I am in love with emotion and
The idea of feeling things like they are
A color of the sky
Or a sound in my headphones
Or the texture of my blankets.
I wrap myself in vinyl records to
Read a stranger's mind.
I share the twinkle of passion
In the eye of the dreamer.
I drown myself in yellow and grey and green and blue to
Taste a rainbow.
I bleed myself dry to
Lick the hearts of the dead.
I set fire to my nerves to
Take a ride on my adrenaline.
I would do anything to feel something
Even if it is all in my head.
I am desperate to find that sense of normality
I grasp for it
as if it is water
and I haven't had a drink for months.
I am desperate to find comfort in my life now
Rather than later
I am tired of waiting and feeling
as if I am an alien
in my own skin.
I am desperate to start living
I am stressed out
and tired of watching life
pass me by
as if I am invisible.
I ain't desperate
I am just reaching for the light
cus I haven't seen the sun in four whole years
and now it is glinting favorably
in a hole up above
I'm not desperate
just torn up inside
you see, the unicorns in my imagination
went on strike
and it ended in riots
the papers said so.
Fact is, there is a difference
between being desperate
I know for you this is queer
The words you are going to hear
I’ve never done this before
And I’m askin you not to close the door.
I got to let you know that I love you
Please don’t doubt it, it’s true.
I got to let you know I care,
And for you I’ll always be there.
I wanna give my love to you completely
Begging you to listen to me
I’m hoping to open up your eyes
To let you see my love is not a lie.
You made me weak beyond control
And I had you in my soul
I love you more than life itself
Be my man & I wouldn’t love anyone else.
Lost as my world comes crashing down
I fall down on my knees
As the pain slowly like a disease
Seeps into my heart
Slowly tearing it apart
Tears no longer able to hide
Come crashing down like hail
On a face I no longer knew.
Darkness gradually fills my heart
The emptiness creeps in my veins
Slowly numbing the pain
Love no longer exists
Hate becomes my life support
I close my eyes begging you for a sign
A glimpse of your light
A sense of your warmth
A taste of your peace
Anything please save me from myself
I can’t do this on my own anymore
I need you please just stay with me tonight.
I need my heels to be suspended overhead,
Someone to haunt my dreams, and hug me in my bed.
Let me go crazy for you, make me go cloudy-eyed,
For love ain’t deaf and it ain’t dumb, but it damn makes you blind.
I’m tired of the assholes, show me someone real,
Who’s magical inside and out and reminds me how to feel.
I am desperately trying to cling to life,
But I am running out of reason to do so.
I am desperately trying to reach the light,
But darkness is all I have to show.
This is your fault and mine as well,
Mine for letting you get the best of me.
But I will desperately try to fight to be free,
From the clutches that hold onto me tightly.