And I know so many things to be universal

I read somewhere once that we are all related to one another

to the tune of 50th cousins

That you just can’t go back that many generations

That there aren’t enough people left to give anyone their own grandparents

Or something

So intangible

I want to feel the connection between each two men

I believe we are all a woven blanket of fibrous soul

Aptly covered in fibrous meat

I want to believe that we all share more than ancestors, but I will settle for this

Decisions are like leaves of a tree
Some are good and others bother me
They are fed by the rains of emotion
And the winds of relations but them in motion
After a little, a couple will fall
But even after a while, a few remain of the all
The winds of relation might blow them away
None of those good or bad leaves will stay
But then again, they might regrow
How many good or bad, you will never know.

an overcrowded island surrounded by broken mouths,
glowing like a cigarette ****,
while i am the space that learns to move among white hair
when time whispers: -  feel how it spills on your skin
how it caresses you second by second
melts gelatinous wrinkles

I drink too much but it gives me the pleasure of intoxication,
One too many ramifications,
I smoke too much to stun my heart of its beat,
All to avoid the acceptance of defeat.

Problems are associated with you
It's hard to get through
Talking to myself, judging myself and hating myself
So alone without anyone's words of comfort, but oneself

I feel like I want to hurt those who have hurt me.
One too many reasons not to accept their plea
Smoke and mirrors everywhere
One too many reasons not to stay here.

Maybe it was just me who was obsessed with you all this time,
Or maybe i couldn't give you that attention that made your heart chime.

Maybe it was just me who craved to meet you every single day,
Or maybe my cravings were not enough to make your feet step my way.

Maybe it was just me who wanted to talk to you staying up all night,
Or maybe my talks were so useless that made you fall to sleep so tight.

Maybe it was just me who missed you so much,
Or maybe something was missing in me that made you stay not in touch.

Maybe it was just me who even adored your flaws,
Or maybe i couldn't express you how much i loved you after this all.

I would outrun the wind
to catch a glimpse of you;
                                      my Love.

I really don't know why i feel myself breaking everyday,
Maybe i did something wrong in past due to which i have to pay.

I really don't know why my heart have restricted to spread it's vein,
I guess it got hurt so much and don't wanna feel that pain again.

I really don't know why your actions still bothers me today,
Maybe it's the attachment that we created within a few days.

I really don't know why hearing your name still breaks my heart into two,
But trust me i have tried so many times to get over you.

I really don't know why i suddenly starts to hate you sometimes,
Maybe i feel so betrayed not reclaiming the time when we had laughter filled with wine.

I really don't know why i still hope that someday I'll hear your voice,
Not for too long but it will atleast make me smile for a little while.

I really don't know if you ever gonna read this someday,
But if you did, don't be sad
As it's the only way that let my heart down a little less weigh.

P.S.- I still adore you the same!