Glance behind you,
What you may see may disturb you.
What you once were
isn't what you are now.
It's not the physical appearance; the way you dress
Not the tone of your voice,
the change in your character –
But the change in your demeanor
You've developed from a carefree soul
to a figure you never imagine yourself being
The lines on your face,
developed from years of hardship;
days in which you endured, prevailed
fell back down, got back up again
Weeks in which you worked day to day,
Just to make ends meet. Months in which
You struggled to keep up on your feet.
Your past self imagined this would be
The equivalent of a cold, dark world.
In every way, you see it's worth it.
Worth each waking morning.
This may not be what you wished for
When you were younger...
...It's all a part of living life.
We eat, we drink, we live, we die.
Pay our debts in order to survive.
We have to live through hardships,
In order to make it throughout life.
I got 99 problems and a bitch ain't one
That term is so disgusting I wouldn't label you as one
So Jay-z can keep making them songs
just know them big lips won't get respect for long
I go to the gym , so I really hope this works out
this spark , can grow and Won't burn out
You ain't the ordinary bird you can't move south
What happens to me though?
like a time bomb, I'll blow
like I will becomes red emotion traffic builds and you can't go
the talk about the other side where the grass is green
I cant climb over with the defences blocking me
It's like my heart is locked
and you can't find the key
trying to find more fish , but you are not a fish but my sea
"This makes us stronger people,"
My mother always told me
With tears in her eyes
"God knows we need to
He is just giving us an opportunity
To make ourselves better."
And I sort of believe her.
Just a little bit.
Mainly I just think
That life likes to shit on us.
"Oh, your dad got a good job?
Nah, we can't have that.
Lets make it temporary.
This job will last 6 months."
This happens more often than not.
And it's crazy.
I don't know anyone else
Who has it like us.
And I'm not trying to say
That my problems are greater than yours
We all have hardships
They're all just different ones.
Some people have disabilities
Some people are suicidal
Some people abusive lovers, abusive fathers
No, I will not disregard these people
All I'm saying
Is I'm tired of this shit.
It gets real old
And it never seems to end.
We go through hardships and trials to build up our characters.
To make us stronger and to gain compassion for other people.
Christ uses hardships to build up love for those that hurt.
We love not despise, we pray healing for those whom hurt.
We love those that despise us and for those that hurt us.
For he is building his character in each of us that loves him.
For he is a God that loves his Creation which is everyone.
Not just the ones that chase after him , but everyone of us.
For he lets it rain on the just and the unjust as well .