
I was awake and aware.
Ready to cling on the the perfection
that I knew
would only last an instant.
I wonder if it was perhaps,
as lovely as I have imagined it to be.
But perhaps it’s better to perceive the amazement where there doesn’t call for any,
than to have never felt it at all.
This exquisiteness is a gift,
either from the God of Love
or the God of Fools,
or even perhaps, the God of Hope.
Whichever you pick,
I keep it locked away in my heart.
Safe from the torment of the conscious mind and the world of doubt.
It remains there,
as a light shining for me to feel,
for all to see.
That will be mine, forever.
That one instant
When I made you blush with my words
When I got you nervous with my look
That one sweet hug in the street
That one tender peck in my cheek
That should be enough to fill all my longing
Enough to fill many lifetimes with joy
But my greedy heart is never satisfied
Can never have enough of you
And wants to extend those instants for ever
So those memories and delusions of what could have been haunt me
And afflict this hungry heart
Because all it wants is you
Have you ever fallen in love for an instant?
For just a moment,
all you want is that person.
For an instant,
everything is frozen.
Then all in the same moment
it all changes back
and life hits you hard
and that person never crosses your mind again
but in the back of your mind
you will always remember that love you had
just for that short second.
and in that instant
the clouds cleared
and all that was there
was the deep sea of your eyes
and the richness of your voice
silently pushing us together
with nothing but sweet harmony
holding us in place
the flames burned around
soaking us in its radiance
then all of a sudden
i felt the rain once again
In that instant, I saw
You walking out my door
One mistake does it all
I didn't think it mattered
But your words shows that you're shattered
That day when i saw you
Your back towards me
I wished we talked things through
But then, I was mad myself
What was i suppose to do?
If i could tell you right now
How i miss your company
Those stupid jokes we used to do
Of cinemas and food
it was all about me & you
I know you won't read this
-but i'm still gonna give it a try
In hopes that you realize
I'm sorry that I lied
Telephoto or prime
Bokeh or crisp and clear
I can't find the right lens
To capture your beauty,
Sunlight or flash
Moonlight or twilight
I can't find the right illumination
To capture your soul,
Film or digital
Polaroid or canvas
I can't find the way
To present you
To the world
Perfection in my eyes
To your exterior,
Pen to paper
Chisel to stone
I can't find the way
To say permanently
All that you mean to me,
From that second of splendor
The first instant we met
To the ever present current
Sweeping us apart and together
Distant and close
But I'm holding out
For the days we'll journey
Rhythmic steps side by side
In the sand again...
APAD13 - 069 © okpoet
And as we part
Has time ever stopped
As when two arms extended
With finger tips touching
In the instant
Of a lifetime
That will forever be remembered
More than the love making
Because in the sorrow of parting
The longing in our eyes
Is felt deeper
Than any touch
For the moment
That I step out the window
As never before
And never again
Here is a way
to instant relative nirvana -
if you're comfortable,
if you're satisfied,
if life is satisfactory,
if the answer is yes,
obviously you are awake
obviously you are free
(even if you are in jail
your body/mind is free)
here in the moment
look at what's in front of you -
(if you want to perceive
the nirvana element,
ask the seer
The constant mental banter
Back and forth yes or no
Do I disappoint my love
For a moment of instant gratification?
Do I throw away recovery
Three solid months
Itchy skin and hateful thoughts
For a moment of instant gratification?
And I'm so full of regret
Because it wasn't worth it
And I hurt my best friend
For a moment of instant gratification
A moment of instant gratification
That wasn't even gratifying
Wasn't in the slightest, satisfying
Harboring a moment of regret
For something he won't forget
But I tried in vain to justify
The actions I couldn't dignify
Words that trickled like thorns
Oh how I wish I waited a minute more
And not let their whispers win
Screams rather, as they crawl in
They soothed their shrieks
And gently brushed my cheeks
And convinced me it didn't count
If it didn't bleed on my account
But he held my close and said it did
I can't swallow it, but it's true, I backslid
"But it didn't leave any marks to show"
My mind screams and my heart does echo
"I didn't bleed in the slightest my dear"
Disappointing him is a biggest fear
As immaturity grasps at my soul
I have to accept my repercussions in whole
Three months down the drain
And causing my best friend pain
Not a scar to show for what I've done
But away from me, he'll never run..
But if I'm being honest that last chunk is really cool and written well in my opinion.
I'm so sorry love.. I'm sorry my sky..