pull my lighter out
and smoke me
and put you at ease
watch my water melt
that's what i thought i smelt
now hit me
get that high
you get me?
i'm saying what i mean
it gets harder every time
but this is how we get along
now hit me.
A little essence of vanilla
Beauty that brought men to their knees,
Fury like cold rain.
The thunderstorm rages on.
Born in the break of dawn,
Raised by the snow.
Beware, warned the dwarf men.
Beware, screamed the wind.
Beware, sang the stars and moon, she preys on warmth.
Beware of frozen hearts.
I open up to you
My Deepest and Darkest thoughts
Gloom was my mind in the thick mist of depression
Awaken was the beast of endless tears
The sorrow of always living in fear
Having an open heart
Subsumes the probability of a broken Soul
Pieces shatter of ice so thin
So cold it makes the flesh
As it travels within the cracks of the pulsating muscle
So red and pure
Lively and pulsing
Transiting life in the form of little oval hopes
Peaceful as they move in motion
Rhythm as they move with stride
Knowing they are keeping the body alive
The cold turns blue
Blue is the gloom
Blue is my favorite color
The blue of cold Souls freezing what is giving me life
The blue freezes
Motionless is my body
Silent is my heart
Can you hear it?
No longer is it alive
Yet I am still breathing
My eyes fixated at a wall that has been torn
Trust has won the war to break these walls
And now deception reigns through my veins
Black as death as it poisons my skin
Revealing to the outer world a broken-hearted fool
You complete moron
I look for comfort only to realize I am alone
Alone in a world where so much care about you?
How is that possible?
When the one you care about the most
Is not there
Does not hear you calling
Does not feel your pain
And darkness rises
And my life
Is now an everlasting crisis
Entering my house, I release a sigh of relief -happy to be home. Only, as I exhale, a billowing wisp of white departs my lips; as if I had somehow absorbed the Winter outside, leaving me arctic.
I sometimes long for that,
for a coldness inside,
a perfectly icy stillness -a chill that would numb
all of the bad feelings,
and freeze all of the bad thoughts.
I want to be welded to you like the tongue of a curious child freezes to a poll when it's below zero outside.