Apr 24

I've never had a sex dream in my life.
Don’t get me wrong, I've looked at guys
and girls
and thought wow, they’re attractive
but at night when I’m alone and thinking about life
and television and grocery shopping
I can never make it past kissing in my dreams

I’ve never touched a penis.
My life goal is to never have to.
Same goes for vaginas
I have no desire to have sex with anyone.

A year ago I realized there was a word for that.
I practice saying it in the mirror
“I am asexual” I repeat
over and over
and over
but it still doesn't feel right on my tongue

I know who, and what I am.
But I can never get the words to come out right.
I told my mom that I don’t want to have sex with anyone and she told me
I would have a very unhappy husband if I wouldn't sleep with him every night
I wanted to tell her it might not be a husband, but a wife

the same principle applies, though, right?
why would I want a relationship with someone I won’t fuck?
or a better question
why would someone want a relationship with me?

I’ve never been able to describe what i want in a way that doesn't sound

john and Sherlock is the first example that comes to mind.

I say those words and immediately you think
she reads too much fan fiction
she’s confusing fantasy with reality
no one wants to live like that

you’re probably right.

but that’s what I want.
I want someone to sleep in the same bed with and wake up with clothes on
I want to wake up a little early to make them coffee before they go to work
I want to take a shower while they pee and have conversations about the groceries
I want. I want. I want.

I know John and Sherlock don’t actually sleep in the same bed.
But they take care of each other so well they might as well, it wouldn't change anything.

I hear these relationships are possible
I hope they are
But until then, I wait
and search

2nd one I wrote in the middle of the night.
#christian   #lgbt   #asexual   #lgbtqa  
Mar 20

driven and driving
to penetrate your darkness
to explore your depth

Dec 19, 2013

Being attracted to no one
Having no sex drive
They say it can stem
From confusion
Who do I want
A boy
Or a girl
Or both
I don't know
But I just wish
I could have sex
The mental blocks
They hold me back
And I'm just here
By myself

Someone so selfish tried to argue with me about my feelings and who I'm attracted to. Thought they knew everything about what's inside of my heart and my mind. Seriously irked me. I just wrote this quickly.

© Peyton 2013

Yes, you're beautiful. No, I don't want a sexual relationship.

© January 17th, 2014 by Timothy Brown. All rights reserved.
Jade Ellen Peel
Jade Ellen Peel
Dec 6, 2013

I speak to you of love
and you  speak back to me,
With abject apathy
and a lack of drive,
about the ease
of asexuality;
a thing to romanticise.

You are purer than I,
Perfectly preserved;
A special sort of specimen
Untouched by any human,
Safe like this with only friends
To confide in.

None of the aggravation
Of fucking.
No women, no men

Oh dear lets not pretend
That you are just
The fairytale
(as of yet un-penned)
'The girl who could not love,
That's it, go home
The end.'

Your dead appetite
I see is simply a disguise.
Each night you gorge
on gorgeous lies.

Quite the oxymoron,
Twixt joy and pain you cry,
Into the lines of another book
( Is it lovelier than I ?)

The lines blur,
the words are lost,
The world has passed you by.

Alexandra Burwood
Alexandra Burwood
May 18      May 18

We are all touch but no desire
For in each other's arms
We are blissful
With no wish, no requirement
To take it further.
We make love without making love
My base lusts sated
In the caress of your long limbs
Your hair soft in my fingers
Lips brushing cheeks and hands
And we entwine in each other
At home in the scent of warm skin.
A deeper love than I ever knew
We are inside of each other
Without secrets or falsehoods
Our souls naked
To our perceptive eyes.
We are utterly beautiful
In our private universe
Born of night and long drives
And words.

An ode to an asexual love affair
#love   #night   #asexual  
MS Lynch
MS Lynch
Jun 20, 2013

One day you’re going to find someone
Who treats you like a rose found in the snow,
Who treats you like you’re the only place they will ever want to go.
They will always be there to lullaby you to Dreamland.
When you cry they’ll pick you up and slow-dance you back to smiles.
When you tell them of your dreams, they’ll chase after them for miles.
And they will build a nest for you inside their heart.
One day you’ll find them, and you can’t help but wonder, who?
Well, maybe, today that person is you.

Apr 17

A songbird on a fence sings softly to herself
People pass by and say it's sad
That something so beautiful
Should have to be so lonely
Don't they know
That she has never been happier alone?

happiness does not have to be about loving someone
#life   #happy   #beauty   #ace   #asexual   #aromantic  
Ellyn k Thaiden


And many more
Labels racing through
My head
I can't even think straight
Or let alone be straight

I once thought pansexual
But I don't prefer physical interaction
Maybe bisexual?
But I like anyone and

I've gotten off
I just don't prefer to
Shutting myself off
Is something I can do

Female and male stereo types
But I fit neither one
Sometimes I'm more of a man
Than my brothers could ever be
And sometimes I am more girly

All these labels
And I'm so confused
Does anyone really know?
Maybe I don't fit
Any labels

Maybe I'm just

#confused   #gay   #labels   #what   #lesbian   #lgtb   #asexual  

I'm not attracted to people. Never have, never will. See I might get aroused; it's like my body is rejecting my decision it doesn't care it acts on it's own, but I'm fine with platonic relations. We don't gotta touch just cuddle and kiss and I'd be more than fine, but I'm a pleaser so ill subject myself to such acts, In accordance to their needs.
Sex doesn't come to mind when out on dates unless it's been made clear that sexual activity will be in place. When sex comes to mind all I can think is "wtf ugh no" The only intercourse in my life comes from my partners needs. I'm their bf I'm supposed to cater to them. I don't mind it but I also don't like it.

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