walking under streetlights
piss drunk and
alone
worried about looks
self
aware
self
conscious
      who am i?

i am young
yet feel old
i am tall
yet feel short
        so it goes

i am old
yet feel young
life is long
then it's not
       so it goes

walking under streetlights
piss drunk and
alone
human interaction
blurred and erratic
kicked
out of bars
shit
out of luck
       who am i?

i am an animal
yet feel human
i see god
yet feel nothing
       so it goes

walking under streetlights
debating individualism
and the self
old dean moriarty
that father they never found
wonder
oh what wonders
have we missed
we can't
even know

                                       so it goes