נσѕιєєє
נσѕιєєє
Nov 20      Nov 22

They come in waves.
Kamikaze planes or
lovely flowers and sweet lullabies.
Blood boils,
slapping against my skin,
Sometimes.
My love is seasonal,
It won't stay.
Don't expect anything from me.
You will be bitterly disappointed.

I've been super bipolar lately. I'm sorry to all of my friends.

I am happy.

Your moist palm on my face and your soft lips pressed up against mine. You are my sanity. You are my safehaven. You are safe and good and I am not.

I am broken.

Do not touch me. I am poison and you are good. You are strong and I am weak. Turn down the voices in my fucking head. They are smothering me and I need to get out. You are safe. Why are the demons in my head again?

I am scared.

You are going to leave. A sad, lonely thing like me does not deserve the twinkle of your eyes or the way your smile is crooked to your left. I do not deserve your arms and I do not deserve your tears.

I am a monster.

Do not tell me I am fucking beautiful when I am not. Do not tell me my figure is perfect when I have tried so fucking hard to hack it off. Do not tell me you love me because I am fucking poison and you are so beautifully pure.

I am dead inside.

How can I die without it being permanent?  How can I stop feeling yet still wake up to your face resting on your pillow.

I am uncontrollable.

I am drowning.

#love   #sad   #depression   #bipolar  
Living Bipolar
Autumn Ann

I'm happy one minute
And then you flip
And so do I

One minute I'm in love
And rightly so
But then you decide to speak

You like to take anything
That brings us joy
And crush it

Well, we won't pretend anymore
You've lost now
It's all over now

We're aren't under your control
You're just going to lose us
But we belong here

And so I'll fight for them
Against you
And do what I know to do

So while you flip and flop
Change your emotions
I'll be emotionless

Because none of us can stand it
Any longer with you
Living Bipolar

#you   #bipolar   #damn  
The word bipolar can put fear in your heart
louis rams
louis rams
Oct 30      Oct 31

The word bipolar can put fear in your heart
Because you’ll never know when it will start.
Also known as manic depression and it can become
A lifelong obsession.
Wondering when the next bout of fear will enter you
And if you know just what to do.
It is like the devil trying to take your soul
And it becomes a battle of control.
Most times in order for you to live
You must take the meds that they give.
If your child is bipolar or autistic, will you love them any less?
I don’t think so is my guess!
The LORD puts a child where he / she belongs
With a person he knows is strong.
The strength of the parents helps them to cope
With the problems old and new, and that is
Something that they do.
Let us be a little realistic, not many crimes
Are committed by bipolar or autistic
So how can they use words like crazy, retarted or handicapped
When against us the cards are stacked,
When this becomes a challenge close to home
Remember that you’re not alone.

#love   #strength   #bipolar  

There's a demon in my head and it's finally figured out how to turn my skin transparent and show itself. It escapes through the blank stares in my eyes and as much as I try I can't stop it from venting through my teeth with whatever air is left in my lungs. It's slowly killing me and making my blood toxic.

#poem   #anxiety   #toxic   #bipolar   #mood  
A bipolar mess
Jackeline Chacon
Jackeline Chacon
Aug 9      Aug 10

Because of you
I fall in stress

My life turns in
A bipolar mess

I smile in the sun
I drench in the rain

I'm happy a minute
The next i'm insane

You are my sun
You are my rain

In love in a minute
The next i'm in pain

Erenn Y
Erenn Y
Oct 9      Oct 10

The mind has its boundaries
Taking every life to its pasture
You often deny your existence is valid
Drained to flout all the people-
That tried to alleviate your worst outcome
You can’t foresee what’s imminent
Yet your past hinders you to move forward

Motions of the night sky
Appeases you within
The stars glinting like they know you exist
Taking every setback that you had
Full of misery & regret
You fathom what if you didn't live
It doesn't make any difference
To be conceived into eminence or filth

The fear of disappointment escalates
Disappointing your loved ones resents you
You concealed every skin of-
Impetus that espoused
Knowing you could be
Abundantly stronger than this
Yet fluctuation compels you
To cower in distress  

'Why can't I be normal?'
You questioned this in your head everyday
Fragments that made you elated dissipates-
Every time you tried to defeat yourself
Falling again & again

You’re afraid of losing your conscience-
Into the abyss that kept drawing you in
You conjure up notions of ingenuity
Just to rupture it repetitively

Is this who you really are?
Is this what you really wanted?
To infinitely hate yourself?

You are better than this
I know it's not easy.
But, go out! It's not easy overcoming the enemy.
When the enemy is you. I get it. But this life, the life you're breathing has so much more to give. You have so much love to give. Let the hate out.
Be free. Don't let it end you,
knowing you're better than this.
(I repost this cause I think it deserves the recognition to spread the message that i wanna bring out)
#love   #suicide   #depression   #life   #hate   #pain   #past   #you   #suffering   #bipolar  
Zoe
Zoe
Jul 3      Jul 3

Staring at the wall
thinking,
trying,
whining.

I want to write something
words that don’t collide
and never explode
not too lethal.

But I can’t
my head is not working,
empty,
lifeless.

Blank sheet of paper,
dried ink,
slow heart beat,
sweaty hands.

I have no inspiration
but I want to write.
I don’t know what to do,
fuck I want to cry.

I don’t know
if I am crazy,
or desperate,
or useless.

#love   #poem   #poetry   #sad   #depression   #life   #pain   #thoughts   #bipolar  
Gabrielle
Gabrielle
Nov 22

I hate you
But tomorrow
You'll make me love you.

#love   #hate   #relationships   #10w   #bipolar  
 
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