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We are all weird some of us are just like in weirdness & thats what we call in todays society normal and those who chose to be weird are the originals
We are all weird some of us are just like in weirdness & thats what we call in todays society normal and those who chose to be weird are the originals
Taylor B
Taylor B
Feb 18

Im here but im not the same person
im not the same person you once knew
its so hard to keep pretending i'm still that person
shes gone long ago
it took me only twenty-four months to realize how fake you truly were
it was a waist of my time to actually think you were my friend
behind the fake laugh and smiles it was nothing
you never actually knew me anyway

Good things rarely happen to me
and when they do happen they just end badly
they come crashing down and all i have left are burn marks and cuts to remind myself
of another life mistake to never repeat once again
deep down, way down at the end of the abyss
Is where the spark of hope always tries to light itself it never gets a flame but hope is always there
its the hope that makes me so bitter when things end so badly

Taylor B
Taylor B
Nov 25, 2013

It’s okay to not be okay
Don’t hold back the tears because you’re afraid to feel weak  
Don’t be afraid to scream because someone might hear you

When they ask what’s wrong?
And you reply with “nothing”
You say nothing because you’re afraid to say what is really wrong
They ask again “are you sure?”
And you say “Yeah I'm just tired [or insert other excuse]”

Most can’t see it
Most don’t know what you’re going through
Most don’t know that they are just adding to your pain
That they are doing nothing good but in return making things much worse

Life can be so hard
People can be so hard
Everything is so hard

Every day I paint on a fake smile
I dress up to hide my pain on the inside
I pretend to be so many things to hide my agony
I laugh when deep down I'm ready to break down and scream

Getting up every day is a challenge
That’s why so many just drown out their sorrows
Or bury it beneath the layer of smoke
By sprinkling on distractions to help you forget your pain

Falling and hitting rock bottom is the foundation to start over

Taylor B
Taylor B
Nov 24, 2013

I have lived to see the beginning and the end of all things
I was there when there was not even an idea
I have lived to see it all
My face may not be the same person after all this time

I may be ever so old but this face is so young
Ever so young and earning for new adventures
New adventures with new people
Things that will make the old ones seem like they were nothing

I have lived so long that this face has forgotten things that the old faces have done
Forgotten things that shall never be remembered
They are things that I shall never want to remember
Because they put my good name to shame

Things I have done to my people
Things I cannot go back and change
And save
My friends and family and the people I have forever hurt

That is the burden I must live with
All by myself because everyone is lost
Lost because of my actions
But i will never forget that in the end all of me saved them

23, November 1963- 23, November 2013
Taylor B
Taylor B
Oct 20, 2013

Do you know how it feels to be empty on the inside
Do you know how it feels to be by yourself and alone
Bet you you don't know what it's like to wanna live another life above all else

I can't keep living like this anymore
All I wanna do is give up
I wanna be better now
I wanna be better all together
Please make me feel better
Can you even hear me
This is my cry for help

Do you know what it is like when your so down that you don't know what you could do next
Do you know how it feels when you have nothing to keep yourself going
Do you know how it feels to matter to no one

I can't keep living like this anymore
All I wanna do is give up
I wanna be better now
I wanna be better all together
Please make me feel better
Can you even hear me
This is my cry for help

This is me crying, shouting, and begging for help
Can you hear me or have you already forgotten about me
I wanna feel  better
I need to feel better
All I wanna do is give up
I can't keep living like this

I can't keep living like this anymore
All I wanna do is give up
I wanna be better now
I wanna be better all together
Please make me feel better
Can you even hear me
This is my cry for help

I'm not going to give up just yet...
Taylor B
Taylor B
Oct 19, 2013      Oct 20, 2013

Everyday is the same
I paint a smile on  face to hide my true pain
Maybe tomorrow I won't have to fake it anymore

It's been so long now that it's just become a habit
Day after day I feed myself lies in hope that they will come true
I say I'm fine but I'm not
I have not been for a long time

Darkness has over come me and I feel empty inside
What's there to be positive about?  
I can't even do good without something bad happening

I've stopped trying because what's the point
Nobody care about me
I'm all alone, everyone has left me to be

To be what?
I'm completely empty on the inside
Only a skeleton just barely making it through the day

My soul is gone I'm completely empty
My heart is all black, full of darkness and despair  
What more is there to life

Everyday is the same
I paint a smile on  face to hide my true pain
Maybe tomorrow I won't have to fake it anymore

When is tomorrow going  to come?
I can only say I'm fine so many times before
Before I break down and fall apart

Being alone with no one to care about me
About how I feel or what I do with my life
Because I don't matter to anyone anymore

They say it will get better
Don't get my hopes up because I know that's not true
I've gotten my hopes up too many times for them break down

Everyday is the same
I paint a smile on  face to hide my true pain
Maybe tomorrow I won't have to fake it anymore

Taylor B
Taylor B
Oct 10, 2013

It was a pitch black night
There was not a single light in my sight
As if i was alone and I was unknown
If i could only turn a switch and again feel the light

Taylor B
Taylor B
Sep 26, 2013

Happieness is to be everything at once
But how do you expect to find Happieness if you don't know what it feels like
How are you to find something when you don't know what your looking for

Happieness used to get getting out and spending time with friends
To be happy I only had to be myself
Happieness used to come so easy

Optimism used to be my way of life
I'd look forward to everything to only have it come crashing down on me
Pessimism is how I live now, I don't have to ex pect anything positive to happen and when something good dose happen its a bonus

Now a days to be happy nothing majorly bad has to happen

"Happieness is to be everything at once" quite by Hands like Houses-No Parallels
 
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