It completely exhilarates
From my chest
Like a secret art.
Before I know it
Nothing left disclosed,
Nothing left to hide
And then you
Roll away, like the tide
Leaving me ashore
With nothing more
Than an empty
As I stand there
you drift away
To another land
Where another girl
Will just as easily
Give you her hand,
That she'll never withstand
Your ever rolling tides.
And that she'll never be able
To get rid of the pain that subsides
Once you've stripped her
Down like you did I.
But I don't have a heart
To even really feel this goodbye.
Always hold onto the truth,
Don't let other sway your heart.
Don't compramise yourself,
For the sake of temporial grooviness.
Be deeply funky,
Be seperate from the crowd.
Thats awashed with normality,
By standing on a firm foundation.
Never waiver your love of faith,
In all that you do.
I know that you're out there
I'm still searching for you
lets escape this nightmare
of a constant pursuit
I just want a fair share
in something that is true
This roads going nowhere
I need you to pass through
Dont have the time
I will not try
I must deny
a mediocre love
I will not try
I must deny
Dont have the time
for an ordinary love
She is more than the world will give her credit for simply because it has believed it's overcome her
Taking out the odds and making them even but she's an oddity that I believe in
See her as she flies her song onto yonder tightrope, balancing every note on thin wire
A girl who find life's a three ring thing filled with children, so you might as well have fun as you interact
She is something of a wild thing that can't be tamed and a thing whose name I can't seem to think of
A wonder in herself by a God who just said "What the heck" and made an angel with technicolor wings
Hear each letter as it falls upon the silver page and scribbled in bronze inside her golden notebook
The silent river that runs deep careening into life and love, roaring at the end into the sea
She is someone who deserves the very best of things, though worst may come, she never lets you down
Thinking of most thoughts that go unthunk by highly trained thinkers, thanking the people in her mind
Know she sees you passing by and winks with a glance, a chance you'll get before she passes by
Wandering to find something which she may not be looking for, a truth inside a door which is key
She is not one who will cry over the simplest of things, but when she cries, her eyes unleash a storm
So she may be the reason raindrops are falling on my head from a leaking ceiling in my cabin warm
Feel each heartbeat as it generates a moment when a silver tear may escape her soul's window
She is no ordinary girl who wears her heart on her sleeve, but buries it in hopes something may grow
Delusional, paranoid state
Focus, stare, clear the mind
Was she really there?
Were her hands cold and dark?
Reality becomes irrelevant
You are alone
Your fears prevail
Gape into the darkness
Cleanse your cluttered mind
Are you okay?
the day races to extinction
and as the shadows dominate
the last few warm rays
become lambent on the abnormal insight
that has grown within me as
the day has grown long
she had no face
she had no presence in the air
no name or written word to leave behind
yet here she is
a mere ghost image between the dark sheets
of the rainstorm
as she has for may years
just watching silently
the scratching noises of the pen in my hand
replaces the wind-song of summer day with harsh tones
yet it brings my thoughts to distant woodland lake
that was my escape from the years that i spent in the
company of the lesser misbegotten
that lake and the my time there
was unchanged and seems remote in my vision
from the turmoil of my winterbound soul
plundering my forward motion for the energy to cope
with the passing thoughts like carnivals of flesh
obscene visions of naked truth
unrestrained by years of devoted hiding
i am unable to grasp any other path
than to become like her
a shadow obscured in the
in the rainstorm
a fleeting vision
in the passing hours
On my way home today I fell through time
I must have slipped on a theoretical banana peel
During my fall I watched the clocks unwind
Or perhaps it was life, just unconcealed
But that raises the question of what is real
Though hazardous content once you break the seal
I prefer my life with a touch of surreal
you're the something i cant escape.
you're the secret that doesn't relate.
but a few know of you and your strength.
and how you tear me apart day by day.
keeping you hidden gives you more power.
because in darkness you can devour.
everything that i am and are
you are what is causing the scars.
some may say your quite normal.
though you are what makes me abnormal.
i know now i need to take the next step
to save me from this depth.
you are my ANXIETY
everything that surrounds me.
stop making me worry
about things that aren't worthy.