i.
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the digital scale continues flashing.
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just a couple kilos more, sweetheart. you'll be dashing.
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it doesn't sound heavy.
but it looks and feels heavy.
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more excercise.
less food. you'll be fine.
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ii.
somewhere along the way we lost you
to everything imaginable.
drugs
alcohol
razors
diets.
we lost you. no one thought you were capable
of self-destruction.