How can you not see? Hello?
I am right here.
I feel like I have to scream for you to hear,
I could stand in front of you with a sign saying I love you and you wouldn't see.
You wouldn't see the hopelessness inside of me.
Hoplessly exhausting myself
Trying to be something special
hopelessly fixing myself
Daydreaming of being called beautiful
while I cant spot a beautiful
Thing about myself
Hopelessly sitting in a room
full of people
Staring at each and every person
Desiring for someone to speak to me
secretly wishing I wasn't so invisible
Hoplessly reminding myself
soon this will end
and life will go on.
hopelessness is a fish gasping in oxygen
I take in the air but I refuse to call this
breathing and I refuse to call it dying.
I call this a desert; an eternity missing
the shoreline, missing the ocean wave
tango before leaving with the moon. I
refuse to call it foolish to hope I can be
more than a carousel ride of mistakes,
a revolving door of regrets. "I am more
I am more" I whisper to the moon.
Hopelessness is losing all your senses
and believing in love, or music, belie-
ving you can dance with the shoreline
one more time even with the saltwater
in your lungs, even with the ocean
waves pulling you back because
"I am more, I am more" the moon whispers, and
you believe him.
My friends !
Facing the beast -- the beast stared back
Facing the mad days
It HAS COME TO THIS
It has come to a few sad remnant human beings
The puffed up
Ideology of fearlessness
Facing the GODLESS god
With tattoos or painted bodies
Yeah we ain't gonna lose
We done lost already!
Facing the beast the beast stared back
To end on a note of hopefulness?
Would be the most hopeless thing to do