I think this is the hardest part
For a mind wired for hardship,
Waiting, loneliness
And pain made much more sense
For a soul structured for survival
Those came more easily to me than this
Than bliss
They say if you can't live without them you know they're the one
How can that ever be the case?
When the God of the universe has so much grace
Promising to be enough in the face of any heartbreak
No matter how great
There's no one I need but Him
And that's what makes sense to me

You lied about that el dorado
They got me for the grand theft auto
They took my prints
They took my phone
I shouldn't love you but I still feel alone
I shouldn't love you but I still feel it all

Can I come a little bit closer?
Like this?
That's okay?
I know I'm such a poser.
Feeling more like a loser.

Is it alright if I say this?
Too much?
Too soon?
Can't believe I already miss
your company when I'm supposed to be in his

Arms, strong enough to hold me
but what if I need softness to be
the strength I'm holding on to; she
gives me something more to see
in darkened eyes great honesty

I'll keep your words with great pride
Show yourself to me, don't hide
Let me stay a bit longer                                                    by your side.

Every end makes a way to start with something new
Every new start promises something different,
something new,
yet something very much interesting raising the level of expectations with regards to what was set as prior.
Also otherwise expectations have always remained a part of life that has always got good,
if not great results,
despite the different inputs and many different outcomes,
which have been dealt with and faced from time to time,
since prior.

I went off my medication,
and went up a few sizes,
sometimes you lose the effort to try,

but when the effort returns,
maybe it will be ignored,
til a more promising day.