I’m trying to shed the memory of you
Not like a light jacket that you can just put on and take off as you please
As the weather changes,
But with all the effort of removing an exoskeleton;
It only comes with time.
I’m trying to shed the very skin that allowed me to love you and to
The scales on my spine reminding me that I have one,
And that I don’t have to be pushed into things
Who am I kidding.
I wasn’t pushed into anything.
I just believed the things I shouldn’t have
And distrusted the things I should.
If you ain't got perspective
And you ain't reactive
Then you aren't proactive
These words only have meaning
If you make them meaningful
should be a vice
Get your daily dosage
So in your old age
You can be part of the new age
The thoughts of many
Has wisdom uncanny
If you ain't ready
And you aren't steady
Then you lose yourself
To the crowd
It's my new job today
But I'm not here I'm away
Lost in thoughts
Where I am always distraught
Off I go to start my day
I need to make a good impression, I say
Be focused and sharp, proactive and smart
You can make a go of this, just play the part!
Life could be worse, people would say
No money, no job or a place to stay
Those are the most important things to some
But to me those things are immaterial
Peace of mind and happiness is key
Nothing or noone is more important than these!
When it comes to matters of the heart
it pays to be both wise and smart.
Be proactive and take care
of vulnerable hearts who take Love’s dare.
Perhaps a stress test would be smart
before old Cupid slings his dart.
Be sure your pulse is strong and steady
Not weak and racing and unready
Take Flax seed oil as a precaution,
before you dip into that Ocean
besides the undertow of emotion.
The mermaids that beset your dinghy
may tend to be a little clingy
The sea of love is cold, I’ve found
Tho oft I’ve floundered, I’ve never drowned
a mother’s motivational silence
speaks to a jesus
who at this point
has been alive
longer than he lived
I am of two beasts
when put in the mind
of my brain’s mirror
while doing the same thing
day in and day out
my father suffered
and naked women
it is childish
how much time
she thinks I have
to touch everything
in the store
to your proactive
this, is dying
Worthy of the devil's doing himself.
He is the shit of shit. Devastation & destruction.
Words can not calm, but razors edge.
No rewind for this train-wreck.
Damage done. Once the victim; now the proactive perpetrator.
Size smaller than small for what purpose.
Tears on her face proof of the callused tongue.
Without pushing, he is terror.
Heart in shambles, not to be pieced nor peaced.
Sitting back in silence is not enough. All is too far gone.
Forgiveness is only the option of a stronger man.
He is hate. Hate is he. Hate the hate, this fate was fate.
Walking away; is never to erase.
Damaged shell, damaged core, damaged spirit.
Her love; too good & pure for; & that of his own.
Though she was careless. He is a bastard.
explain to me the difference
between open and closed
negative and positive, for i am told
that it is negative to be closed
and yet being proactive, a positive person
i am shut down, and fine with it
i give in, and i open
some small window
every once in a while
somewhat drunk, under some influence
and i give in to the theory
that it will make me feel better to do so
so i do
and instead, i feel
that’s all i can say, as the breeze drifts through
the rift i have made
and the air is cold as it touches my veins
and i want to close the window again
but the glass is broken
and i will never be the same