That Morning started off grey
But no one could tell
What little light that broke through
Started to warm up my cell

This room was no prison
It's doors do not lock
Solitude was your punishment
Your sentence, each tick of the clock

Time is your enemy
Your thoughts are its home
You think you'd feel better
While the demons out rome.

These demons come back
They hunger, they feel
Their appetite your bad thoughts
Your soul is their meal

They swallow the truth
And lies are spit out
It's starts as a whisper
But ends with a shout

So much is said
But none of it true
The Words are used for pain
That leaves bruises black and blue

Harsh these words come out
And they're aimed right at me
You were cornered you said
Never believing in me

It hurts what you said
Made me feel I didn't belong,
You said to move away
You were right and you were wrong

So I hide in my room
In the house, I once called home
Never wanting to leave
No where to go roam

Our time was cut short
I gave from my heart
The past thrown in my face
I was the problem from the start

I cannot do this anymore
Digging myself into a hole
Allowed myself to hope
Instead I ended up broke
It's both our fault but most is on me
My wish was that we were meant to be
My worst and best days shared with you
Were everything that I knew.
Made me feel complete, so full of life
Little did I know, that was my own knife
I told myself "Just keep it light"
My heart and soul just shined too bright.
But then it hit me like a storm
That you will never call me home
You are exactly where you want to be
Your heart and soul were with me temporarily.
This was a game, I think I lost
Now I'm ready for the worst
You chose the easy way out, so do I
To get you out of my heart and my mind
I wish you happiness with whoever it may be
I don't think I have the strength to see.
I will be first for someone new
Before that happens, I'll forget you
Turns out that you never loved me
It was my perception of reality
I told you goodbye and then I hung up
No txt or a phone call, you never faught back
The saddest thing is, that this is the end
In just one moment I lost love and a friend.

Black ink seaps from my pores- oily and tainted of hatred
My body has no place for anger or hatred or jealousy
So out it spews- from my skin- my lips- spit drenched lips
Spitting up feverish complaints of disgust
Yet they say your poisons are your own to consume
To take- to swallow- to abuse yourself with
Trama ringing as tinnitus in the stillest nights
Dripping from my skin oil pools as I wade through pain
Forcing it all out and drowning in it all the same
Darkness floods my brain- sludge swarming
Black pouring from white out- all sclera eyes rolled back
Begging to wield this pain against another- any monster
No human to be harmed by the inky tendrils that encapsulate me
Sensitivity thinning the toxins out- they pour from my pores
Fingers leaving trails along walls as I sit in a shower to leak out
Ring out to dry- only to refill with more doses of abuse the next day

Stuck in this world that I thought was once perfect
Trapped here with no hope of rescue
My soul is tormented each day
This is my personal hell

This is real and it is true, I'm stuck here
This person won't let me leave

Why won't he let me leave?
Doesn't he care about how I feel?

Aren't you supposed to sacrifice if you love someone?
Isn't that what you're supposed to do?

Why won't he do this for me?
Why doesn't he let me leave?

I thought he loved me
But I was wrong

He loved how I loved him
Even thought I don't
I lied

I stayed because I was lonely
But now I'm trapped and I rather be lonely instead

Why did I do this to myself?
What was I thinking?

I wasn't in the right state of mind when I started this
It's all my fault
My reality is shifted

I can't see the future
I don't have hope

I think I'm stuck here like this forever

c.m.l.

Shattered heart lying on the ground
Splintery in different directions with no hope of being connected
Hope gone with the wind
Replaced with dread and fear

Love is gone
People are replaceable

Until you came along.

c.m.l.

I fixed you with a thousand poems
         yet you broke me with only one!