Scarlet Rose

Scarlet Rose Mar 2017

Fine

"You're awfully quiet lately. Are you okay?"

I'm okay.
Sometimes I think I might be dying.

I'm just tired.
I cry myself to sleep every night in the dark.

I'll feel better after I get some sleep.
It feels like my heart has shattered into a million pieces.

I'm fine, I promise.
I'm not fine. Please help me.

#lonely #lost #helpme #notfine

Scarlet Rose Mar 2017

Not There

I'm not there to make you smile
After a long day of studying.

I'm not there to hug you tight
When the loneliness creeps in.

I'm not there to say it'll be alright
When you start to lose patience.

I'm not there to pray with you
When the pressure starts to get to you.

It's hard that you're not here for me
But it's worse that I'm not there
When I know that you must need me.

It's only for six months...I never realized six months could be so long...

#love #missyou

Scarlet Rose Mar 2017

Hide and Seek

I'm very good at pretending to be happy
But somehow you know I'm sad
When no one else does

My heart is very broken inside me
But somehow you mended it
When no one else could

I'm easily tired of this world and its people
But somehow you make me smile
When no one else can

I'm very good at hide and seek
But somehow you found me
When no one else did

#love #hiding #found

Scarlet Rose Mar 2017

Homesick

Wherever you are
That is where I belong.

That's why when I miss you
I say I am homesick.

Home is where the heart is

#sad #missyou #homesick #heartsick

Scarlet Rose Mar 2017

Pointless

Everything I do
Everything I say
Everything I think
Is just a motion.

What is the point?
What is the purpose?

I used to get excited
I used to be sad
I used to enjoy life
But now I am numb
There is no feeling

I scream in frustration
I do not understand!
What has changed?

My life is the same as ever it has been
It is only my view that has changed
And now I wonder
What is the point

What is the point of getting up
What is the point of working hard
What is the point of eating
Or sleeping or talking
What is the point of fighting the monsters
When they always come back

What is the point of my life?
Can someone please tell me my purpose?
Can someone give me a reason to keep going?

I do not want to die.
I want to live again.
Would someone please tell me how?

#depression #fighting #givingup #helpme #pointlessness

Scarlet Rose Feb 2017

Locked

They can't see me cry
If they don't open the door

That's why I keep it locked

#broken #sad #alone #crying

Scarlet Rose Feb 2017

Bits of You

I see bits of you in everything.
My sister's jokes.
My mother's scolding.
My grandpa's stories.
My father's protectiveness.
My brother's hugs.
My grandma's smiles.
You seem to be everywhere.

And yet you're still missing.

Here but not here

#imissyou