One and Only
One and Only
Oct 7, 2016

When you say "I love you"
Please say it to me
and not while looking somewhere or at someone else.
I don't have the guts to tell you and so
I live with my own consequences.
Have I ever told you that my body is no longer as important to me as before?
That getting sick and feeling pain is a way for me to know I live?
Have I ever told you how horrible I feel day after day?
That each hour passing by decreases people's love for me and I don't want that especially if your love for me as well decreases.
That each time I do not fulfill your request you'll love me less and less.
Angering you does nothing to help and so I am not to speak lest I disappear for long from this earth.

I don''t want to tell you. You might just laugh me off and okay I get embarrassed. I don't want to say anything
#love   #friends   #please   #no   #12   #rants  
One and Only
One and Only
Sep 4, 2016

Why is it sometimes relieving when I think of how I die?
My imagination places me in everyday situations and just dropping down dead. Then people would stop and stare or maybe just pass by?
Would people other than my family be affected?
Would my so-called friends even realize what hurt they'd put me through?
Would you even care?
Would you ever realize that sometimes you step on me and I allow you to because I'm scared?
Everyone is scary.
They all can break me apart
I want to die and just go away to a better place
I want a new life..
I want some of you in it but that will ever happen will it?

People would blame these rants on my period but NO okay? It doesn't mean that I'm on my period I change into some lying monster that just blurts out every whine she can. I wish people would understand sometimes.
#love   #hurt   #people   #emotions   #scary   #rants  
Odonko-ba
Odonko-ba
Aug 5, 2016

Wars
Pillage
Disease  
Religion
Money  
God      
Soul
Attrition
Governments
Environment
Man
Condemn
Hope
Space
Future
Question
Abortion
Children
Hunger
Apathy
Mortgage
Empathy
Judaism
Catholicism
Islam
Baptist
Banks
Greed
Gluttony
Foreclosure
Black
White
Division
Impasse
Blind
Death
Legions
Secret
Collaborate
Destruction
Abscond
Nigger
Fag
Honkey
Jew
Fat
Skinny
Tall
Short
Ignorance
Intolerance
Hope
Hate
Love
Death
Poverty
Wealth
Displacement
Abstract
Reality
Agony
Distrust
Temperament
Conglomerate
Drugs
Pharmaceutics
Capitalist
Socialist
Fascist
Conformity
World
Domination
Society
Downfall
Atrophy
Silent
Protest
Propagate
Murder
Life
Precious
Dream
Regress
Degenerate
Exfoliate
Human
Substance
Into
Nothing
Hell
On
Earth
Freedom  
A
Fucking
Mockery

#poetry   #freedom   #life   #society   #humanity   #poems   #rants   #myvoice  
Nameless Wonder
Nameless Wonder
Feb 2, 2016

Hey Brain,
Hi,
Umm,  would you mind switching off or something - not like dying, but take a break, you're overworking yourself with all this thinking.

You're the boss on top of the nervous system, so you should know that my body's aching,
So,
Do you mind,
Umm shutting the fuck up?!

I don't know when I'll stop thinking,
I don't like thinking... About these things,  they drive me nuts...
Nameless Wonder
Nameless Wonder
Feb 1, 2016

Oh Mr Sandman
Where the fuck are you?!
You little piece of shit!

I mean you ain't no fucking Santa.
There is no naughty or nice list.
You put your magical sand on little children's eyes -
All of them!

So why the fuck are my eyes still open?
You useless piece of pathetic fairytale crap!

Lol xD
Sorry for swearing :v (not really, I ain't fucking sorry :/ )
#lol   #insomnia   #sandman   #nameless   #rants  
Nameless Wonder
Nameless Wonder
Feb 1, 2016

Sleep, bless me with your presence.

Cover my eyes with some pixie dust,
Grant me the pleasure of a blissful dream.

Sleep, bless me with your presence.

It's alright if you won't come now,
Take your time,  leave me last on the list -
I'll be patient,  just make my heart rate slow down,my muscles to relax and my snore to disturb my dad.

Sleep, bless me with your presence.

It would be unfair of you to waste my time,
I mean I've been lying here for hours -
And I'm pretty sure that's the sun out there,
Slowly rising : declaring that you've abandoned me.

Sleep, bless me with your presence.

I'm too young to be an insomniac -
I'm too young!
I need sleep,
All the growing happens when I sleep.
Sleep can you pretty, pretty please bless with your presence?
Even if it's just for the last few minutes I have before my dad shakes my shoulders.

I'm starting a new thing, if I never get sleep, but erm, I think it's gotten better - maybe I just didn't like the hospital atmosphere :v
LemonB3
LemonB3
Dec 4, 2015

What they say: I'm more advanced in art than you. You shouldn't spend money on expensive Prismacolours if you're not interested in art. Don't do that. Does anyone have any suggestions? No, I have something better. Shut up I'm speaking. Why don't you listen to me. I can't. I don't like that podcast/show/book. I've seen it.You can't make jokes about that.
Don't be mad. Don't cry. It's not your fault.

What they're actually saying: You're not good enough. You shouldn't spend money on Prismacolours because I don't have them yet. You shouldn't spend money on Prismacolours because you aren't good enough for those. Does anyone have any suggestions? No, wait, does anyone have suggestions besides you. I don't want to hear what you're talking about, I want to talk. I don't want to. I don't like that podcast/show/book because you like. I'm not interested, I saw it before you, and it was better then. You can't make jokes because you aren't as caught up as me. Don't be mad at me. Don't cry because of me.
It's your fault.
What I want to say: I love art. I don't care what you say. I hate it when you think you're higher than me. I hate it when you don't want to hear me. I can make whatever joke I want. Ever heard of the Constitution? The Bill of Rights? I go by those. I use those. You can't take those away from me.
What I actually say: Ok

Sorry. It isn't really a poem. But if you think about it, all things can be poems. This is a rant, and I just needed to post it somewhere, plus I hadn't made a poem recently, so...yeah. Sorry it's a bit long :P
#sad   #help   #say   #ok   #mean   #rants   #whatwesay  
chris
chris
Sep 25, 2015

im curious.  im just curious to what it feels like.  im curious to what pain feels like.  im curious to what love feels like.  love is not always happy, sappy, romance.  but its also not always sad, depressing romance either.  its a mixture of both.  and i wonder and am curious to what it feels like to stumble upon love and wander through it like an adventure that is waiting to be discovered.  love that has not yet been identified.  love that hasnt been touched.  i am curious about love, despite the pain or stress that might catch or grasp me along the way.  i am curious about how to love someone.  how to share the connection as one might call it.  how to be loved.

chris
chris
Sep 25, 2015

i feel like I'm falling through the air, like I'm weightless, falling down, down
falling through a bottomless pit.  no one is there to catch me'
or stop me from falling. i just keep going down, down, down.
come to think of it, i had a dream like that yesterday.
my dreams are weird. i don't feel scared or anything
i feel free when i dream like I'm in another dimension, another world.  where i can be myself, and not follow rules.
i don't have to worry about people judging me.

#rants  
Storm Raven
Storm Raven
Aug 5, 2015

Am I the only one who wonders,
what ants do all the time?
When they walk seemingly without a pattern,
do they know where they are going?
What do ants think of us, do we scare them,
or are we not importand enough to care about?
How do they communicate?
Can they be sad?
I keep thinking about the ants?
Do they ever think like this, about the flies? Or spiders, or butterflies?
Who will ever know...

#life   #nature   #thoughts   #random   #wondering   #insects   #rants   #ants  
 
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