Missed connections in law office waiting areas and pet store display cases,
a simple searching,
a desperate one,
scanning the parking lots for a small glimpse or a shadow.
Attending social events as distractions or magnifications of feelings,
magnification is what was recieved.
A night ended with unaddressed letters and poetry you might never actually read.
Started by missing classes and wandering the home court,
finished by searching round,
coming up empty,
resigned to eat alone in the crowded room.
My answer waves from across the courtyard,
a simple smile sneaks across my face.
The elastic band of the safety net snaps back into place,
making me think,
"This is how I want it"
A few too-short moments of catch up and sweet strolling brings us down the lane,
I leave just after the hour on business to the place we once spent so much time,
where reports are stacking up and for the first time yours is the lead I follow,
I can see we're still the only two who actually give a damn.
I mount my blue steel machine and bump into Tommy,
the cool sunglasses and skateboard are like memories from a dream.
Invitations and cordial greetings exchanged.
I procrastinate and choose my favorites carefully,
trying to make something work this week.
We end our wishful conversation,
unaprovingly at best,
while I finish one more cigarrette,
and I try to get some rest.