The Sprout and the Bean
"It's a racket."
I really was being a snob
I never lied
I wish you weren't ashamed of me
I wish I wasn't ashamed at myself
for not hating you as much as I know I do
and for breaking my streak
I wish you didn't lie to me
Whether you lied about how much you cared
Whether you lied to yourself when you let slip that you missed me
Whether you lied to me when you let slip that you missed me
Whether you lied to me about her to make me feel bad.
I never lied.
I wish you didn't pretend I did.
"I show her that I love her.
I hug her.
I kiss her.
I tell her that I love her."
I've never loved anybody
I've never hated anybody
I might feel both at the same time
and I don't know how to handle that
"He has done nothing except make you feel like fucking shit. You are done with that piece of shit. Done."
Now I remember.
But I also remember other things.
I hate remembering
Do you remember me?
I hope so
But I also need to be as forgetful as I used to be.