Just needed one look,
as I gazed into ur telling eyes
to know the fire is still burning,
obvious it's still alive.
And baby girl its heating up,
catching wind, it strives.
Stretching to the pearly white clouds,
it disperses through the sky.

Your lips were smirked,
coated a hint of chocolate brown.
Melted right through me,
knocked all my defenses down.
Became Lost in ur look,
like a pouting puppy in the pound.
Perched on ur throne,
defiant, just missing ur crown.

Then as quickly as you arrived,
you instantly left.
Had me stunned and shook,
drowning with regret.
Missing the photgraphed chokers,
softly fit, yet snug on ur neck.
Fell back on reminiscing of the night,
the magical night we first met.

Close eyes,
deep breath
Sweaty palms,
expanded chest
Racing thoughts,
desperate to move on  
Rugged past
that is contiuously touched upon  

You see im stuck
Or maybe out of luck
I can see the beauty in the distance
Yet there's a trend of "I missed it"
Happiness is one more step foward
However, the threshold has lowered
Hanging on to this feeling to explore
Running to the idea that I can reach that door
Drop my suitcase of memories
Befriend my dishonorable enemies
Escape the sinking quicksand
Grab on to your helping hand

The more you struggle
the more you sink

Its sad that its even difficult
for me to think
Think clearly
sooooooo cloudy
My visionss aaarrrreee soo clllooudyy

yuor lllossinnggnn cotnrolll  
DONT LET IT TAKE YOU
you can make it
be strong  
you need to go
before your gone  
Run with this and fight
The more you think its wrong
the more youll understand its right  
chase the stars you analyze at night
they are beautiful
and so are you
Deep inside you've always stayed true
Please, I beg
One more try
You need to understanding living
Before you die

Why create me?
Do you love me
or hate me.
Whats the purpose?
I feel fckng worthless.
Why so serious?
This addiction has me feeling delirious.
This seems so wrong
For I don't belong
Hopeless traveler
Ruthless scavenger
Lonely warrior
Fruitful courier
Im at the end
cant comprehend
im a fake
i pretend
to be a man
just a phony
faux
spec of dust
grain of sand.
But yet....
i understand.

It was the door, it was my mind.
My heart is bounding, my voice became blinding.
My jaw is the numbest
No one, not even the rain could've heard me.
Could I have even spoken to myself?
I tried, I tried, I swear I tried.
My voice was not loud enough.
I became aimless.
All I hear is the silence, it is so loud and eager.
My ears tingle with static, my tongue hides in fear.
The shutting of my eyes hurt, it's almost unbelievable how awake I was.
I can not close my eyes