I was once like a cell tower that connects a region;
But now am like an iPhone without a battery, useless.
If green means on, then nothing turns it on.
Worn out, I lie defeated in dust, thinking about help.
If I am to count on friends in troubled times,
Then I will stop at number zero, to be prudent.
Living among people these days is like being a
yam on a goat's farm that has no feed.
These days people are throwing each other under
The bus easily, only to end up under it themselves.
God! You’re the only constant help in the world;
And without you, we will all be drowning in misery.
By heaven, I tell you it is every man for
Himself these days and God for us all.

I search for myself within you
Offering fear founded issues
Love must be embraced before shared
Through self-hatred I’ve evinced
Selfish care

I can play with words but not with heart, like you...
Everyone prefer to stay away from the people, smart like you...

You deserve to be painted in a masterpiece on my heart...
So no one should dare to touch an art like you...

I hope someday, you will come this way...
I did not burn the bridge when depart, like you...

My heart and mind seem to be in love...
I am learning to keep them apart, like you...

You will win the competition among disloyals...
Since i am not taking in it a part like you...

I cannot speak,
Could not foresee,
It was a danger,
My judgements was led astray,
By liquor and talk of women,
The ugly truth of my sin,
Is I always try to hide,
Committing a crime of passion,
I want to desperately say,
But world's weight crushes me,
That is the lie I tempt to deploy,
As it was a lady of the evening,
I spent a night with not of love,
It was voracious lust,
Twas gluttony of ***,
Promised my hand to another,
Spent it in another's arms,
Now my name and money pay,
Not known as a saint,
Just the cheating dog,
My wallet cries with pain,
Every cent ripped from itself,
That night cost me my life,
Now I am forever gone,
Goodbye my friend,
I'll see Reaper at my rope.

you've left me in sickness
and you've left me in health
you've left me in droughts
and you've left me in rain
you've left me while dying
and you've left me crying

You've left me again and again
and I've stuck by you in times
that you left and those when your
need was a hand to hold and cry
or when you wanted to rip that same skin
in your anxiety & pain

I saw what he did to you
I saw the blackmail
I saw the false pain he painted
I heard his fake screams
and your real ones
and so I wondered

I wondered why
you painted the same pain
with blood and heartbreak
and called me a monster all night
while asking me to help you
these were the same words he used

This was the same pain he gave you
in different ways
with different doses
for different incentives
yet still
the same pain

You'd come back
and I'd believe you to stay
I believed that you would stay
at least for the time you had promised
and its not my fault
if you had promised forever

You'd leave again
like everytime
but I knew you'd come back
like everytime
but this time you say is different
like everytime
and I'm left knowing nothing
like everytime

I had believed my first kiss (you)
would also always be my last
I fought for it to be
maybe I still might
but then how are you so comfortable
kissing lips that aren't mine

You hated your name
perhaps because he told you
that it meant "mine" (his)
But I made you love it
because I showed you its real meaning
The gift from God

Hence I wonder
what makes you hurt me
the way he hurt you
what makes you leave
around every corner
when what is needed is a fight

I am no saint no savior no medic
but I stuck through your nightmares
and I bared the pain you caused
only to sit you down
and stop you from killing
what I had in me for you

But you are My Killer
finding reasons to leave me
ways to hurt me
procedures to rip open
my chest and cut through my heart
that beat with your two syllable name

I still wonder why
and the one reason you offer
is just not strong enough
or good enough
to leave someone in the ways
you left me

I'm no saint
but I've never left you in pain
the way you've always left me

Hold me in your arms and just whisper
No sound just the sound of the candle flicker
It feels different this time
I don't feel like you're really mine

'I Love You' is just a big lie
You just want to see me beg and cry
I used to think it was fine
Until you took all my might and shine

You heard it through the grape vine
That I wasn't loyal
But it wasn't me this time
I can definitely see the signs