"Curiosity killed the cat."                     

What this really means

is that,

at a certain point of investigation,

anyone

can become

manipulated

by

their

  own

      curiosity.

As the dust begins to settle;
And night,
Falls.

As your green becomes your gray;
Your rooms,
Halls.

As your flame begins to flicker;
Helpless,
You crawl..

As your beginning becomes your end;
You search,
Recall...

The worst mistake you can make is to take nothing form the past
You break your vows to contemplate the feelings that won’t last
The mind will break into your soul and rip out your desire
Your body punches through your heart and sparks another fire

When I first met you
it was
through an.... open door
But I'm not so sure
that I'm
welcome here ...no more
So i ....
Im gonna say goodbye

Don't get me wrong
Its not to say
We didn't  have some fun
It just seems to be
that those ....days... are done

And so ... can not  say
That  we  both ...
....didn't know
Once  the minutes ....
....and the days
had began to move ......so slow
And i could tell ...you too
Knew....That it wasnt how
It    was    before

So for all the lonely time
I will now have
I can  say without regret
That I've been paid in full
As i hope you can say
That you
As well ...have good memories
You can retain
When its all  over and done
memories will echo
Those sad refrains as silence reigns
Because I've been there
I know just how it feels
I know .....just how bad it feels

And its never easy ...never
Never ever easy

When i first met you
it was .. like
stepping through
an open door
So now ..I'm leaving
but by a different way
So not to spoil
The way it began
back then .....when
You first let me in

But i cannot or will not pretend
That I don't know
It never ever really ends

So even though
We both know
That of late it has all ..
mostly been just for show
Just for show

I leave out by the back door now
So gently do I pull it closed behind me
Dont want a scene or any slamming doors
TO REMIND ME!
It had its time and had run its course
There's no denying that as  i depart
I carry pain in my heart
and heavy weight of remorse
Upon my back

I know someday it will ease
into a back corner of my mind
But i also know that days will
Will not be coming soon when ill find
It weighs less and less each passing day
But i will also be aware that while
I will have begun to seek a happier tune
For my empty core after i find my  smile

Now that I've walked a thousand yards
I turn back to wave goodbye to what once was
The shades are drawn and its all dark inside
So though i am not sneaking away and we
In silent conversation we said all we needed to say
Yesterday
Yesterday we agreed but today i realize my leaving
Has hurt your pride  ... has really hurt your pride
I know I know i know I know I know we both drowned
Through the night and all the tears we each cried
So i do i do know just how it feels as i have been  here
Been here so many times before and its never ever been easy
And it never will ..never will ...i know from so many times before


But when we first met ..it was like i was...
....walking through an open door .
.a door like no other ...i had ever
walked through before and thats why i left my keys
on the kitchen table
Along with my last smile .....at least........
My last one ..... for a long..... long while !

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#firstglance
Oh my, your eyes are so tantalizing. "Nice to meet you. You're so breathtaking. I mean, I'm Steph"

#letstalk
One secret at a time. One insecurity at a time. One dark thought at a time. Can you read my mind???

#ohyouhaveagirlfreind
I mean, it's all good. I'm so happy for you! She seems lovely.

#letshangout
Just us okay? What your girlfriend will meet us there? Alright, I cant wait...

#stolenmoment
How about lunch? You're free? Great, I cant wait! I mean to eat...
Oh this is wonderful. Gosh, I want to kiss you. I really really want to.

#youremybestfreind
I cant wait to see you again and see that smile spread across your handsome face.

#ithinkimfallingforyou
Friends, it isn't enough for me. I've fallen for you and there is no denying it.

#iloveyou
Whispering softly every time we cross paths. Do i dare admit this to you?

#takethechance
"Hey, nice to chat with you after so long, how are you? Oh btw I love you".

#iloveyoutoo
I'll be your good morning and your good night. Let's plan out our lives together.