I try to retain my sanity through self reliance
Taking time to reflect on myself
Negative and positive
Train my eye to seek the very existence of mapped contours
Revealing places I never knew I knew

So when I begin to feel the jitters of panic
Small bugs clinching and clawing their way under my skin
Until I'm bled raw from scratching at the enormity of my worries
I turn to a this easy remedy

A novel is only common sense and a necessity
To draw your mind away from other trivial things
And absorb your brain into the deeper meaning of not your life, no
Someone else has given their life for you to annotate
Lose yourself in
Because if you sat alone for too long
With nothing to adventure through
The very though of your loneliness would destroy you from the bone out

And as water fills the white bowl which you will soon sink into it's watery grave
You may undress yourself
Not just to your physical naked body
But to your real naked being
And I dare you to find one new thing about yourself every time you glance in the mirror
The way your eyes shine in brilliance of shades of blues
Flushed cheeks from love making in early hours
Loose fingers
Tight buttocks
Doughy thighs that comfort your lady in her most ignored hours
You may hate what you see
But it's the hate that will make the real beauty shine

Remember this hate, or love in some of the confident cases
As you sink into the hottest water your piping will provide
Don't wash
Read a chapter or two
And when you've tamed your nerves to just a small buzz in the back of your brain
Take a deep breath
And drown