I saw the light in your eyes start to fade as
we spent more and more time
I felt your touch grow colder
passing kiss and worst of all
the butterflies in my gut that
once flittered for you started to swarm--
choking me from the inside out
because I just don't have the
to hear you say my name so
You have a leaf on your shoe,
I bet that was noticeable for you
By the time you got to my house I had the flu
Stuck in bed,
I have to fix what's inside my head
You're so nice to be around,
You make me forget my stomach hurts
Normally I would vomit at the sight of anybody else,
But I guess that's just because you're afraid of vomit,
When people are much more terrifying
"Whenever you're stressed,
you internalize it to your gut"
my doctor told me.
My mother always said:
"You feel everything in your stomach."
And it all makes sense now,
How I got knots and twists,
when you said goodbye.
And how I got nauseous,
when I saw you holding her hand.
But if that's true,
why does my chest hurt so much?
do you know the feeling
the twisted tremors
the slippery shivers
that linger in the
pit of your stomach
the feeling that something is wrong
the feeling that you
are left out
when you did nothing
and it seems that maybe
if given the chance
you could've done something
but the feeling in the pit of your stomach
only serves to remind you
of time wasted
I'll flash a smile, they wont notice its fake.
I'll force myself its fine, because i dont wanna gain.
I will do whatever it takes
Stop, not again.
Im going to control myself, for Pete's sake.
I know im insane
But you cant stop me, never again.
Because by feeling such PAINS and ACHES
Makes me stronger, and Im strong enough to handle this.
I am not the slave of my body.
My stomach is filled with molten things, but I will be able to feel more love than you ever will. Inside my stomach and throat pipes the hate remains incompletely digested. Our bodies cannot digest our own blood.
There happens to be silt film foaming on top like the fate of a desecrated porcelain sink, a vessel that ceases to be drained. This vessel will always be able to feel more pain than you ever will. The depth of feeling is all that there can be.