Trying not to let you
notice me, noticing you
as you notice her
from across the room.

Trying not to think
about you, thinking
about her
as you fall asleep.

Trying not to hurt,
not feeling,
no feeling
emotionless.

Trying to control
my thoughts,
not thinking
about you at all.

Trying to move on,
forgetting you,
as you forget me,
with her.

Succeeding.

Trying to find you,
a new you,
a better you,
a replacement.

Trying to reach out
to you,
the new YOU.
notice me,
as I notice you
from across the room.