נσѕιєєє
נσѕιєєє
Nov 20, 2014      Nov 22, 2014

They come in waves.
Kamikaze planes or
lovely flowers and sweet lullabies.
Blood boils,
slapping against my skin,
Sometimes.
My love is seasonal,
It won't stay.
Don't expect anything from me.
You will be bitterly disappointed.

I've been super bipolar lately. I'm sorry to all of my friends.
Alice-Fay
Alice-Fay
Dec 2, 2014

I am happy.

Your moist palm on my face and your soft lips pressed up against mine. You are my sanity. You are my safehaven. You are safe and good and I am not.

I am broken.

Do not touch me. I am poison and you are good. You are strong and I am weak. Turn down the voices in my fucking head. They are smothering me and I need to get out. You are safe. Why are the demons in my head again?

I am scared.

You are going to leave. A sad, lonely thing like me does not deserve the twinkle of your eyes or the way your smile is crooked to your left. I do not deserve your arms and I do not deserve your tears.

I am a monster.

Do not tell me I am fucking beautiful when I am not. Do not tell me my figure is perfect when I have tried so fucking hard to hack it off. Do not tell me you love me because I am fucking poison and you are so beautifully pure.

I am dead inside.

How can I die without it being permanent?  How can I stop feeling yet still wake up to your face resting on your pillow.

I am uncontrollable.

I am drowning.

#love   #sad   #depression   #bipolar  
Living Bipolar
Autumn Ann
Autumn Ann
Apr 7, 2014

I'm happy one minute
And then you flip
And so do I

One minute I'm in love
And rightly so
But then you decide to speak

You like to take anything
That brings us joy
And crush it

Well, we won't pretend anymore
You've lost now
It's all over now

We aren't under your control
You're just going to lose us
But we belong here

And so I'll fight for them
Against you
And do what I know to do

So while you flip and flop
Change your emotions
I'll be emotionless

Because none of us can stand it
Any longer with you
Living Bipolar

#you   #bipolar   #damn  
The word bipolar can put fear in your heart
louis rams
louis rams
Oct 30, 2014      Oct 31, 2014

The word bipolar can put fear in your heart
Because you’ll never know when it will start.
Also known as manic depression and it can become
A lifelong obsession.
Wondering when the next bout of fear will enter you
And if you know just what to do.
It is like the devil trying to take your soul
And it becomes a battle of control.
Most times in order for you to live
You must take the meds that they give.
If your child is bipolar or autistic, will you love them any less?
I don’t think so is my guess!
The LORD puts a child where he / she belongs
With a person he knows is strong.
The strength of the parents helps them to cope
With the problems old and new, and that is
Something that they do.
Let us be a little realistic, not many crimes
Are committed by bipolar or autistic
So how can they use words like crazy, retarted or handicapped
When against us the cards are stacked,
When this becomes a challenge close to home
Remember that you’re not alone.

#love   #strength   #bipolar  

Standing here
I stood my ground
floating
closer
than the distance

Further
than ‘ahead’ I saw
me
fighting for resistance

Fast
unmoving
– not alone –
with only me
I stayed

Fumbling
– screaming loud –
to hear it:

. . . silence . . .

yet I disobeyed

Cocooned in air and
muffled
by these fitful gulps
I dared not breathe I
marked out time
in vacant space
I owned – yet
not yet: not for me

Thinking hard
I cleared my mind
– illusioned, lost –
yet
memories traced

Would I
(should not) leave
I’d try

The where?
Just ‘some’
to
ANY place

© Tamara Natividad
www.pisceanesque.com
Written 30 October, 2007
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Take me down while standing tall
into shattered pieces fall
laughing now tears rush by
rolling down from this high
what is known, what is seen
wash this battered mind to clean
watch me smile here and past
rictus grins that will not last
knowing of the pain to come
colouring each and every moment fun
screaming now in joy or pain
always have they felt the same
only in this sea at dark
when light is gone and hope depart
there i find that fateful step
to take me up the slope so swept
then i smile, i laugh once more
offer myself as emotions whore
though in that moment of breathlessness
where i don't have to face this test
there is a hope that i'll just stop
no more struggle to that top
dear ocean then, call my soul
let me pretend that i am whole
for i would swim the waters again
please, let me swim the waters again.

#life   #death   #hope   #false   #bipolar  
Cassidy Shoop
Cassidy Shoop
Nov 22, 2014

There's a demon in my head and it's finally figured out how to turn my skin transparent and show itself. It escapes through the blank stares in my eyes and as much as I try I can't stop it from venting through my teeth with whatever air is left in my lungs. It's slowly killing me and making my blood toxic.

#poem   #anxiety   #toxic   #bipolar   #mood  
A bipolar mess
Jackeline Chacon
Jackeline Chacon
Aug 9, 2014      Aug 10, 2014

Because of you
I fall in stress

My life turns in
A bipolar mess

I smile in the sun
I drench in the rain

I'm happy a minute
The next i'm insane

You are my sun
You are my rain

In love in a minute
The next i'm in pain

Steven
Steven
2 days ago

loving you is like looking up at the night sky
Staring into the darkness but seeing the beautiful glow of the stars
Like the darkness of the water but seeing the reflection of the sunset
Like the tides pulling in and pushing away at the sand
Loving your darkness is part of loving you
I know the clouds will cover the night sky,
But I know ill see the beautiful glow of the stars again

Zoe
Zoe
Jul 3, 2014      Jul 3, 2014

Staring at the wall
thinking,
trying,
whining.

I want to write something
words that don’t collide
and never explode
not too lethal.

But I can’t
my head is not working,
empty,
lifeless.

Blank sheet of paper,
dried ink,
slow heart beat,
sweaty hands.

I have no inspiration
but I want to write.
I don’t know what to do,
fuck I want to cry.

I don’t know
if I am crazy,
or desperate,
or useless.

#love   #poem   #poetry   #sad   #depression   #life   #pain   #thoughts   #bipolar  
 
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