she started vomiting
white pure daisies
but soon, they all
with crimson red
petals and thorns
that hurts her
throat and lungs—
she cried one last time
as she puked
another rose and said,
"I did not asked for this."
I drove past the place where we first met today.
I felt cold and fragile. I guess nothing has changed.
The discomfort overwhelmed my basic senses, and I couldn't see straight.
I pulled over to gather myself, I found it difficult to breathe
The past eight months has been denial personified, a constant false assurance that everything is alright and that I'm happy for you.
Happy that you're comfortable in life, but I'm still running away from mine.
That moment when you feel like your slowing down and everything around you is replaced or misplaced or even just falling apart, because you don't know what else to believe or even think when that one person comes to your mind because it's been a while since you guys have talked and the last time you spoke was when that person decided to leave you for another person.
I've lost a lot of people for many reasons but mainly over another person ...
As I watch you from across the room
Your face lighting up like the sun
Oh the way you smile
Makes me go crazy
Tugging a string in my chest
You stop talking and turn your head
Our eyes meet
I hold my breath
Heart beat quickens
Hands start to get sweaty
Corners of my mouth start to twitch
I smile back
I see you, standing there,
With the same sparkle in your eyes, and that flawless hair.
I see you, walking past,
And the memories we had, they flood in fast.
I see you, smile on your face,
And i think of us, how we fell from grace.
I see you, with a new guy,
But i can't feel anymore, no matter how hard i try.
I see you, happy again,
And i know it hurts me, but i cant feel the pain.
I see you, looking at me,
but for the first time in my life, i feel free.
Free of the chains that held down my heart,
Free of the pain that broke me apart.
I see you, and i don't bat an eye,
I've finally let go, and that's no lie.
Now that i'm free, i feel like i can fly,
Flying way up high, soaring through the sky.