She's a sly hussy, that one.
She slinks up besides you unawares,
at the oddest of moments.
Don't ever think you're alone,
because you're not.
She's always there to hiss in your ear
and giggle as you squirm because her breath
tickles your neck.
When you're in the shower, maybe, she's there,
or in the clothes shop changing rooms,
or sat with a glass of wine
and a new party frock
with a group of friends
trying to concentrate on the conversation
but you just can't
because she's muttering away like always,
in fact she just won't shut the hell up
sometimes so you turn away from her
and then she starts yelling and making a scene
so maybe you've stopped taking her places now
which means by default that
you've stopped taking you places, as well.
People hate being alone but,
with her, alone is preferable
and anyway, alone is unattainable.
She seems like the best friend in the world,
until you realise that she's softly spitting poison in your ears
and the constant hum of her voice is like
diabolical tinnitus, that you learn to tune out
but its still there and you can still always hear it.
Its worst when you're lying awake together.
Its the ultimate paradox; you gotta get away
but you just can't bring yourself
to get out of bed and face the world without her
because that venom in your ears has entered
your bloodstream by now,
so your ears are clogged and your arteries burning
and really you have no choice but to
put her in your pocket and take her with you
so she can interpret the world for you,
cos it seems you can't hear properly after all, anymore.
It never occurs that maybe
this hell-sent witch is twisting reality,
for some reason, because for some reason
her words are perfectly clear
even through the belladonna earplugs.
She's sly, alright.
When life is nothing more than
a hollographic headache
she seems to be the one that's on your side.
But she's got teeth like razors
and claws to match
that sink into the skin
so she can feast on your heartlight
until you're dark on the inside.
The trouble with diabolical tinnitus is
it's so easy to drown the hum
with noisier noise.