"Look up, meteors!"
Closed eyes, one wished
Heads lifted,twinkles falling
Slowly in the mid-night sky, there…
One’s mind which predicted,
Scene so vivid, noticed untimely.
Never it is, that eyes would see
sparkles of light above the seas
Who yelled? gratitude given
Without such, truth is hidden
"Now look!" and twice you did.
(Never a freewill, or is?), “Look!”
One wished, someone yelled
It’s never one that did…
In light years they were burning
But here, it is smoothing
All is none, if no one said
Wishing well would never spell
Go back in time, now reflect
if stars do fall, when and where?
loves me but it hurts
fucking fuck FUCKER sits on my couch//on my feet—
toes gently tucked under his jeaned thigh.s.—
tells me he loves me.
love is not a mistake but mistakes are made up of love.
tiny hearted patchworks attempting domination//
makes a home out of my arms.
tears falling down me him my his face.s.
stretches me open like bubble gum /little princess/brat/toy.
fantasies in our heads. little secrets. sweet taste from his lips.
opens up my mouth. stretches it wide. pushes his fingers through. as if the inside of my gums held the secrets he has been trying to reach in my head. pushes them far back. almost gag. mine mine be mine be mine mine mine be mine. i hear it. he keeps quiet but i hear it. silent pleas.
wild. sweet daddy darling. wild. i am wild. i belong to no one.
fuck me/take me/own me for a little while. fulfill those needs. sate yourself and me.
i am no product to be placed on a shelf.
whispers it in my ear in between faces staring.
hearing it makes it more real. analysis. how many fingers was that? how did your tongue do that? can you do it again? can i try?
why.?. do you love me. why.?.
this will be better for you i will not call text contact you
why are you crying
no i don’t want this stay
you don’t love me just the idea
no stay please i need you you make me happier than i have been in so long
this is bullshit
this is bullshit
You love the look, the electricity, desire my lightning
But you hate the thunder
I'll admit it can be frightening
When my mind burst asunder
Heart chakra tightening
You are the sun and i am the storm
But we need each other and you keep me warm
I told you I'd have you, running for the hills
The pain i would cause, along with the thrills
I'm an ass hole, completely undeserving
Unstable eccentric unpredictable swerving
Astounded that you will even have me in your presence
Like water for my soul, drown me in your essence
Your magic instills such a skillful resistance
To all of my depression and its relentless persistence
Quiet my heart, heavy and abrasive pounds
I just want to listen to music with you revel in the strange sounds
You help me walk in a world i forgot i could
Challenge what i do and remind me what i should
My sun in the sky my shaman, who re-introduced myself to me
My light tower in the distance when I'm lost at sea
Ill be yours if you'll be mine
Souls enmesh, utterly divine
Im needy attached possessive and insane
But i swear the love i can give is worth the pain
And my biggest problem is i dont respect your ways
I dont like who I've become in your eyes
Your own creation an abomination.
I'm rid of that sickened mentality
the one where your pasification is the holy grail.
I dont live there in that place anymore
and i dont think you know the way to come with me.
I tread the clouds while you tread thier messes.
I cant rescue you any more.
I need to save whats left of me before I disappear
You never had it in your hands to make me happy
I'm a joker you're a self proclaimed king.
I've been hung in the firing line too often by your sights.
Time to be me,
and if you cant love me its ok
I've never respected your version of love anyway.